Chapter 24: Library Lust

I remained stiffly in place from where I stood caged between Julian’s chest, his arms, and the bookshelves pressed up behind me. I’ve always been the one in charge, the one that made others cower beneath my feet, the one considered a queen, the alpha amongst wolves. And yet, here I am. I feel like a lamb trapped in a lion’s den. It’s the most humiliating feeling I’ve ever felt in my entire life. And yet, why do I like it…?

What’re you doing?! Just kick him in the balls and push him off of you!

I repeated those words in my head multiple times, trying my best to build up the nerve to take action. But before I could, Julian took the locks of my curly hair and sniffed them with a deep inhale. “...You smell like cigarettes.” He then released my hair. “I’ve got the best quality of shampoo and conditioner. I can help you–”

“Help me shower? Fuck, Julian, I’m not a toddler. I can wash my own hair!” I snapped with annoyance. Truth be told, my hair was a hassle to take care of but I wasn’t about to accept help from somebody else to wash my own goddamn hair. I shivered when he caressed my hair and brushed his lips across it when he spoke. I can tell that my blush wasn’t going away.

Dammit all… I went to see Scarlett so that I could stop feeling this way! Talk about deja vu with the hair. That’s the same thing I did to Scarlett… weird.

“I’m sorry, Sukia. I didn’t mean to offend you.” He murmured in that gentle voice he often used when he was close to my side and it was just the two of us. I noticed that he was being extra careful to call me nothing but my real name since I even snatched my nickname out of his grasp. He’s been obedient since then but I can feel his obedience was starting to run thin. Julian leaned his head down lower to mine that way his lips could barely graze my forehead as he spoke. “You know if you ever need anything, anything at all, I’ll give it to you. You do realize this, right?”

“Yeah, sure, I get it. Fortunately, I don’t need anything from you.” I mumbled while keeping my head tilted down that way I could only stare at our feet. As much as I wanted to keep my eyes closed, I didn’t want it to look like a sign of weakness.

“Are you sure?” He asked with a slower voice, his hands finally coming off of the books and landing on my shoulders. It took every muscle in my body to keep myself from shivering under his touch.

“The hell is that supposed to mean?” I grumbled under my breath. It was getting hard to breathe because of the limited space between us. So much so that I couldn’t snap in my usual volume.

Julian’s hands slid down from my shoulders, his thumbs yanking the straps of my tank top down as he slid his big hands down my arm. “It means I think you’re lying.”

His gentle voice suddenly turned familiarly blunt, almost as solid as last night. It startled me and I instinctively looked up at him. That simple action turned into a mistake since he immediately smashed his lips down upon mine. His hands tightened around my arms so that I couldn’t push him off meanwhile he stepped on my feet to keep me from kicking. It’s like he thought of everything I’d try to pull on him!

Julian forced his tongue into me just as easily as I had done to Scarlett, his grip kept me as stiff as stone against the bookcase. I choked down a moan by trying to grunt out my protest. His tongue caressed every part of my mouth as his teeth rubbed against my bottom lip.

Fuck, he still tastes as good as I remember.

He left behind a string of saliva as he pulled away to allow me to breathe. As soon as I caught my breath, I soon became breathless again as I screamed up at the tall man. “I FUCKIN’ TOLD YOU–”

My scream turned into a loud muffle as he quickly covered my mouth with his hand. Again, his grip was so firm that my free hand couldn’t peel his hand off one bit. I hated it. I hated every second of this. But damn did he look sexy when he was blushing as hard as me with a drunken look full of lust in his beautiful blue eyes.

“You told me you want this. I could see it in your eyes.” I finally stopped squirming and stared up at him silently and dumbfoundedly.

I was really that readable?!

“Besides, even if you did want me to stop, someone like you would’ve just bit off my tongue to stop me.” He added in a truth that I didn’t even realize until now.

Ah shit…

I had no excuse to keep on protesting and rejecting him. I hated to admit it but he was right. But at the same time, I didn’t want this. I don’t want this. I can’t want this. It isn’t right!

Wrapped up in my overwhelming thoughts, I didn’t even notice Julian had gone back to taking action as he began to kiss me passionately once again. He used one of his hands to fondle my breasts while easily snaking his other arm around my waist. It felt as if he did it effortlessly as he lifted me off of the ground to be at the same level as his. He was escalating so fast that I mentally couldn’t keep up. I just instinctively moaned when he bit into my neck and dragged his tongue across my darker skin.

“You taste just as sweet as you did last time…” He whispered in my ear with a husky voice. My body quivered as I tried to use all of my power to resist my starving desires. My cusses couldn’t come out because I was left panting after another session of my stepbrother taking control of my mouth with his. I turned my head away sharply in an attempt to resist him but my thirst for him made my shaking body too weak to push him off. Even if I attempted, I already knew he’d overpower me anyway.

I struggled to find solid ground since Julian was still holding me up with one arm which made my body press up against his, my breasts squished against his chest. I then felt his fingers from his spare hand crawl around my shorts until he was able to unbutton them and then they dropped to the floor along with my underwear.

Panic fueled my adrenaline when I felt his skin against mine. “JUL–” My shout is silenced into a muffle when his strong hand covers my mouth once again. I’m frozen, stuck in place and my green eyes are forcefully locked with his blue gaze. I see that familiar, intense hunger in his eyes that burned with desire. The chill that went up my spine dropped with a sickening feeling as I heard him whisper familiar words.

“You’re mine, Beautiful.”