Chapter 188: I Love You So Fucking Much
Chapter 188: I Love You So Fucking Much
Adriano
"I am okay if leaving is what you need to handle what is going on up here." Camilla whispered, tapping her index finger against my head.
"But maybe one day, just maybe you could take me with you." She added.
I let my eyes close as the last of the shampoo was finally washed out, her hands already reaching for the conditioner as a few tears slipped past, hidden by the water and also dripping down my cheeks. But she noticed, I don't know how but she sees me for how I am right now, bringing her fingers back to my hair instead of pressuring me to speak.
"You don't really know the extent, Adriano but I can fight." She said, my eyes reopening to look at my beautiful girlfriend above me.
"If you want to go into a ring with me, I will fight you. If you want to drink, let me be your partner."
She washed the conditioner from her hands before moving to hold my face instead, my teardrops sliding over her fingertips.
"If you want to stay home for a week so that you can use me in every way you possibly need. Then I will be whatever kind of submissive you need to get you through this."
How did I end up with someone like her? What did I do to deserve a person so understanding and as perfect as Camilla?
I watched as her head remained tipped down, taking care of me in ways I didn't even know I needed. Usually with us, things were the other way around but if it weren't for her, I probably would have spiraled again for another whole week.
"You are everything to me, Adriano." She kneeled down too, still holding my face as water dripped over our bodies.
"I hate it when you are in pain so if I can help, just let me help you."
A shuddering breath racked through my body as so much emotions poured out of me, everything I have tried to keep hidden breaking like a dam. I don't like accepting help from people because that means acknowledging things are wrong but Camilla figured it out on her own. It doesn't matter that she doesn't know the specifics, she was holding me through everything and refusing to let go.
Tonight wasn't going to end anytime soon, considering all that I wanted to tell her but there was something that couldn't wait that I had to do first. Until Camilla, I didn't know if I could feel this way again. So many pieces of me having been broken away as a teenager but she makes everything easier. She makes me feel like I have a voice above all and a heart below the layers of fucked up memories that makes me who I am.
My entire life has consisted of trauma, money and influence but none that matters if I grow so cold I can barely recognize the person I used to be before at all. I learned how to run before I could walk but she makes me feel like I can finally take things step by step. She makes me feel alive, like when I am with her, nothing else can hurt me.
"Camilla," I cried, pushing away the now dark strands of hair that are stuck to her face, her eyes looking up at me through her own wet lashes.
She was so selfless and so beautiful. She is the one thing I would never regret having in my life and because of that, I stopped running.
"I LOVE YOU," I whispered as I held her face, her hands mirroring mine.
I watched as her fingers moved to wrap around my wrists just to have that contact and when I saw the most breathtaking smile appear across her face, we fell apart. I don't know who moved first but it wasn't long before her lips were pressing against mine as I opened for her, my body rocking back until I was pressed against the cold wall.
She had straddled me, her hands sliding into my hair as she pulled me back from our kiss and her cheeks flushed with happiness with the mixture of her previous tears.
"Say that again," she said against my mouth, her ocean blue eyes holding on mine as the same relief I am feeling swirl within them.
"I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH, CAMILLA." I said, kissing her in between words.
"I love you so goddamn much that it hurts."
I love her so much that I would do anything, become anything just to give her the life she wants and deserves.
"I LOVE YOU TOO." She grins softly but our hands turn frantic when she says the words that set me aflame.
No matter how close we were, it was no longer enough as I pulled her into me, crushing my mouth to hers. The slip of our tongues against each other was passionate yet needy at the same time, the water falling down over us and making everything perfectly messy. I groaned as her lips rolled down to meet mine, her body gently rocking against me in desperation to be together.
I never knew I needed to hear those three words as badly as I did but there was no going back now and I loved it.
"Lift up a little," I panted as her hands held onto my shoulders, gripping it tight.
The next time she came down, it was with my díck fully inside her. She was still sensitive from earlier but I knew she liked her even more because of that. Moving my fingers to her hips, I held her as she rose up on het knees before softly coming back down, repeating the same movement again and again. This was nothing like the fucking from earlier. She was making love to me and for once, I didn't try to take control.
I let her decide the pace and angles, watching as her mouth parted and her eyes looked down to where we connected. She looked so beautiful right and I watched as recognition crossed her eyes at not where her body met mine but the red lines painting her breasts and stomach with my marks.
"Is that…" she inhaled at the sight of my initials written across her hips and when she looked back up to see my possessive smirk, I felt her tighten around me.
"You are mine." I mumbled into her ear, loving the way she cries out in response.
I still didn't take over though, letting her consume me as I fell to the mercy of her touch. I wanted her to take what little piece I had left of myself and make them hers, exactly where they belonged.
This was a moment that changed so many things for the both of us but when it got to the point where she was too lost to continue on her own, I pulled her forward to rest against me. Her head fell happily against the crook of my neck as I planted my feet on the ground for support, using my hips to rock up into her.
Our movements were still slow but it was the depth that made the pleasure so dizzying. My muscles flexed around her with every whimper that came from her mouth and I simply kissed her wet hair while my fingers ran over her back.
"I love you," I whispered again, fully triggering her orgasm as she tightened around me with trembling legs.
My release followed instantaneously with hers, groaning into her neck while I filled her with my sperm. The feeling that came with it flooded over the both of us but if this is what it feels like to drown, then I never want to know what it is like to reach the surface.
Both of us stayed in the shower together for at least an hour after the love making. Taking turns in caring for each other, we remained under the water until our fingers were wrinkled and the water grew gradually cold.
When she finally insisted that it was the time to dry off, we did that for each other too and my hands were spinning to face the mirror to see what I saw. She was breathless as I ran the towel over her smooth skin, down her legs and back up to where the same initials A.J. were showing on her right hips. If I angle my head to the left, I can also see the faint bruise of where she had head-butted me earlier.
She blushed as I smiled at the thought of carrying her marks on me, faint scratches also across my shoulders from when she rode me earlier in the shower. That was one the three time we had fucked during that, in my opinion too short time span under the water.
"Don't look at me like that." She grinned as our eyes met in the mirror, amusement flashing in her expression.
"My body needs a break."
Standing to my full height, I brush my hands across her arms as I pull her back to me, kissing the top of her head and breathing in the combination of my shampoo mixed with her smell.
I listened to what said but that doesn't stop the fact I have never been more thankful that I destroyed her underwater than I am now.
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