17 — This body of yours

When Julian's hands are running up my leg, lifting my hips to fit me, I hold my breath. He's completely on top of me, his forehead resting against my cheek, giving wet, delicious kisses down my neck, which makes me shiver and arch my body. But his hand is firm on my hip and presses me down.
“Let's see if two fingers are enough to make you take my cock?” He murmurs against my skin, and I feel his fingers slide into my hips, moving up to my wetness, “You're so wet…. How did you hold on this long with such a sensitive body?”
I scratch Julian's back, lifting my knees and pressing his hips between them. No words dare escape my lips, as I don't have the strength to say anything, just indulge in the sensations he brings on me. The truth is that my body has never reacted this way before. I have never been so wet in my entire life. I have never been so eager to give myself up.
“Really, I want to fuck lose myself in your body…” He murmurs, and I feel his tip at my entrance… “Can I put it in, Angel?”
“Yes… Please put it in me…” That's all I can say.
The next moment, I feel a sharp pain in between my legs and arch my body because he's really penetrating me. Even the tip is thick and seems to tear me apart….
I can't help the painful groan that makes him stop suddenly.
“Does it hurt?” Julian asks fearfully.
“N-No…” I dig my nails into his back, swallowing the painful moan, trying to control my legs that are trembling from pleasure and pain that spreads throughout my body.
Julian moves his hips forward, penetrating a little deeper, and even though my teeth are clenched, a pained moan escapes through them… one that can't pass for pleasurable.
“Tell the truth, Angel.” He stops, analyzing my face with a soft stare.
I turn my face, looking directly at him. My lips part, and I nod, holding tightly to his arms.
“Then I won't be able to fuck you today-”
“N- No…” I hate how desperate and disappointed my voice comes out, but there's no avoiding it… all I can think about right now is how much I want him inside me. It's a primitive side that I never imagined could exist in me… at least, not strongly enough to overshadow my reason.
“Easy, babe… I'm not going to fuck you today.” He says slowly, depositing a kiss at the corner of my lips, without withdrawing the tip that's inside me, which I'm slightly getting used to, especially with him standing still like this.
“But-” I’m whining when he adds:
“Next Saturday… I'll do it.” He closes his eyes, as if he knew he would regret that words, that promise. “Until then… use those toys you bought… I want that pussy nice and loose to take me.”
I let a disappointed grunt escape and move my hips involuntarily, noting that it actually doesn't hurt when he doesn't keep moving forward.
“No need to get grumpy,” He laughs low, gently holding my hips, starting with slow strokes, leaving only the tip inside me, rubbing at my entrance and entering a few inches, until what feels like the limit I can take. “You won't escape cumming in my cock today.”
The way the tip is going in and out is making me even wetter and stickier, making pleasurable shivers run all over my skin. I entangle his neck with my arms, lifting my hips slightly, causing a little more of the cock to enter me and a lacerating pain surge in between my legs, as if it were tearing me in half.
I moan painfully, squeezing him.
“Easy, girl.” He says between teeth, gasping for breath. “You're going to rip my cock out like that.”
Julian begins to thrust a little faster, yet without going any deeper. I know there's so much more to be put in, and I'm dying to feel him fully inside me. This absurd need to feel him completely is driving me crazy, and it makes me move my hips forward, pushing a little further in. But the pain is really intense, and I regret it the next moment, pressing his neck between my arms.
“Relax, babe.” He says softly, penetrating the tip at a deliciously intense pace, fast enough to make tickles appear on my lower belly. “Just on the tip today…”
He groans hoarsely, so I see the effort he's making not to bury everything inside me. This thoughtfulness, his tender touches, and the way he's thrusting quickly but carefully so as not to overstep my limit… It warms my heart, no, my whole body. The shivers in my body become even more frequent, and I can feel my skin shivering as I feel an orgasm approaching.
Julian's lips go to my neck, as he digs his hands into my hips, grunting, “Damn, I want to push everything inside you.”
I tilt my head back and, with my lips unfastened, let a loud, extremely pleasurable moan escape, that makes me arch. The explosion of sensations that takes over my body is surreal. I'm squeezing the tip, and this makes it surprisingly more pleasurable. Perhaps because the sensation is absurdly good for Julian too, he bites my neck hard, digging his fingers in even more firmly, pushing a little more of the cock into me, grunting hoarsely.
I'm trembling, feeling a climax so intense that I can't stop moaning. My hands are dug into his blond hair, and I know I'm pulling hard while the nails of my other hand are marking his trapezius muscle, but I don't even mind the pain of feeling him thrusting forward because, heavens, I'm having the best orgasm I've ever had in my life, and Julian keeps thrusting, widening my pussy, grunting like an animal.
He groans loudly and pulls out of me, making me feel suddenly empty. Then I feel his pleasure splash into my belly, so hot and sticky.
“Fuck…” Julian says between teeth, his eyes closed tightly. “I almost…”
*… He almost comes inside me.*
I bite my lips. The urge to feel his hot cum fill me makes me realize that I'm certainly losing my mind.
“Angel, I…” Julian opens his lips, but seals them the next moment, as if swallowing the words.
His body collapses beside me on the mattress, but I feel his arms wrap around my shoulders, pressing the muscle against my breasts, still protected by the bra I bought especially for him. Our breasts are rising and falling frantically, and I know his heart is probably beating just as fast as mine right now.
“Does it hurt?” He asks, opening his eyes to stare at me with his beautiful green eyes.
I deny it with my head, snuggling into his body, leaning my face against his neck, and searching for his warmth, “No… I had the best orgasm of my life.”
Julian laugh, and feel his throat vibrate as he slowly strokes my arm, “I guarantee, you'll cum much more deliciously when my cock is fully inside you.”
A shiver runs up my spine, and I hide my face amidst the skin of his neck, feeling my cheeks take on a rosy hue, “Why do you talk like that…”
“Huh, you don't like it? But you seemed to like it earlier…”
I press my nails into his arm, “Stop it.”
Again, Julian laughs and deposits a kiss on the top of my hair, “I can control myself, if you want.”
“It's not that, I like it, but…” I lift my face, looking directly into his eyes, “I didn't imagine you would be like this.”
“It's because you drive me crazy…” He twists his lips, “Now that you're in my arms, it's hard to control myself… I didn't want to make you feel pain.”
“Did you mean it?” I lower my face again, too afraid to look at him, “About next Saturday?”
“If you want.” Julian slides his hand around my waist, as if appreciating the curve it makes to my hips.
“I want to.” My lips twitch slightly.
“Then I meant it.”
I suppress a smile, but it wilts because suddenly Julian is pulling away and rising from the mattress, leaving my body suddenly cold. I reach out to hold him, but stop before I can even reach. I lower my eyes, noticing the bags on the floor and the emptiness of the bed that Julian has left. I grip the sheet tightly, trying to shake off this sudden sadness and loneliness…
“I'll get a bath ready for you, meanwhile I'll order something for us to eat…. Would you like something specific?” Julian's voice makes me raise my face and face him, with clear surprise in my expression, my eyes slightly widened. “What? Aren't you hungry?”
“I am…” I say, confused, watching him walk away toward the bathroom. I see his back so defined, and I feel my heart skip a beat. How is it possible for a body to be so perfect? How could I ignore this sin for so long?
Sinking into the mattress, I close my eyes tightly, feeling my chest warm.
These feelings… Didn't I bury them a long time ago?
Why do I feel this way now?
I hear the sound of water; he's probably filling the tub. I open my eyes, staring at the ceiling, feeling these desperate, anxious beats.
“So… do you want something specific?”
I sigh deeply, sitting down on the mattress… And crack a big smile, trying to shake off these thoughts. “Pizza.”
“Pizza?” He raises an eyebrow, “If you like this body of mine, you need to treasure it.”
“Ha-ha, today is our junk food day.”
“Is it?”
“Yes, it is.” I stand up, feeling his pleasure drip down my skin, which gives me a strange feeling. And from the way he looks at me, I know that wicked thoughts are running through his mind.
As I walk past him, I rub my fingertips lightly on the eight packs of his abs, and add with a smile, “And yes, I really like this body of yours.”
The smile on Julian's lips is silly, and it makes me smile too, as my chest gets hot. But soon, my expression is taken over by surprise, as Julian takes my hand and brings it to his lips, depositing a discreet kiss on my fingers.
“Then it's all yours, my Angel.”