Don’t Ask
Breaking up with Loraine is easier said than it's done.
Immediately after our conversation, I left Barbados for New York with Danielle.
My girlfriend is staying in a hotel now, I wasn't ready to let her in my house a week after we met. In addition, I have to mentally make the transition from Loraine in my bed to now a different woman.
Not that Danielle and I have moved on a lot. She longs for sex with me, I notice it every time we meet. We are in New York for two weeks now and with the week in Barbados, we know each other for three weeks now. She wants to consume our relationship, she is very sexual and the wait is long for her.
More often she lets me know how handsome and attractive I am to her. She wants to press her stamp on me, make it clear to everyone that I'm off the market, belong to her, she said. That scared me, I'm not sure I want to go that fast with us. But Danielle persists, she thinks that without sex our relationship is unreal. Well, I think today's women have little patience and time to establish a good connection, I mean after three weeks you don't know someone enough to claim him. Seriously!
Anyway, I'm in no rush. I want to have enough time to observe who I am stepping into a deep bond with. We clicked right away when we met, but that's no guarantee that we'll stay together for the long run. I haven't had actual physical sex with a woman in years, the few times with Loraine were my only shots. But that was also only pleasing each other, not fleshly intercourse.
And to be honest, as desirable as Danielle looks, the attraction is certainly there, but that deep lust I feel for Loraine is missing. But hey, I don't plan on marrying Danielle any time soon either, maybe the feeling will grow with time.
And all the time I've been in New York now, I haven't heard from Loraine.
I used to see her every day in a video call, now I don't hear or see anything from her. And it's starting to gnaw at me. I miss her terribly. But then I realize that in two weeks I will be completely gone from her life. Perhaps this is a trial period on the way to the final goodbye.
Panic begins to take over for me. I need to talk to someone, share my fears and doubts with a reliable friend. But then I realize again that I have few friends with whom I share intimate issues.
Aaahhh Damian.
He is now the president of World Automotive, Danner's company. And the reports I get show that the holding company has the subsidiaries firmly under control and in the two months that Damian is in charge there, growth is already visible. He reorganized all the companies so that now he does not have to be called in for every small decision. His strategy is clear to everyone and all managers know what is expected of them. Well, I didn't expect anything else from my friend, even here in Windrug&So he was a very organized worker.
He picks up right away when I call him. "Aziel, what's up, man? I've already sent all the reports to you. Have you received them?” he asks. I have to laugh, his question is really absurd. He is always on time and makes sure everything runs smoothly. “Yeah man, don't worry. Do you have some spare time for me? I need a listening ear for a private matter”, I let him know wistfully.
“Loraine, again? I thought you had your affairs in order now that Fellogan is out of the picture," he responds with surprise. “Shall we meet in the pub after work? I'm making a reservation," he suggests.
Absolutely nothing comes of work today, I'm so distracted.
I imagine the moment when I walk out of here to never come back, nor will I see my loved one again, except in the media perhaps. My hands begin to sweat, my heart is beating with fear.
I grab my car keys and walk to the parking lot with big strides. I quickly make the ride to the pub, my mind is full. But when I get there, the bouncer informs me that Damian already arrived. Surprised, I walk to the remote corner where intelligible communication is still possible. “Damian, I wasn't expecting you yet. I thought I'd have a few drinks here before we meet."
We give each other a bro-hug and sit down.
I pour my heart out to my friend, he has followed my years of the hunt after Loraine so knows exactly what I'm
talking about. And then these last weeks since she left for Barbados, our agreement and how I found her in
Fellogan's arms. My trust in her took a serious dent and I think is now the time to say goodbye to her.
Damian coughs at these last words. “Listen, Aziel, you give up at high tide, where you have the best chance of getting the loot. Fellogan is a formidable fellow, while Loraine is a mouse compared to him. She couldn't resist him, of course after such a windy affair. But I'm telling you, give her one more chance. Let her know that this is her last chance to regain your broken trust. Fellogan is going to reappear one day now that he knows where she is. If she does fall for him, I'll tell you to stop," he tells me.
“But I ran away and now have a girlfriend. How do I go back?” I ask in despair. “Wait until the last day you leave the company. I think the thought of never seeing you again and losing you to another woman will drive her crazy. She will definitely call you and beg you to come back to her. But then, demand nothing, but take everything she gives you."
‘Demand nothing, but take everything she gives you’, my head buzzes. This will be my motto...
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