Chapter 164: It Is Not A Big Deal
Chapter 164: It Is Not A Big Deal
Camilla
Most of the time, aftercare was just a nice comfort after scenes but I really needed it right now. I couldn't explain why I was so wiped out but my body would barely move despite my brain's commands, my tears a constant flow of emotions pouring out of me. They understood though, possibly better than even me myself.
Their loving touches and soft words of approval made me feel safe and it tethered me in a sense to reality. This was real, I just took all three of them and in turn of my submission, they gave me everything. Even now, I was never given the chance to feel alone or sad or regret. The realization that they weren't leaving struck hard today and that was the truth.
I think I could spend the rest of my life with these men, no matter how complicated or hard it may be.
"Hanging in there, princess." Adriano said as he began to kiss away each of my tears, placing right touches to each of my closed eyelids before tucking a few strands of hair behind my ear.
"Mhmm," that was the only response I was capable of, not even noticing both Gregorio and Domenico had left until their return.
They didn't have to speak to understand each other as Adriano's grip tightened just ever so slightly on my body, lifting me up and carrying me over to the bathroom where the other two now waited. The smell of my bath salts greeted me with every inhale past the door and it wasn't long before I was being transferred from one pair of arms into Domenico's who was already in the tub.
I flinched at the hot water burning against my sore skin but I was forced to adjust as I was slowly lowered, realizing that the heat felt insanely good on my muscles after the initial burn passed.
"Stay," I heard Gregorio speak from beside me but my eyes were too heavy to remain open so instead, I just listened.
"We won't talk about it, just stay."
When the realization that he was talking to Adriano hit me, I was a little surprised as I felt a heavy tension loom over them, one that extended much farther than what happened tonight. It wasn't until some seconds later that I heard a slosh of water come right in front of me, the result of Adriano staying as my feet were pulled into his lap. At his touch, despite the exhaustion eating away at my consciousness, I opened my eyes to look at him.
There was conflict in his expression and he refused to look at his brothers at my side but when he felt my gaze, his attention drifted softly over to me. I realized he wasn't angry, he was sad and I didn't know how to take it away.
"Just let me hold you." He rasped as if understanding where my mind had traveled to and I allowed him to hold me.
Although I know he meant more so metaphorically, Domenico still passed me over to his brother, his expression telling me not to push him on this right now. Gregorio and Domenico began to wash me while I was held upright by a strong pair of arms and as the minutes passed, I felt Adriano begin to relax slowly. I feared I knew what was bothering him and like I thought before, I don't know how to help.
Simply deciding that letting them take care of me was the best thing I could offer, I moved with them as gels and body scrubs were lathered over my skin, kisses being planted to my cheeks when they felt like it. Tonight was a lot for all of us but holding each other seemed to be something necessary for not just myself but for the remaining three as well.
We quietly talked as they scrubbed my body and my giggle echoed off the dark painted drywall when my feet tickled from the loofah Gregorio ran across my toes. My hair remained mostly untouched by the water but Adriano played with it the entire time, combing through the waves as though it were a lullaby for his heart. It turns out it becomes as well because it wasn't long before I fell asleep in his arms.
Next morning
I woke up with the top half of my body on Adriano's, Gregorio spooning my side from behind. A small headache flickered at my temple but I couldn't bring myself to care much at the sight of a messy haired Domenico half cuddling Gregorio as well in his sleep.
The sight made me smile to myself as I lifted my head, realizing that this was the first time I have ever woken up with all three of them in bed with me. As consciousness slowly returns to the brain, I very quickly become aware of the pain in my stomach and the soreness of every muscle, but I forced myself to ignore it for now. My thoughts had more important things to focus on, like the fact Adriano was one of three l woke up next to.
"Hey, princess." He whispered, offering an easy yet tired smile.
I returned a gesture of my own but my grin dropped a little bit at the dark circles under his eyes and the exhaustion affecting his state.
"You didn't sleep?" I quietly asked, the palm of my hand lifting from where it rested on his chest and up to his face.
I ran my thumb along the line of his jaw as he softly leaned into my touch, but he didn't seem to care very much about the fact of how underslept he looked.
"I didn't want to leave you."
I knew he had nightmares as much as I did, but I never considered the possibility that he stayed up all night to avoid them. Did he stay up during our last night together too then?
"That is not healthy, I…." I began, wanting to tell him that I understood, that it was okay but I was cut off by a small hush from his lips.
"I am okay," he lied, pulling my chin up until his face was beside mine.
I felt warm at the contact, at the feeling of his mouth brushing against my cheek to soothe my worry for him, I can't help but pull away when I get another uncomfortable pain in my stomach. I wince as I sat up a little, my eyes going wide at the sight of blood on the sheet.
"Oh my goodness, I am so sorry, Adriano." I said, closing my legs to try and cover the blood in between them, tears already pricking my eyes.
I tried not to cry as I heard Domenico stir from behind, pushing myself away when I saw the realization passing through Adriano's eyes.
"Don't worry about it at all, Camilla. They are just bedsheets." He said at the same time Domenico woke up.
This is so embarrassing, I think to myself as Adriano gets out of the bed, uncaring that he was still naked from last night. As things clicked with Domenico, he shot me a look when he also stood up, walking over to where I was before sitting down in Adriano's place.
"It is not a big deal." He said in earnest while I heard the sound of Adriano turning on the shower in their bathroom.
I couldn't bring myself to meet his eyes as I bite my cheek and nod, even though I nearly died when I found Gregorio awake too, gently pulling the comforter off his body. That too has blood on it but instead of speaking, he leans up and kisses the side of my head.
"What did you need from us?" He asked, his voice still scratchy from his sleep.
The fact that they were so damn perfect about this only made me want to cry more. Although, the part I hated the most was that I am going to have to deal with my family and my period at the same time. The realization had me eternally groaning as I shifted away from the blood on the bed, not sure what to do.
"How about a shower first?" Domenico suggested my panicking silence, causing me to swallow and remember this wasn't a big deal.
'Periods happen, get over it, Camilla. It is not a big deal.' I tried to calm myself down.
"Come here," I heard Adrano's voice from the entrance as he walked back towards me, picking me up into his arms before I got the chance to protest.
I instantly felt self-conscious as I pressed my legs together but I was carried to the bathroom so swiftly, I only caught a glimpse of Gregorio and stripped the bed of its sheets before we stepped into the bathroom. The warm fog of steam greeted me as I was placed down in front of the already running shower and Adriano's hand running down my back as he opened the door for me.
"I am really, truly sorry about your bed." I apologized again, relieved he wasn't mad but still feeling bad about it. In response, he turned and gently grabbed my face in both of his hands.
"Stop saying sorry for things that are both natural and out of your control."
I was going to say more but my heart skipped at the feeling of blood beginning to trickle down the inside of my thighs and hopped into the shower before this perfect man could notice it.
"I will be done in a few minutes." I said, wrapping my hands around my arms as I let the door sway close in front of me.
His voice was muffled but I heard him say something about things being on the counter when I was ready before I started washing my body. I was appreciative that he didn't plan on lingering, knowing that him taking care of me right now would really have my emotions out of whack.
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