Chapter 79 Conflict and Dispute

(Lena's POV)
"I didn't expect that your previous experience would be so rich."
When I told Jerry all my previous experiences, Jerry let out a heartfelt emotion.
"I always feel like you're laughing at me," I whispered.
Jerry immediately waved his hand.
"How is that possible? Only, Lena, after I heard this, I worry about you more instead."
"Why do you say that?"
"You have to figure out that not all people wish you well right now."
After hearing what Jerry said to me, my brow couldn't help but furrow.
I know the people Jerry is referring to.
"I also want to draw a line with William, but, after all, these matters are somewhat complicated, and it is not clear overnight."
"But, Lena, I think you know very well that if the two of them are not close enough in the first place, and you stand in the middle, then you'll be the one who gets hurt the most."
I was in a bit of a bad mood because Jerry was right.
I wasn't able to hurt Raphael, but I wasn't going to give up on William so easily either.
William has helped me a lot and I have yet to repay him.
"Lena, there are times when you don't have to worry too much."
Today reached out and patted me on the shoulder.
I know he wants to comfort me, but there are things he doesn't particularly understand yet.
"As long as you feel you're not doing anything wrong, then just do what you think, don't hesitate too much, although, within this period, you may feel that this will hurt them, if it continues to drag on, it won't be a good thing for all three of you."
I nodded and didn't say anything.
I had all but rejected William's fondness for me long ago, but William didn't seem to give up.
What exactly should I do to make William completely change his mind about me?
At this time, the venue suddenly fell silent and I looked up ahead to find William standing on the stage.
"Jerry, I have some things to do, I'm going to go first."
"Nothing is going to happen to you, is it?"
"No."
I don't know why, but my instincts told me that I should get out of here right now, and that thought grew stronger once I saw William standing on the stage.
However, before I could walk out of the venue, the lights of the whole room suddenly brightened up again.
The light shone on my body and I couldn't help but stare.
What is this about?
Before I could react, I saw that William had come towards me.
He was wearing a suit and holding a bouquet of brightly colored roses.
A sudden burst of surprised cheers erupted from the middle of the venue.
I heard someone shouting and the music had stopped.
William walked up to me, looked at me with a smile, and then got down on one knee.
I don't know what kind of attitude I should put on right now, but I just want to get away from here.
I looked around somewhat helplessly, but all of them were looking at me with excited and strange eyes.
William's words drew my attention back.
"Dear Lena, we've known each other for five years, and I know the time may not be particularly ripe, but I can't wait any longer."
"William, what are you doing?"
I could even hear the tremble in my voice.
William didn't stop there.
He took out a box from his pocket, and after opening it, there was a ring inside.
The group around me screamed once again after seeing this scene.
They were so excited that some of them even took out their cell phones and were taking pictures like crazy.
However, I was in a very bad mood.
"Lena, will you stay with me?"
I think such a scenario is just a bit ridiculous.
I looked around helplessly, but there was no one to help me.
I took a deep breath, hoping I could calm down, then I reached out and rubbed my hair.
"William, will you get up first?"
"Promise me, Lena, that I will give you the happiness you want."
I sighed, then shook my head.
I walked over to William's side and held out my hand to help him up, but I didn't take his ring or the rose he handed over.
"William, you know I don't feel that way about you."
William gave a soft laugh.
"It's okay, Lena, feelings can be cultivated."
If feelings can be cultivated, then I will not remain in love with William in these five years.
I shook my head and looked at him somewhat helplessly.
"William, this matter ends today, and I hope you can stop thinking that way about me in the future."
My tone was very firm, and without waiting for William to say something, I just turned around and left the place.
The sounds around me were so noisy that I had no idea what they were saying.
Maybe some people are scolding me and they will question why I am doing such a thing.
But that was not my intention at all.
I simply don't know exactly why this happened today.
My pace got faster and faster, and by the end, I was even running.
I pushed away from the person in front of me, and Jerry was behind me trying to pull me in.
But I escaped anyway. I pushed open the door of the meeting place and suddenly I felt a little confused because I didn't know where I should go. I should find Raphael now, but, I don't know where Raphael is, and I have no other way out.
William quickly chased it out.
"Lena! You wait!"
I turned to look at William, who was already running towards me.
"I have something to say to you."
William ran up to me.
"If you continue to think of me that way, I'm afraid we won't even be friends."
William took a deep breath.
"Lena, listen to me first."
I think we've made that pretty clear between us.
I knew that after something like this happened today, we would both be a little embarrassed. However, I don't feel like I did anything wrong.
"I'm tired, William, and that's all there is to this matter."
My mind still can't help thinking back to the days when I used to live with William in Paris.
I had just arrived in Paris and life was very difficult. I didn't even have any money or a place to stay.
Because I had just lost my child and my will was so depressed, I didn't even think about continuing to live at all.
It was William who kept me company during that time.
He would do everything he could to make me happy.
He even helped me find a doctor to nurse my injured body.
Most of the time he stayed with me and told me everything that had happened.
William did do a lot for me.
I know I owe him something else, something that I may never be able to repay him for in my lifetime.
But I really couldn't fall in love with him.
I had thought I just wouldn't be able to love people.
Until I met Rafael.
I know that the only person I love is Rafael.
Even though Rafael seems to have done a lot of things that have hurt me. But he is the only one I love, too.
"Lena!" William grabbed my arm again, and he didn't let me just leave.
I turned back to William, and a little of my gaze had become a little heartbroken.
"William, we could have been friends, and you wouldn't be blamed for anything if you could also pretend that today never happened."
"What exactly am I not doing better than Raphael?" William questioned me excitedly.
I gently shook off William's hand.
"William, you're a good man, you've always been good to me, I'm grateful to you, and really, I don't feel the same way about you as I do about Rafael, you're like family to me."
I sighed, and then I walked over to William's side.
"That's it, William, it's long past time to let go of me."
I hope William can find someone he fits.
Although such a blessing seems a bit hypocritical now.
But I bless him from the bottom of my heart.
I turned around and tried to leave, I had lost so much, my children, my memories, and by now, I might even be losing my only friend.
But it's all fate, perhaps.
I thought it was all going to end like this.
But I suddenly heard a rush of footsteps from behind me.
When I looked back, William had already run to my side.
I instinctively tried to step backward.
William, however, didn't give me that chance. He held me tightly in his arms and then pinned me against the wall.
"Lena, I'm not very much worse than him, what he can give you, I can give you just as well."
William was so agitated that he held me so tightly against the wall that there was no way I could push him away.
He was getting stronger and stronger, and I finally couldn't help but scream out.
"William, just calm down for a second, okay? You're already hurting me."
But William didn't let that stop him.
"Lena, are you thinking that because I'm a bastard, I'm no better than Rafael?"
I never knew exactly what kind of relationship William and Raphael had.
Until just now I had to know that William was the illegitimate son of the Hill family.
"William, I never cared about that."
"And why exactly is that? I've been with you for five years, I've taken care of you for five years."
William was emotional, but he still held on to my arm tightly.
Until now, I've even had a feeling of suffocation.
"William, none of this matters, there is no way for a person to control his feelings." My voice also began to tremble, but William did not listen to my words.
William gave a very cold laugh.
"It's because Rafael is already having sex with you, isn't it?"
My body has started to shiver uncontrollably.
"What the hell are you talking about?" Even my voice was already full of fear inside.
The moment my face looked at William, I understood that he had completely lost his mind.