98. Me or Him

Lilith

Roxie and I went into the store. It was a small boutique we both started to walk around in different directions. I didn’t know about almost any of the stuff. I was looking at the strollers they had, and they were so overpriced. “Lilith is that you?” I looked up and saw the person I least expected to find out in this random baby boutique “Hey Cece.” I spoke. It was Juliet’s cousin.

“What has it been like 3 three since we saw each other.” I nodded. I had seen her when she visited Juliet. She was older than us. But like Juliet she had a bunch of money. She had married someone last year. I know because Juliet went to her wedding. I had been invited but I turned it down, I would have had to go out of town and with Kali and with her needs I couldn’t do that. “Yeah” I said uncomfortably looking down and seeing her stomach was large and round. She was pregnant. “So are you pregnant.” I nodded. She was about to say something when Juliet walked up next to her cousin.

Fuck could my life get any more annoying. I had no desire to see her. Cece turned to Juliet. “Look who I ran into, why didn’t you tell me Lilith was pregnant.” Juliet raised her eyebrows looking at me then that fucking smirk came across her face. It was like she was rubbing it in my face that she knew this would happen. I just stared at the two of them. Cece had the gall to ask, “Did you get back with Bowie, Juliet told me you broke up a while ago, but she didn’t tell me you were seeing anyone knew.”

Before I even responded Juliet spoke to her cousin. “No, Cece she and Bowie aren’t together anymore, well unless she left her current boyfriend for him. But then again how would I know Lilith here likes to keep her whole life to herself and never share anything with anyone. So maybe Lilith is back with Bowie, it wouldn’t surprise me he seemed more her speed than Eric. From what Noel, that is Eric’s brother, Eric is really kind and compassionate. Lilith she here never seemed to like to conform to things so probably went back to Bowie. Do tell us Lilith which man made the mistake of knocking you up.” I was open mouthed looking at my previous friend. I was trying to get a hold of myself.

“Holly Hell, you did leave Eric for Bowie. I knew he was too good for you. Noel said you were great for him, but I knew it wouldn’t last. That is it, isn’t it? I mean you always were silent when you didn’t want to say the truth. You are so dumb; I mean leaving school and moving in with someone just to hop back on a convicted dick.” I had it my hand lashed out and I slapped her hard across the face. She held her face shaking. “I am not pregnant with fucking Bowies child you two faced bitch. I still live with Eric and Noel well he seems to be really happy now that you are not together anymore. Don’t ever fucking talk to me again.” I said and then looked at Cece. “Cece good luck on your pregnancy.” I walked off.

What a fucking bitch I thought trying to find where Roxie was. When I got to her my blood was still pumping. I needed to do something. I needed to break something or someone. My anger was pumping hard. I knew who deserved a fucking beating. “Roxie I am going to be in the bathroom if you need me.” She smiled and nodded still rocking in the glider. I got to the bathroom and looked at my face in the mirror.

It was red and I could see the two dots on my face. The bite from Bowie and I seethed. It was not noticeable at this point, but I could see it. I knew where to look for it. I pulled out my phone. Anger consuming me. “What are you doing Lilith?” Kali questioned. “Shut up and if you say a fucking word to Axel about this, I swear to you Kali there will be severe consequences.” I dialed a number I knew by heart. “Hello?” I looked at myself in the mirror. “Rob, I will kill Bowie.” I then hung up. Kali said. “You can’t go to the city Lilith you know that.” “Oh, yeah really? You can’t force me to shift, I am pregnant. What are you going to do force a shift and kill my children?” She was quiet.

“Kali you are going to follow along with what I do. You fucking owe me that. You tried to fucking kill me. So, you will keep this a secret do you understand.” My wolf agreed and I grinned. I had to stand there for a while until I found my composer. I just now needed to formulate a plan. I knew better than to walk into a trap. Rob would have it set up so when I came, he would never let me out again. I couldn’t be caged again. I would have to be as smart as he was. This now was going to be a game of chest. But this anger needed to go somewhere, and this was the perfect outlet. A plan to outsmart my creator and my ex.

“Kali it all needs to end, I can’t have Bowie or Rob around. Not with three kids coming into the world. Bowie and Rob both need to be gone. You will keep this to yourself and help me when I need it.” I told my wolf. Kali responded. “Lilith how can I help you. I can’t shift and you know it.” I smiled at myself. “I know, which they won’t expect, just trust me okay. I know how to play this game. Rob if he did anything right, he taught me to think. Bowie may have not been smart enough to know the game of life, but I do. I was taught by the best. All you have to do is keep this to yourself.” I told her. “But Axel and Eric could help. They want to.”

I snapped at my wolf “They may want to. But they don’t know the rules. No, this is between me and Rob.” I said to her. “Why are you acting like this? Is it all because of what Juliet said?” Kali asked me. “No, she was just being a cunt. No, I just realized I am angry, and I have every right to be. I want it to be over, and it won’t ever be unless either Rob or I die. Unlike you I will not let it be me.” Kali said, “Lilith I said I was sorry, you said you forgave me.” “I do forgive you. But all of this, every horrible thing that happened when I was taken was because of Rob. He should have killed Bowie when he had the chance, after he put me in the hospital. He should have killed him after prison. This is on Rob and like Bowie, he must die.”

I refused to be a horrible mother, like mine was. Bowie was not a threat to my future children, and I knew it. He only wanted me. He needed to be put down but Rob. He was a threat not to just me but my kids to. He would prey on them and do whatever he could to have them under his thumb. It was only a matter of time before he found out where I lived. It was just time that was holding him back from knowing the pack’s location and of my pregnancy. Then he would plot something else entirely, and that was scary. Rob was formidable. But I was better and now was my chance to prove it.