91. Back to Reason

Eric

I looked at my mate, she was standing their arms crossed over her chest. Her glare was penetrating me with anger. What was she angry about? I knew she was not happy with the news of having multiple kids, but that look was not worry. No this was plain anger. She had walked into the packhouse straight up to my office and now here she was arms crossed glaring at me.

“What happened now?” I asked. I knew it was not the polite thing to say, but like her, I was angry as well. She just left the doctor's office. Only to tell me that she wanted to be alone. Weirdly enough before that she said she felt like she couldn’t stand to be alone because she felt like she could be kidnapped again. “You, kept something from me.” I swallowed hard. How did she know, what did she know. Lilith spoke again. “You know where my father is.” She stated. I wouldn’t straight up lie to her. “Do you deny it?” Lilith asked.

“No” I saw her eyes go narrow. “Okay so you want to tell me about that then, like I don’t know why you decided to not tell me. Or maybe just tell me where he is so I can go find him.” She hissed. “Lilith I was not purposefully keeping it from you. You were kind of not able to talk the last few days, seeing as people came into the room and you had no idea. You had no idea that I had even plugged in your laptop. So even if I did tell you, you wouldn’t have registered it.” I watched Lilith’s face fall a little bit. She knew I was right.

I went on “I planned to tell you when you were more yourself, and when you could see reason.” She glared at me again. “Reason? I am reasonable.” Her voice cracked a little, she knew she was lying. “Lilith I was going to tell you” I told her. I didn’t like all of this. The Doctor explained to me with her being pregnant there would be some agitation combined with her recent kidnapping, Lilith would be angry and volatile I knew this, but it was still nice having it confirmed by a medical professional.

Lilith sat down in one of the chairs. “Just tell me Eric” I stared at her wondering if that would be wise. “Okay, but we can’t go see him right away. I can give you information that I have though, but Lilith we need to have a serious talk.” Lilith chewed on her bottom lip and then slowly nodded. That was something at least. “Eric, I am sorry okay. I don’t mean to be lashing out. Okay, it is just a lot. I did talk with Roxie, and it did seem to help. I know I can talk to you about stuff, but I didn’t want to. I know I shouldn’t blame you and I don’t really for everything that happened with Bowie. I just have been uncomfortable, but after talking with Roxie I do feel a bit better about being pregnant. As for feeling unsafe, I think that will just take time.”

That seemed reasonable enough. “Lilith you do know why I don’t want to bring you to go meet your father right away don’t you?” I asked. She said “Because I am pregnant, and we would most likely be walking into a whole pack that is full of wolves that have been known to be insane and have a violent streak. You are worried either both of us will get hurt. Not only that but what if us visiting them makes it so they want to get up and attack again?”

I raised my eyebrows; she may not have been doing too well lately but that didn’t stop her from thinking things through. “Eric, I am not going to run off. I just would have liked to be informed, okay? Now can you please tell me what you found out.” I nodded and responded; I pulled out a large map. “The red circle is where we located the pack. I had to tell those hunting for them, to step back stay hidden. I didn’t want to risk their safety. The reports where they have been there for some time but it also looks like a transient area so they could get up and move at any time.” Lilith was quiet for a long time before she said. “Thank you, Eric, for the truth. It is best the pack, that is watching them, remain unseen. If they are close to how Kali normally is they will be killed outright. I don’t think you need to worry about them coming here or at least knowing if they discover the scouts they are from our pack. There will be no interrogation, just killing, at least that is what Kali would do.”

“Thanks for the input I will make sure they know if they are caught to run.” Lilith then said “Eric, I don’t need to see a therapist I really don’t. At least not at this point. I know you pointed out I am scared of the shower. Well that I think I can work out if I just get into it. As for unresolved things I am just not ready okay. If I am I will let you know.” She was right the talk with Roxie had done her a world of good. She was seeming more reasonable and more herself. “I also hate to admit it, but the doctor is right. I need to go see an OB for this pregnancy. Though I don’t really know how to go about doing that considering I don’t have insurance and neither do you since, we like everyone in the pack, go to the pack medical care. It makes sense seeing as everyone here is full shifter and I am only half.”

“I think that is a good idea. And I can pay privately. How are you doing with all of that? Now that you have had time to cool down.” Lilith looked around. “Honestly nervous, and slightly stupid. I should have listened to the doctor and not gotten my stitches wet now our kids have to see a nasty ass scar by my mouth.” I looked at her curiously. “Don’t you dare fucking tell the doctor I said that. I fucking hate I told you so’s.” I tried not to laugh. This sounded like my mate. “I do have to say though Eric you must have some fucking magic stuff in you dick to make three babies in one go.” She then pointed at me. “I will tell you though you better not do this again. Three is more than enough children. I am not risking this ever again.”

I raised one of my eyebrows. “And if we have girls, who will be alpha?” Lilith glared at me. “Then one of the girls will be alpha, hell all three of them can be for all I care. I don’t give a flying fuck, but no more kids Eric and I mean it.” I tried not to laugh. My parents only had three kids, and I didn’t want more than that, but it was fun to watch Lilith squirm. “Okay so Eric also what the fuck are we going to say to the human doctor when she sees my fucked-up body. I can’t very well show up in human world like this.” Lilith made a good point. “Well, I guess we need to think of something, maybe you could use makeup to cover up a lot of it.” That was the best advice I had. I didn’t know how to cover the extent of damage she had. “I will just use what I used to use. I box, seems to get people off my back for the bruising, but there are the bits. I guess I could put band aids over them and just say it was bad hits that broke the skin. You know I am an expert on covering up injuries.” She said like she was proud of herself. I didn’t know if that was something that was necessarily good, but Lilith seemed to think so.

“Oh, you should know Eric, I will be done with school soon.” I was a little surprised but also, I had seen her so focused it was not a total surprise to me she would be done with school soon. “So what are you going to do after that.” She stared at me like I should have known the answer. I had known her thoughts on that before her kidnapping I was just wondering if she still had the same plans. Granted I would be supportive of whatever she wanted to do. “You are kidding right?” She spoke. “Well, I just want to know if you changed your mind on things?” I spoke.

“No, I have not. I plan to whoop this pack into shape. I plan to have a family with you and maybe do college at some point but as of right now I have no plans to do that.” I nodded and Lilith went on. “Also, I was maybe thinking, well before the whole Bowie thing, I may work at the pack school. I know it is lacking in extracurricular activities. I have experience and could maybe change that.” I raised my eyebrows. I liked seeing this side of Lilith. The side where she stepped up and became Luna. “Do you think you still want to do that inner city thing with younger shifters. To help them find a pack so they don’t end up with... well you know.”

I didn’t want to say Rob. I knew how Lilith felt about talking about him. “Yes, but I don’t know how to go about it.” Lilith said. I knew she would figure it out. “So, you seem happy about having three kids at once.” I turned my head. I didn’t expect her to want to talk about this again. “Am I not supposed to?” Lilith laughed. “You are so serious Eric. But no, I suppose not you should be happy.” I examined her carefully. “Are you really not happy?” I was curious, I knew she had anxiety over the whole thing. But I also know she wanted this at some point, so I really wanted to know where she was at with this.

Lilith remained quiet for a long time and said “I was, but Roxie told me this was a good thing and like you pointed out this is what I wanted eventually to happen. Not the three babies at one time, but children with you. Also I wish I had not found out the second I got home. I wish I had found out when I was calm and not have beaten to death by my own wolf. But other than all of that I would say yes I am happy.” I snorted. “After all of that you are happy.”

Lilith made a face and “Shut up, yes, I am happy. Freaked the fuck out. No fucking doubt about that but yes, I am happy.” This was good we could work on this. I was happy it seemed like she really did just need some space from me. It was like that day she went to the city by herself. When she came home it was like she was a different person. Not too different just that she seemed calmer and more focused. I saw that from her now. I knew everything would work out. “At least now your father will be happy.” Lilith said sarcastically.