Chapter 277: Where Am I?
Chapter 277: Where Am I?
Camilla
My body felt as though I had been stripped naked with all of my secrets bared to the world even though I was becoming increasingly aware of the warm clothes one of them must have dressed me in after I passed out.
Just from a short glance, I could tell this was Adriano's style. Lacy black shorts, ones that were admittedly really comfortable along with a matching loose cropped top with long sleeves. A fit that gave Domenico perfect access to my midsection should he need to treat my injuries further. Based on the slightly wet cold feeling along my stomach, though, I got the sense he already has at least once while I was sleeping.
"I applied some numbing cream around the area to reduce the pain for when you woke up." Domenico said quietly when I pulled my hand out from under the blanket to make sure the feeling wasn't of blood. But the sight of a clear type of gel answered my question just fine.
Surprisingly, I suppose I had him entirely to thank over the fact that I really wasn't hurting all that bad for wounds that definitely should have left me stiff and in pain this morning. I didn't understand where this kindness was coming from when I sure as hell didn't deserve it and while the room, their presence, their soft and concerned looks were keeping me on the edge. I also couldn't help but relax as Gregorio's words remained true. Soon my head stopped spinning and all that was left in its place was the full force of my humiliation and regret at what l had opened up to.
"Where am I?" I asked once I was sure I wasn't going to throw up just by not opening my mouth, hoping that some form of conversation could save me from the reddening across my cheeks.
For some reason, even though my body felt like it had rested for exactly the amount of time it needed to regenerate, my mind was simply too burnt out to continue with the shields today. The part scared me more than I cared to admit.
"You are on the third floor upstairs." Adriano responded oddly hesitantly as I looked away from my surroundings and back to him, looking like he was debating his next words.
"In the room we were about to design for you before everything happened."
Before they lied, I ended things with them and got kidnapped all in the span of a day. As this information proceeded, I broke my gaze away from him to look at the room again for a second time. Seeing it in a new light that sped my heart just a little faster. Although it was dark, I looked up to see the tear shaped crystal draped along the kind of chandelier I used to dream about owning as a child, the kind that fit for princesses.
When my thoughts slowly drifted over to the television across from the bed and the open bathroom door a little to its right, I eventually fell upon heavy curtains that didn't allow an inch of sunlight in. Even though I suspected it covered balconies similar to the ones I have seen in their rooms. Along the walls were bookshelves with textbooks I have both read and the ones I have never even heard of before. Places to accommodate my love for reading as well as spots to add in my own personalized should I choose to.
I was well aware of the three pairs of eyes currently resting on me but they didn't feel pressuring as I took in the four walls around me that felt horribly, sickeningly and frightening like home. The last time I truly had that was with them whether we were in each other's arms or thousands of miles apart. I solely remember what it felt like to lose that and I knew that I would be gone by the end of the week anyways where I no longer had to feel the ache of my heart trying to break out from its cage again.
Just before I went to open my mouth to comment that all of this was beautiful but unnecessary, my one finger brushed against my left pinky. My eyes furrowed as the gentle weight around it felt so familiar and belonging that I hadn't even noticed its presence until now. Pulling my hand from under the covers, I couldn't help but part my lips slightly as a flesh of gold caught my attention, tears springing to my eyes so far that I couldn't breathe.
My reaction seemed to surprise them just as much as it did me, however, I didn't bother to hide the slight shake as I brought my hand to my chest, holding the ring there and knowing that I would never let it be taken from me again. Even despite my most recent thoughts of how I would be gone soon and the fact I haven't really let myself acknowledge all of the confusing feelings inside me apart from last night, I knew that having this ring returned on my finger felt like a crack being filled over to be made new again.
"I don't understand?" I mumbled as a handful of questions started to form in my mind, confused not only as to why they had given it back but why I was in this room only now if it has been here all along.
However, in their defense I do suppose I likely would have demanded to stay in just a normal, depersonalized room if they sprung this on me a few days ago. And yet now, I was here, not really sure what to think about anything.
"I know, that is why we were hoping we could talk." Adriano answered my half question, so calmly that I knew something had to be wrong.
It was as if they all knew something I didn't and it made me both uneasy and alert.
"We figured you might be a little more comfortable if you were in an environment that was always meant for you." He continued, giving the room a whole new meaning that I didn't know what to think about it.
Some unconscious part of me was telling me that it was all too much and that I needed to remind them I wasn't theirs anymore but everything else knew deep down Inside that this wasn't about some claim. For some reason, I felt safe right now and it was a weird feeling of both relief and panic over the thought of that sensation fading like it surely would.
"Oh.." that was all I could pathetically manage to say as I kept my knees tucked to my chest even when Gregorio's touch retreated from the back of my head.
Instead, he encouraged me to move over a little as he shifted to fully sit on the bed at my side, stretching his legs out over the sheets once he had enough space to do so. Never once did he try to touch me or use the space to get close but there was something soothing in all of their presence around me that kept me from raising my guard up too strongly.
"Well, what did you want to talk about?" I asked as I figured turning the gears over to them was what is best for now, pretty sure it was going to be on the subject of my breakdown anyways.
After what happened last night, I am pretty sure things couldn't get all that much worse. I waited patiently and slightly tiredly as Domenico shifted just a bit closer to my side, the bed itself more than fit to acquire four people but feeling too small with the heavy gazes of the three men with me.
"I spoke to Jacob last night." Gregorio began and my face very quickly became a mask of confusion, turning to look at him as I instantly wondered if they had tried to kidnap me again.
Gregorio didn't seem smug or unapologetic as he spoke but then again, reading any of them has become a hell of a lot harder when I barely know what to think of myself. Maybe the conversation really had been innocent, even though I couldn't think of any reason as to why they would want to interact voluntarily.
"Sweetheart, are you aware your father had been giving you prozac while you were at The Safe?" He continued and suddenly, the somberness of the room made a whole lot more sense.
I didn't know what the hell Jacob thought he had the right to tell them about or how much he said but this was something I could never ever talk about. This wasn't any of their business and the way they were looking at me right now had me shaking my head absently.
"What are you talking about? I have never been on any…."
I very quickly started to deny, widening my eyes a little bit like the idea was ridiculous. No matter how little he might have said, Jacob never should have opened his mouth in the first place. Now I wasn't even able to finish my sentence before Adriano was intervening, looking at me like it pained him to see me this way.
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