Chapter 182: I Am Sorry
Chapter 182: I Am Sorry
Camilla
"I would fuck you so hard, the glass would fog up and create an outline of your perfect little body taking me like the good girl you are."
I nearly shook again when Gregorio pulled our hands away from the window but I didn't miss the fogged imprint our touch left over. I couldn't imagine how it would feel with my entire body pressed against it when my fingers were cold from those few seconds alone but now he was having me imagining it with every single part of me.
While his distraction didn't take away the dizziness or nausea, it did give me the reprieve I was looking for and that is why I love him so damn much.
"Thank you," I said as I turned my head to kiss his cheek in gratitude.
I wanted to thank him for understanding what I needed but the sound of Domenico's arrival had me looking at the door instead. Don't get me wrong, I was happy to see him walking towards me with a caring smile across his face, however it was the sight of Adriano behind him that drew my attention. I don't know where he had gone to but it was clear he came back for me even if I could instantly tell something was wrong.
While Adriano remained stiff at the door, Domenico walked until he was kneeling at my side, handing me a glass of water and a tray of snacks.
"Go slow, I don't want you to get sick from eating too quickly too soon."
I offered him a tired yet genuine thank you and moved to grab a cube of cheese I saw on the plate. To my surprise, Adriano moved with me. As he got closer to where I was sitting, I saw more and more evidence that things were off with him. His eyes looked swollen as his gaze locked on me, his Irish as dark as coal. I had no idea where he had disappeared to these last few hours but I did know he didn't sleep during that period.
I opened my mouth to say his name but Gregorio tightened his hold on me, had me second guessing myself. Instead, I watched as he sat half of his weight on the chair's arm, his eyes darting down to the glass of water in my hand.
"Drink, princess." He said, his words rough as though it hurt him to speak.
I knew better than to challenge him right now and it broke my heart to realize he was putting himself on a constant edge being here just to make sure I was alright. I saw it in the way his hands clutched onto the cushion so hard that it seemed as though he was restraining himself from doing something that would warrant Gregorio's cautious hold on my body.
It almost seemed stupid because I knew he would never hurt me but there were a lot of things that felt off today that I was too tired to question. Obeying, I took a long sip from the glass until almost half of the water was gone, pulling it away only when I was satisfied in Adriano's eyes. It was the food that came next and it was a combination of all three of them feeding me while refusing my attempts to do it myself.
"Allow us to take care of you." Domenico said as he lifted a grape to my mouth, taking the fruit to my teeth before swallowing down the sweet taste.
Soon I simply gave in especially to Adriano as he fed me in silence, the stiffness of his body never fully ceased but I knew I was acting as a distraction of his own right now too. I had no doubt he would be gone again once he saw that I was feeling better and unfortunately that moment was coming a lot quicker than I was prepared for. I didn't want to admit that the tightness in my chest had fully loosened and that their care had been everything I needed but it was true.
Together, my men gave me everything and indeed put back together the pieces of me that I had previously allowed to shatter. Yet I knew there were parts of Adriano that were still left broken in the end.
"I am sorry," he whispered for only me to hear before planting a gentle kiss to my lips in apology.
I didn't know what it meant but knowing that the climax of my pain had ebbed, Adriano left yet again. This time, I knew he would not be coming back until his mind was settled and the hardest part about it was that I had no clue when that time would come.
*****
It has been five days since I last heard anything from Adriano but I feel like at some point enough should be enough. I didn't hold his need to me alone against him because I truly understand the feeling, however short text and bland responses weren't enough for me. I had gone an entire week without seeing him beside these additional four with the exception of the two hours plane ride back from my village. Either way, I was worried and sad and I miss him so much.
Adriano didn't deserve to be alone through whatever that is happening and today was the first day he initiated texting me, telling me he was safe and just finishing up some paperwork at Gravity. His mistake was that he believed I would wait until he got back to his house before seeing him.
While I was still at Nancy's house and had been since I got back, Adriano wasn't allowed to just block me out completely and then act like everything was fine when he finally decided to show up again. I knew he was hurting and it was the only reason I wasn't mad but I still wanted to see him even if he didn't want to talk.
I got dressed quickly and left Nancy's house, heading towards the club. My mind had been made up and as I walked straight past the bouncers at the back entrance, I prayed to goodness that he was genuinely okay and not physically hurt as a result of whatever it is he did during this trip.
The usual receptionist wasn't there as I moved through the lobby but that was the only thing I had noticed between the decision of getting in my car and now as I stood in front of the door to Adriano's office. I just prayed he was okay.
Although I knew the password to the lock, I still knocked as my breath held in wait. He had to know it was me because I doubt there are very few people who have entry to this hallway in the club but the pause had me second guessing if he was even actually on the other side.
Debating just walking away, I almost gave up at the same time I heard the click of a lock and the twist of a handle. My heart skipped a beat as the door slowly opened but it was the man who answered that had me tightening with uncertainty. His large body leaned against the frame as I took in his appearance, the accurate representation of whatever demons he has been fighting these last few days.
The usual short trim of his facial hair had grown out a little since I last saw him but it was the darkness of both his Irish and under eyes that had me thinking my worry was more than justified.
"I will leave if you want me to but I just…."
I wasn't even able to finish my sentence before he was pulling me in tight to his body, his arms wrapping around me and hugging as close as he could manage.
"I am sorry," he whispered instantly, his lips brushing against my head as I returned his unexpected embrace.
He still felt the same, just as his smell was as comforting as usual but I was no fool to believe he was okay. Most of the time the man in my arms is a closed book but he lets me see and hear every emotion in his apology. I very rarely hear his voice shake and it did just now.
"I am sorry, I wasn't there when you passed out. I should have…."
"Shhhh," I cut him off, just happy he is here again.
Whatever angry concern I had on the drive here seemed like something of the past as his grip around me tightened, a relieved but tired sigh left both our mouths. We really do need to talk about him just leaving out of nowhere but it was clear he hasn't just left for the fun of it. If his disorganized appearance wasn't indication enough, then the sadness of his hug was.
"It has been a rough week." He lets out a heavy breath of air as he pulls us slightly away from the door, closing it so we could have some privacy together.
I really wanted him to open up to me but I also knew we were both walking on eggshells right now around each other. I didn't want to push him past his boundaries, however this conversation we needed to have was not one that could continue to be delayed and swept under the rug.
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