64. Acting Like A Teen

Lilith

I woke up my face throbbing. My ribs felt like most of them were cracked. “Good job, idiot, you couldn’t just let me out, you would have time to be in your head for a while but instead you fucking fought my shift and Marcus had to beat the shit out of you.” I couldn’t believe I had done that again. I hated trying to not shift when Kali wanted out. It was painful not only fighting the shift, but what would follow if I fought to hard would result in this.

I didn't think it would happen again; Rob was the only one who had ever beaten me to get me to let Kali out. I winced sitting up. Eric moved instantly. Where had he even come from. I felt stinging on the back of my neck. What the hell had happened. “You are going to have to take it easy, Lilith.” Eric said and I looked at him. I could tell he was putting on a face. Man my face had to look like shit, he probably thought I looked weak and ugly. “He doesn’t, again you are being a fucking idiot.” Kali said to me.

My eyes hurt and I stood, I wanted to see the damage. Eric moved to help me but I held up my hand. I didn’t need help, I had done this to myself. I shut the bathroom door, behind me. I looked in the mirror “Fucking fuck” I said to myself. My face was purple, nose clearly had been broke, lip split and two big black eyes. I lifted my loose shirt. My whole abdomen was black and blue. I tried to get a glimpse of my neck but couldn’t see it. I felt and felt a large bandage. “That was my mate, he shook me by the neck.” Kali said.

“Who knew he was stronger than me.” Kali said and based on her tone she didn’t like it. “Was I sleeping for a while?” I asked my wolf. “Like a day, but they gave you drugs so you would rest. Want to tell me why you fought me, you tried to do that when I found my mate, but you gave in, it has been years since you fought that hard to keep me out. I want an answer by the way, we have been good, why the fuck did you fight me?” She was pissed. “You’re dam right I am pissed, I give you control and encourage you and you won't let me shift, when I am doing it to help you. What the hell did I do to you?”

“I am sorry okay! I just needed to focus on what I just saw, on what I found out, who my father was, I was trying to see if there was anything in the photo that was recognizable.” I told Kali in my head. “But you didn’t let me in your head, you shut me out. So, for once I gave you space and didn’t pry into your mind, and then when I come to help you, you fucking fought me.” I just needed to think. I knew that was all of it was. “So, what did this silence bring you? What are your thoughts now, what did this all fucking accomplish?” Kali snarled.

I thought of my answer. “No, if you even think about it, I will be in my form until you change your mind.” I sighed. “Kali, Rob knows more, I want to know, he may know where he is.” Kali growled in my head. My arm started to burn. I knew she was threatening me that she would force a shift. “You can wait a few more months, or I don’t know ask your fucking mate for help. There was a name on the photos, he may know something. But, instead of relying on someone who is here for you, you want to run to the man who groomed you. I thought you were smart, but maybe Rob was right, and you are stupid.” I was now the one angry.

“Don’t say that to me. I know what he said. I know what he wants, but I want this information.” I yelled to my wolf in my head. “I swear to you Lilith don’t fucking test me, you will hurt more than you do now. I am not going to let you step foot in that gym. Rob is there, and he is horrible, and let’s not forget Bowie, I could have died when he attacked you, I shifted to protect you, and he almost killed me. NO! You will not be going to Rob’s, I don’t care if I have to force a shift in your school in front of the humans, NO!” I shook in anger. Both Kali and I were stubborn. “You know what no more city, you are done there, we will commit crimes somewhere else, no more city.”

I screamed in anger. Eric burst through the door. He looked freaked out and concerned and looked around, seeing if there was a threat. “What happened?” He asked worry all in his voice. “Kali, said I can’t go to the city anymore.” Eric tilled his head. I looked back to the mirror. Saying to Kali in my head “I have to graduate.” I told her and she replied smugly “There is a school here, not to mention, you could do it online. I mean my god; you can test out and get a diploma.” I argued “What about Juliet?” Kali of course had a response. “That is easy I will convince Axel to convince Eric to let her come here. And besides I am sure Eric will be happy you are staying here and no longer going to the city, if this is the compromise it will be nothing to him.”

Kali was talking to me like I was a child and she the parent and I didn’t like it. “You have never had a parent, and Rob wasn’t, that is fucking for sure. He groomed you, used you, and doesn’t care about you. Maybe someone should parent you.” I was angry at her, and had nothing more to say on the matter. “That is right of course you don’t, talk to Eric, we are done for now, and working on this shitty attitude of yours, I don’t think you remember what I can do to you. We found a balance between us and have for a while. If you want to go back to how things used to be, I could.”

I winced at her threat. I didn’t want that. I walked past Eric and crawled back into bed. “Guess I am transferring schools, either online or here at the pack.” I spoke. Eric looked at me concerned. “You won’t want to go to school at the pack, no offense to our education, but it is basic, you are too advanced for that. The shifters who are extremely intelligent do online school.” I looked at the celling. I knew I was acting like a selfish teenager right then. Made sense I suppose considering I was only 18. “Do you want to talk about any of it? Your dad or anything?” Eric asked.

“Do you know where he is?” I asked finally looking at him. Eric shook his head. “Then no I don’t want to talk. I want to lay here, if you could have someone set me up with online school I would appreciate it.” I knew I was being a bitch. But I didn’t care. I hated the ultimatum Kali gave me. I hated that Marcus had to beat me like Rob, I hated everything right now. I knew I was being a selfish kid right now. But did I care, not a dam bit. I wanted to sulk.

Eric didn’t say anything and went to handle what I asked. I laid there for days, ignoring my phone calls, and texts from everyone: Juliet, the Cheerleaders, Roxie, I even refused to see Noel. I only got up to go to the bathroom. I refused to eat; I was just angry. Kali didn’t talk to me either. Eric came into the room; I ignored him like I had for the last week. “Get your ass out of fucking bed.” He demanded. “Leave me alone Eric” I said apathetically. “I have given you space, but apparently that is not working, now get your fucking out of bed now or I will drag you out.” Yeah right, he wouldn’t do that. He had never been one to treat me like that. I covered my face with the blanket.

Suddenly the comforter was ripped from me, and I was grabbed. “Let me fucking go.” I screamed Eric through me over his shoulder. With my ribs still sore, they had healed but it was still slower than full shifters and it hurt slightly. “Shut up.” Eric snapped. “No, you shut up, you dick!” I screamed as he carried me out of our room. “Let go of me, or I will.” Eric cut me off. “Or you will what Lilith? Go back to bed and wallow, you are going to fight me to get out whatever anger you have, and then you are going to let Kali out and let her have her time, because she is pissed and complaining to Axel for not running. Apparently, you two can’t get along. And before you say you can’t fight because of your injuries; I know that is not true.”

“I asked your friends from the Gym about this, they said, even when Rob beat you, you got up the next day and fought, trained, and went about life. So don’t give me that bullshit.” I screamed like a banshee in frustration as I hit into his back. I didn’t care that there were onlookers, I could see them from the corner of my eye as I thrashed. Eric didn’t flinch as he carried me into the woods, where he dropped me onto the ground. I stood and glared. “I am so tired of this shit, get it together or I will be doing this every day.” I snarled. “Fucking DICK!” I yelled at him. “Oh, right I am the big bad wolf, who can’t stand to see the person I love and respect acting like a fucking child and wallowing in self-misery, get your shit together.”