Chapter 254: Nobody Wants Me Dead
Chapter 254: Nobody Wants Me Dead
Camilla
"You have that fiery look in your eyes, so I assume we were in big trouble again." Domenico smiles as though he was amused by my presence here but then I realized it was probably due to my refusal to stare at any of them when they were all dressed like this or undressed.
They seemed to have no problem with the fact that I had just been in their house without permission and it was clear they didn't already know I was here based on Adriano's version of a hello with me pressed against him. While they made their way into the house, I stayed glued to the spot, finally forcing my eyes up to see them lazily standing in the kitchen, grabbing bottles of their fancy water from the fridge before returning their attention back to me.
Within seconds of being here, they were all now relaxed and resting against the edge of a portion of the countertop, watching me and waiting patiently like they were the epitome of saints.
"You wouldn't be in trouble if you didn't kidnap Jacob Pope for nothing more than sole reason that you are all a bunch of jealous bastard." I tried to speak just as calmly as they looked right now, even though my anger was barely contained within me.
I can't believe I thought that list changed anything. They were still the same overbearing and controlling men as before.
"Oh, you mean the Retriever?" Gregorio grins as he crosses his arms over his chest, unintentionally flexing his muscles with the movement. Or maybe he did mean to distract me but he couldn't really think something like that would soften what I had to say.
"The, what now?" I seethe, stepping out from the front entrance and over to the kitchen where I was going to kill them.
"Yes, he didn't like that name much either." Domenico raised his eyebrows as I stormed right up to him, angrier than I think any of them realized.
I didn't know what they did with Jacob but he got me through shitty times when they weren't there to do so. They couldn't be fucking jealous about that.
"Don't you…." Domenico began as he saw my movements coming but never got the chance to finish it as I slapped the words from his mouth, not letting him move before I was grabbing his face and pulling him down to me.
"If you hurt him, I swear to god, I will leave right now and I will never come back. I am sick of your controlling shit and you thinking you have the right to intervene in other people's lives." I said, making him look me in the eyes as I speak.
"Even if I was still capable of it, I wouldn't love the people you have become anyways."
I saw that it hurt as I landed the final blow, that sick feeling returning in my chest but they needed to know that I wasn't something that belonged to them. The relationship we had before only ever made me feel like their equal but that is not what this was at all. They were trying to regain control over a situation that was out of their hands.
My words seemed to have done the trick as Domenico reared back as though I had stabbed him and in a way I probably did. I refused to let myself care, though, because I didn't owe anybody anything. I may not like who I am right now but at least that is my decision. Mine, not theirs, not my father's. Only mine.
"We didn't harm a single hair on your precious little boyfriend's head, Camilla." Domenico said, my name sounding cold and ashy on his tongue.
There were walls around all of us of our creation, only this time it wasn't just mine. I had hurt him, it was the only thing I was sure of at that moment.
"But you did go visit him, didn't you?" I accused, knowing the truth anyway.
I chose not to comment on the boyfriend title because all it confirmed for me was that they were in fact jealous out of their minds.
"We did it for you!" Domenico yelled as I was suddenly pulled back, Adriano's hand gently clasped around my arm before letting go once there was enough space to do so.
I had seen him get angry plenty of times, hell there were even moments where I wondered if he had completely shut down but seeing it on Domenico, it was different and it was terrifying. It was so easy to forget he has Don blood running in his system.
"Bullshit!" I yelled back anyways, not caring how mad he was.
I have been angry for a year and it wasn't my job to accommodate him when I finally got a taste of the helplessness I have spent most of my life living in.
"You bodyguard, Camilla can't even protect you against a mutt, so we were simply giving him the heads up that he could either be our enemy or our ally but that we were going to do everything in our power to keep you safe either way." Adriano cuts in with that commanding voice of his, almost as though he expected for us to drop this as a result.
Instead, I laughed as I hung my head, lifting my hands to rub over my face and ball in my hair link. It would make a difference in anything. It wasn't a sound of happiness but rather exasperation and I really truly hoped they could see how much they were killing me right now as I refused to shed any more tears.
"Protect me?" I repeat, my voice sounding a lot more pain than I meant it to be.
"What are you going to protect me from, huh? The fucking air? Or maybe it is perhaps from all of the imaginary people you seem to believe are out to get me?" I continue, the realization that this could never work, bearing down on me heavily.
It was my fault thinking I could mix the past and the present and it was only now I was coming to terms with how severely wrong I was.
"Are you really so ignorant to believe there aren't people after you when it is no longer a secret who your father is?" Domenico said, Gregorio remained still and quiet against the counter where he hadn't moved from.
"My father has nothing to do with this…."
"He has everything to do with every goddamn problem in this world!" He interrupted me, not moving to get closer but still feeling like he was surrounding my every being.
"Lucas took you, darling. He kidnapped you and now people want you dead for your relationship to him."
"Nobody wants me!" I shook my head as I day what I know is true.
This only seems to piss Domenico off more but he could die with it. All they have wanted to do is talk and control, so it wasn't my problem when I wasn't responding in the way they had hoped.
"Everybody wants…." Adriano began but I wouldn't let him finish his sentence.
Were they really so blinded that they couldn't see what was right in front of them? I have known these facts for over a year because I have lived them and there was nothing they could say or do to change it.
"For fuck sake, people want Lucas's daughter!" I said, the house going silent as I stepped far enough away that I didn't feel so damn crowded.
"They want the Don's ex-girlfriend, they want the heir to the Mafia family, my enemies want Camilla Davis. Mabel wants a daughter she can dress up to play the part, my father wants obedience and you three want the woman who died over a year ago!"
I kept on walking back as the truth weighed in the air around us, thickening like black clouds over a pretty picture.
"Domenico, nobody wants me, so please stop pretending like it is anything otherwise."
Nobody spoke but they were all looking at me from the moment my lips first parted. Even the storm raging within Domenico seemed to pause as he heard what I was unable to change. Adriano was tense and still not too far from me but it was Gregorio's gaze that demanded my attention. His eyes begged me to believe that what I said wasn't true, not when it came to them and yet that was the cruelest part of all. They think that they want me but they don't. If they knew about what I had done when I stayed at The Safe, they would look at me and only be able to see the broken goods that I am.
"Camilla…"
"I am not looking for pity or sympathy or whatever it is that is on your mind right now but this…" I paused, using my arms to motion about the chaos between us.
"This isn't something I want, if there are people out to get me, they can come get me. If there comes a time where I can fight them off then I suppose that is how fate will have it."
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