Chapter 47: The Painful Lifetime Promise
“What the fuck!?” I snapped and yanked my arm free from his grasp. Thankfully he wasn’t holding me tightly that time. “The *fuck* do you think you’re looking at, huh?”
Julian gave me that handsome, breathtaking grin of his. “At my gorgeous stepsister.” this time it felt like he reminded me that we weren’t blood-related.
“Oh my god, shut the fuck up.” that was the most femininely sassy I had ever sounded. I quickly locked my phone before he could see that a man had just texted me.
*I didn’t even get to see what he said to me. Fucker.*
“You did look excited back there. I think it’d be a good idea to go too.” Julian said gingerly. I could tell that he meant it but I just stared up at him narrow-eyed and with a deep frown.
“Why, so you can fuck me at the springs?” my voice was blunt as I crossed my arms, getting straight to the point as always.
It left him startled at first but, as usual, he grinned again but there was a darker look in those captivating blue eyes again. “Forward as always.”
“Am I wrong?” I sassed as I uncrossed my arms and subconsciously balled them up into fists at my side as if my body were instinctively ready to punch him in the gut the moment my temper maxed out.
“That depends,” Julian spoke the words I least expected. I squinted up at him with one of my ‘what the fuck’ looks until his gaze traveled down to my phone that I had thought I sneakily slipped into my pocket. “Who texted you?”
I felt my heart jump into my throat. I thought he didn’t notice, it didn’t cross my mind that he had just ignored it and was waiting for the moment to strike.
*You bastard!*
Before I could cuss him out, I heard the clicking footsteps of my mother’s heels against the hard floor grow louder as she approached us. Julian and I acted like nothing was going on between us literally at the same time as the bright ginger woman approached us with an adoring smile. “Ah, look at you two! I know you struggle with your sister but at least your relationship with your brother is healthy.”
It took all of my strength to keep myself from flinching as I felt what felt like a knife stabbing my heart multiple times, I wouldn’t be surprised if I hacked up blood. Julian on the other hand just smiled kindly. “I’ll always be there for the both of you, Isabella.”
I couldn’t resist grinding my teeth. Gabriel wasn’t joking. This man was a born actor, unlike his shitty sister.
*I fucking hate you so fucking much.*
Mom practically beamed at his words meanwhile I felt sick to myself. “I knew I could trust you.” my mother said with the kind voice of hers before grabbing my arm with hers as if she needed support, much like a woman would do to her man. My mother had always had a habit of doing this to someone she cared about. “Let’s go!”
“Y- yeah… let’s…” I still felt sick to my stomach but was relieved that my mother was there to save the day without her even realizing it. I unintentionally peeked over my shoulder and caught the glance of Julian who was watching us the entire way. I could feel a shiver go up my spine but what pissed me off was that I couldn’t tell whether or not it was a good chill or bad.
“Are you ok, honey? You’re shivering.” my mother looked at me concernedly, her bright green eyes meeting my olive-colored gaze.
“I’m fine! I’m fine. Let’s just get moving.” I hastened my pace, taking the older woman by surprise. As soon as we got to the rose garden I could feel myself relax and even released a soft sigh. My mother’s eyes brightened when seeing the roses.
“I’ll never get tired of coming here.” her grip around my arm tightened as she leaned her head on my shoulder affectionately. “I’m really glad you came here with me. I missed you so much.” my chest throbbed at her words and I quickly turned my head away. I will forever feel guilty for my selfish actions in leaving her when she needed comfort the most.
“Mom, I…”
“Suki-dear,” my mother spoke up before I could even finish what I was about to say and it was obvious that she did that on purpose. “How do you feel about planting those other roses I showed you? They take a year to bloom but I would like to grow some with you. What do you say?”
I bit my tongue so hard that I was expecting to taste blood any second. I knew what that question was aimed at and it wasn’t about stupid flowers. She was hinting that she wanted me to stay with her here. “Mom…” my voice was hesitant and I immediately saw her bright green eyes dim before I could even explain myself, my tone was all it took. The dimness in her eyes reminded me of the past when she turned into a walking corpse after Dad died. My heart immediately started to pound in my chest at the sufferable thought and I spoke without thinking-
“I’ll plant as many as you want me to, Mom.”
My mother looked at me with complete shock then with the brightest of smiles that I’ve ever seen, I could even see tears in the corner of her eyes. “You don’t know how happy it makes me hear you say that.” we stopped our walk and she hugged me tightly. It felt like centuries since she’d given me the ‘bear hug.’ I was hesitant at first but returned it.
*Fuck… what am I supposed to do now?*
I was a lot of things, a lot of bad things. I was a bad person and I knew it. But I was someone who always kept their word at least, the only good thing about me I think… and this was my mom, the only flesh and blood I have left and the most important thing in the world to me. Nothing can compare. Not even my own life. But now my problems will never go away.
*What am I supposed to do now…? Do I really have to live with Julian forever? What if he finally drops the ‘big brother’ act and decides to get me pregnant just to keep me chained to him?*
I could imagine Grace moving out and getting her own mansion as soon as possible just to get away from my arrogant ass. But Julian? I knew he was never leaving. He made it very clear the night I went to the west-side to hang with my gang of friends. If he followed me to that hell hole then he’d follow me anywhere… it made me wonder,
*Would he even follow me to my grave?*
*Pfft, yeah right. Like I’d ever die.*
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