Chapter 16 Log 1
"Pink represents ambiguity, lilies represent purity. I used to be a pure lily, but now this lily has mutated, changing from pure white to ambiguous pink. There are so many things in my heart that I want to confide, but I can't let anyone I know hear my confessions. Perhaps only here can I write out everything in my heart, as if confiding in a friend all my troubles and melancholy.
My name is Pink Lily, and I am confident that I have a charming appearance and temperament. Whether before or after marriage, there are countless men who show ambiguous interest in me. I have a happy family. A husband who works hard for the family and deeply loves me; a cute and silly son, Simon; and an elderly father-in-law who takes care of the children and household chores for my husband and me.
Everything at home is so harmonious, full of warmth. Although my family is not very wealthy, I am truly content. Although my husband is not the most outstanding among all those who pursue me, he is the most family-oriented and attentive person. He has never been angry with me, never argued with me, and our love is so tacit.
The only shortcoming in this family is my husband's current health. Due to a serious illness, his kidneys are damaged, severely affecting his sexual function, which has prevented us from having successful sexual intercourse since his illness.
When life was normal, I didn't realize I had such strong sexual needs. But since I turned 30 and my husband got sick, my sexual life has never been resolved, and my desires have become stronger and stronger.
Although in my social interactions at work, many men have hinted at me ambiguously, and I have some desires in my heart, but as soon as I think of my husband, my desire for those men disappears completely. Compared to my husband, the minds of those men are so dirty.
So, even though my desires are strong, I have never thought of betraying my husband. Although it would be easy for me. I try to suppress my desires, behave normally every day, and do not let my husband see my increasing desires, so as not to make him feel inferior. Even if he is impotent for the rest of his life, I want to make sure my husband lives confidently.
However, this calm inner life was shattered a few days ago. I accidentally came across some erotic literature. In the past, I would have felt disgusted when I saw such literature. But due to the lack of sexual activity for a long time, my desires were not being fulfilled, so I started to slowly watch those erotic literature. The descriptions of sexual scenes in them made my heart race, and my body was filled with the desire for sexual satisfaction. But all of this was still within my control. Those erotic literature provided me with the only sexual comfort I could find at the moment.
However, three days ago, I suddenly saw articles and images of incest between mother-in-law and son-in-law, and sexual relations between the elderly and the young. These things were beyond my previous knowledge and imagination, but they suddenly gave me an unimaginable strong stimulation. Watching those taboo incestuous relationships and the huge age difference between the elderly and young girls gave me a great shock and sexual excitement.
If it weren't for suddenly encountering this content, I would never have thought that I would be so interested in things that are unacceptable to normal people. The intense taboo feelings in those articles and images changed my previous perceptions. The wrinkles of the elderly suddenly looked so sexy, the gray hair was so stimulating to my senses.
I really can't believe all of this, nor can I believe that these feelings are happening to me. In a corner of my heart that has always been forgotten, a Pandora's box full of perverse desires suddenly opened, and I never knew what was inside.
Slowly, I began to notice the only elderly man in my house, my father-in-law. I suddenly noticed his gradually whitening long hair, the wrinkles on his face, and the aging body that was gradually hunched over, all of which were so stimulating to my body.
Perhaps it is also because my husband's sexual abilities are no longer functioning, I have developed a strong interest in my father-in-law, the only elderly man in the house who still has sexual abilities besides my husband. His appearance and the occasional outline of his hips are so attractive to me. I started paying attention to everything about my father-in-law, feeling fearful in my heart. I can't continue like this, but the scenes and images from those articles, like a curse and a nightmare, keep echoing in my mind, and no matter what I do, I can't get rid of them. I find that I can't help myself anymore.
Although I can't control my thoughts, I can control my body. I can't go that far, it would deeply hurt my husband and shatter this family. I absolutely cannot have a relationship with my father-in-law, I can only fantasize in the quiet of the night, but I find that when I fantasize, my lower body easily becomes wet and itchy, and every time this happens, I want to make love, but my husband can no longer satisfy me, so I try to control everything about myself.
However, all my efforts to control myself were shattered last night. I still did something that betrayed my husband and this family, even though in the end my father-in-law did not enter my body, but my body was no longer completely clean, I was still tainted by the opposite sex hormones. Last night, I accidentally saw my father-in-law's penis, in a semi-erect state, the sexual organ of an elderly man.
This was the first time I saw the sexual organ of an adult man other than my husband, and it was my father-in-law's. My father-in-law's penis was so thick, much larger than my husband's. When I first saw it, I was deeply shocked, I never expected a man's penis to be so thick, I couldn't believe my eyes, after all, I had only seen my husband's penis.
My father-in-law's penis was like a magic wand, hypnotizing me, and I had been obsessed with those taboo incestuous things these days, now seeing it so vividly made my body instantly filled with desire. I uncontrollably approached his body, looking at that thick, ugly thing, it was big, black, and fierce, but at this moment, in my eyes, it was so charming that I couldn't help myself.
I couldn't control my hands, they reached out towards it, in my mind I kept saying "don't, don't", but my body was out of control. The distance between my hand and my father-in-law's penis kept getting closer, and at that moment, my heart was excited, nervous, excited, fearful, in pain, my emotions were very complex.
But when I was about to touch my father-in-law's penis, a moment of clarity flashed through my mind, and I instantly stopped my hand from reaching his lower body. I had a fierce mental struggle, "I should put it back in his underwear for him, so that he won't misunderstand when he wakes up the next day, after all, I went into my father-in-law's bedroom tonight, and my husband knows." I comforted myself in my mind, but in reality, I was just finding excuses for myself.
I broke through the struggle in my heart, and regardless of everything, I grabbed my father-in-law's penis, suddenly an electric current passed from his penis, penetrating my whole body, making me tingle all over, I couldn't help but lift my head, letting my long hair float, to carefully feel the stimulation that electric current brought me.
At this moment, my mind was numb, as if I were possessed by a soul, my body was out of control, I brought my face close to my father-in-law's penis, a strong male hormone smell rushed into my nose, although it carried a strange smell, but at this moment that smell was so addictive, like the best perfume, making me infatuated.
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