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**Cleo POV: **
Last night I had the best sleep I have had in a while. The kids didn't move much. They slept just as soundly as I did. Of course, it's only because Valenzano slept in my bed last night. He looks so handsome sleeping in bed, so peaceful. I doubt he slept any better than I did sleeping in separate rooms. I inched out of the bed and placed a pillow under his arms, so I didn't wake him.
Walking to the bathroom, I saw my reflection. I have a bruise on my neck when Vintage grabbed me. Shaking it off, I get into the shower and the kids start to play soccer in my damn stomach, either they are hungry or know I'm not with Valenzano right now.
After the shower, I took my bun out and I let my passion twist fall so I could oil my scalp. I am so happy I got these. I don't have to do my hair every damn day. After finishing, I decided to let my hair down for the day. Cut on my music, and I oiled my scalp as I started to sing.
“Say something, I'm giving up on you. I'll be the one if you want me to. Anywhere, I would've followed you. Say something, I'm giving up on you”, singing has always made me feel better when I am blue.
I unleashed tears I didn't think I was holding on to. Whoever said listening to sad songs when your heart is in pain is a fucking liar. Valenzano thinks I am mad, but he doesn't understand I am hurt. Mad I can handle but hurt is something I can't deal with right now.
Just when I was ready to give in, I was given a reason not to. I let all my walls down just to be hurt. I need him to give me a reason to forgive him. I need him to try to save what we have. I don't want this to be something of a conveyance because I am carrying his children.
“And I am feeling so small. It was over my head. I know nothing at all. And I will stumble and fall. I'm still learning to love. Just starting to craw”, my heart is so heavy.
I finished my hair and when I walked out Valenzano is sitting on the bed staring at me. I had no idea he was awake. I hoped he didn't hear me sing, but by the look of his face his damn superhuman hearing made sure he heard me singing.
"You look beautiful Cleo", he said, looking at the towel barely covering my body.
"Thanks", I said as the towel fell.
"We need bigger towels", he said.
"Yeah, we do", I said as I struggled to pick up the towel.
He gets up and picks up the towel and wraps it around me. We need to have a conversation. But I am not sure if I am prepared to hear what he has to say. I love Valenzano and I know without the mate bond I would still love him the way I do.
Even though it took a lot for me to fall for him, I did. However, I'm not sure if he would love me without the mate bond. I sit up on the bed against the headboard, he sits facing me and puts his hand on my stomach.
**Valenzano POV: **
I haven't slept so well in a long time. Sleeping next to Cleo makes me sleep like a baby. I slept so heavily I didn't feel her leave the bed. It wasn't until I felt her emotions through our bond that I jumped up startled and she was gone.
I heard her voice coming from the bathroom. Reaching the door, I listened to what she was singing. I felt her emotions and she is very sad. I listened to her as she sings, even when she is hurting, she sounds like an angel.
“And I will swallow my pride. You're the one that I love. And I'm saying goodbye. Say something, I'm giving up on you. And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you. And anywhere, I would have followed you, oh-oh. Say something, I'm giving up on you”, fucking hell her emotions are all over the place.
Her emotions got me on the break of crying. They are so strong. Instead of going into the bathroom, I sat on the bed waiting for her to come out. And when she does, she looks so beautiful, she has let her hair down. And those passion twists stop and the curve of her waist.
The towel she has does not cover her growing bump. I make small to break the ice we need to have this conversation to clear the air. She goes to bed and sits up on the bed against the headboard. I sat facing her and put my hand on her stomach. I know her emotions are driving the pups crazy.
"Cleo, I am sorry", I say as I rub her stomach.
"You said that multiple times, sorry doesn't erase the hurt", she says, looking into my eyes.
"So, you are still mad at me", I said as a statement more than a question.
"I am mad at a lot of things", she says as she exhales the breath she was holding.
"Do you want to tell me why you are mad so I can make things better", I said as I kissed her stomach.
"I'm mad because you had a secret that I didn't know about. Even though I told you about mine. I thought once we decided to be together there would be no more secrets. I'm hurt because I asked you a question and you told me the truth. Which tells me that if it wasn't for the mate bond, you would not love me at all. I'm mad because I was looking forward to a life with you and now, I am not sure. I'm hurt because my emotions are in fight or flight mode and I can't leave and risk our babies, I can't fight you and risk our babies", she says crying.
"Cleo, please stop crying and look at me. I apologize for making you feel that I wouldn't love you if it wasn't for the mate bond. I love you and our pups with all my heart and soul mate bond or not. I should have thought before I answered your question, mate, or not. I would never want any harm to come to you or our pups, nor would I do any harm”, I said as I wiped her tears.
"Don't say things you don't mean because you are afraid of me leaving you", she says.
I got off the bed, got on my knees, pulled her to the edge, and said, "Cleo...I want.... I need you to be my mate, wife, and my Luna. Even when you rejected me, I wanted you, needed you, craved for you. Just know I would rather you fight with us than leave us", I said as I kissed her hands.
"Do you have any more secrets?", she asked.
"No, I don't", I said, still kissing her hands.
"I have to ask you again. If I wasn't your mate, would you have tried to force me to get rid of our babies?", why the fuck did she have to ask me that damn question again?
"Cleo I will die before I let any harm come to you and our pups. I will live and die for all of you. And if you weren't my mate, I would be glad to have pups with you", I said, meaning every word. I watch as she starts to cry tears of happiness.
"Val, let's do it", she says, making me confused.
"Do what baby?", I am so confused right now. It must be the pregnancy hormones. How the hell did she go from sad, hurt, to happy, and excited?
"A wedding, mating ceremony", my heart skipped a beat hearing her words.
"Are you sure, baby, we have plenty of time. There is no need to rush if you are not ready", I reluctantly said, but I mean it as well.
"Yes, I am sure, and I want to do it before the babies are born", she said smiling.
"Okay, we will start the preparations right away to have the ceremony and wedding on New Year's Day and we will announce it today at breakfast", I said, kissing her.
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