Chapter 180
"Dear friends and family, today we are gathered here in front of these witnesses to witness the marriage of Nathan and Jennifer. Marriage is a sacred institution, a beautiful union formed by two souls coming together. It is a commitment of love, respect, and cherish for each other, through the joys and challenges of life. As Nathan and Jennifer stand before us, ready to exchange vows, let us remember the importance of the commitment they are about to make. May their love be a shining example for all of us, may they find strength and support in each other, as they journey through life together. Let us now witness the union of these two hearts, and bless them for a future of happiness and love. Nathan and Jennifer, please hold hands and repeat after me..."
With the pastor's wedding blessing, several relatives from my hometown, as well as Jennifer's relatives, stood solemnly together, blessing Nathan and Jennifer who were at the forefront. Nathan and Jennifer were dressed in new wedding gowns and suits, or rather, gowns and suits that had been worn by Nathan and Katniss that night, with traces of their love left behind, but now cleaned without a trace. Nathan and Jennifer's wedding took place at Nathan's house on a small island, surrounded by the picturesque scenery of the island, adding a touch of natural beauty to their wedding. Due to limited space inside the house, the wedding venue was set up in the open space in front of the house.
Although there were few relatives and friends at the wedding, I had hired a professional wedding planning company, so the decoration and scale of the wedding were not small. Lights and decorations adorned the trees around, with about sixty to seventy relatives, friends, and colleagues gathered. The emcee hosted everything, and although the two newlyweds were older in age, the wedding had a youthful vibe. Jennifer was all smiles, very satisfied with Nathan and their future life, with an expression of anticipation and longing for the future. Nathan also had a smile on his face, but as someone who knew the truth, I always felt that Nathan's smile was somewhat forced, with a hint of bitterness mixed in, perhaps because of Katniss.
Seeing Nathan's slightly bitter smile, I discreetly glanced at Katniss beside me, only to find her also smiling, but like Nathan, there was a hint of bitterness and reluctance in her smile, although much less than Nathan. When Katniss, Emily, and I each raised a toast to the two newlyweds, the eye contact between Katniss and Nathan was subtle. While others may not have noticed anything, I could always sense the complex emotions in their gazes. Once two people have that kind of intimate connection, even if everything is truly severed in the future, even if they are just shadows of each other, they will be deeply imprinted in each other's hearts.
Since the wedding venue was on a small island, after the wedding banquet, relatives, friends, and colleagues had to return to the mainland that day, so for safety reasons, not much alcohol was consumed. By nightfall, feeling slightly tipsy, I saw off all my colleagues and friends in batches, and then left the island with Katniss, leaving all the time to Nathan and Jennifer. Although the two were not young, they still arranged for some romantic time alone.
Katniss and I sat on a small boat, gliding through the flowing river water, creating subtle ripples. We didn't speak to each other, as I had nothing to say, and Katniss was lost in thought, gazing up at the dim night sky, lost in her own thoughts.
"What are you looking at?" Unable to bear the silence, I finally asked, but Katniss seemed not to hear me, no reaction at all. I gently nudged her with my hand, and she was startled, letting out a soft scream.
"What are you looking at so intently?" Katniss definitely didn't hear my previous question, so I asked again.
"I'm looking at the stars, the stars in the sky represent blessings for the ones we love! Don't Nathan, Jennifer, and you deserve blessings?" Katniss replied with a smile after a moment of contemplation, and I believed in her blessings, just unsure who among the three of us received the most blessings.
"Stars may be tiny, but they light up the entire night sky because of love, inadvertently touching me."
After Katniss's response, she continued to gaze at the stars. These words, on this special day, seemed to carry a special meaning. Perhaps I was overthinking, but the true answer to it all remained a mystery.
"The stars, messengers of summer. As a child, I heard from my elders that the stars govern life, each star representing a life. The falling of a star signifies the end of a life, while the rising of a new star symbolizes a new beginning, a cycle that repeats in the human world." Perhaps influenced by Katniss, I also looked up at the stars, feeling a sudden sentiment and expressing my thoughts. Of course, my words carried a hidden meaning, wondering if Katniss could understand.
"Your metaphor is profound, deeper than I expected." Katniss pondered for a moment after hearing my words, seemingly coming to a realization or unraveling some knots in her heart, she smiled and replied to me.
Yes, the past is the past, like fallen stars that can't rise again. The past of Nathan and Katniss is like a fallen star, gone, while my life with Katniss will start anew like a new star. However, the lingering grudge towards Katniss and Nathan, when will it completely dissipate? These past few days, negative emotions have been clouding my mind, preventing me from feeling excited. I sense a rift between Katniss and me, a rift that stems from me. Katniss has been kinder to me these days, but I can't feel the warmth I used to, and this pain may take time to heal.
Back at home, Katniss and I lay in bed playing with our phones, each lost in our own thoughts. When it was time to sleep as usual, neither of us felt sleepy. After turning off the lights, we tried to sleep with our eyes closed, but after about an hour, I still couldn't fall asleep. At that moment, I felt a vibration from the bed beside me. I slightly opened my eyes and saw Katniss sitting up, gently pulling back the curtains, gazing at the stars outside. Although I was curious, I couldn't fathom Katniss's thoughts at that moment. Was she sending blessings to Nathan through the stars, or convincing herself to embrace the new beginning? Perhaps it was a bit of both.
On the second night after Nathan and Katniss' island wedding, which was the same day Katniss spent with me at the company, Katniss took a pill. I saw this on the surveillance footage as I wanted to see Katniss's reaction after she returned home, but instead witnessed this scene. That night, I went to the bathroom in the middle of the night and saw on the surveillance that Katniss had taken the pill, disposed of the packaging in the bathroom trash can, and covered it with other garbage. Since the trash was cleared every few days, I still found the empty pill box, which was a box of contraceptive pills effective for 48 to 72 hours. It seemed that after Nathan ejaculated inside Katniss so many times, Katniss didn't forget to take contraceptive pills to prevent pregnancy. I stared at the pill box for a long time before putting it back in its place.
In the following days, Katniss and I often attended gatherings at Nathan's place, due to our connection with Jennifer, and we always got along very well. Nathan also frequently brought Jennifer to stay at our house for a few days. On the nights when Nathan and Jennifer came back, I pretended to be asleep while Katniss tossed and turned in bed. Perhaps it was because Nathan was sleeping with another woman in the next room, making her feel a bit uncomfortable, as something that once belonged to her was now taken by someone else, regardless of whether she truly liked that thing.
During this time, I kept a close eye on Katniss and Nathan, as they had no chance to be alone together, especially with Jennifer in the picture. Even when Nathan and Jennifer stayed over, I remained highly vigilant while pretending to sleep, fearing that Katniss and Nathan might sneak off to a secluded corner while Jennifer and I were asleep to engage in intimate activities. Perhaps due to my heightened anxiety, I had trouble sleeping these nights, and the next day, I discreetly checked the surveillance footage at work to confirm. Both Katniss and Nathan were honest, with no unusual behavior, and everything seemed to be back to normal.
Interestingly, one night, I heard sounds of lovemaking coming from the next room, which must have been Nathan and Jennifer, as Katniss was sleeping beside me. Jennifer, being at a sexually active age, and Nathan's strong virility, made their lovemaking quite audible, even though they tried to suppress their voices. I pretended to be asleep without any movement, and I believed Katniss beside me must have heard it too, but she didn't react, just occasionally letting out subtle and discreet sighs.
The next day, when I checked the surveillance footage as usual, I hesitated for a long time before opening the footage of Nathan's bedroom. Unlike before, where it was footage of Nathan and Katniss making love, this time it was Nathan and Jennifer. Out of respect for Jennifer, I felt uneasy watching, but I still opened the footage to understand the current situation between Nathan and Katniss. I must say, Jennifer, despite her age, still had a charm about her. Watching her naked and moaning under Nathan, a flame of desire rose in my heart unexpectedly. I hadn't expected Jennifer, usually dignified and quiet, to be so uninhibited in bed.
Of course, Jennifer's figure and appearance couldn't compare to Katniss. After observing a few times, I noticed a detail: when Nathan was making love to Jennifer, his eyes inadvertently glanced at the door, even during climax and ejaculation, his eyes were fixed on the door. After observing this a few times, I realized that when Nathan's eyes looked at the door, they held a hint of longing and affection, which definitely wasn't for Jennifer. Otherwise, Nathan should have been looking at Jennifer. This emotion was meant for Katniss, who was in the room next door. Perhaps when making love to Jennifer, Nathan's thoughts were actually on Katniss.
Days passed uneventfully, perhaps due to lingering grudges or the loss of the novelty and passion of Nathan and Katniss making love. Despite Katniss teasing me countless times and trying to make love, I found myself unable to perform, getting soft in the middle of it every time. Despite Katniss's efforts, including oral and breast stimulation, we never succeeded. Katniss didn't show any disappointment or hidden emotions, even if she did feel disappointed, she concealed it very well. I knew it was a psychological issue, and I needed to reduce or eliminate that grudge towards Katniss before I could regain my sexual desire. The reason for going soft midway during lovemaking with Katniss was that thoughts of Katniss putting on a wedding dress for Nathan would suddenly pop into my mind, causing my erection to falter. This was very frustrating, but thankfully, Katniss continued to be gentle and seemed to be making up for her shortcomings towards me with her remaining years.
Thinking about my own inadequate body, I couldn't help but worry about Katniss's future. If I continued like this, how would Katniss satisfy her heightened sexual desire that Nathan had ignited? Would Katniss end up having an affair with someone else? As it turned out, I was overthinking. Several nights, Katniss would quietly get up in the middle of the night, spend a long time in the bathroom, with faint moans heard. Initially, I thought Katniss was masturbating. However, after watching the surveillance footage the next day, I discovered the reason. Katniss had unknowingly bought a sex toy online, which she kept in her makeup box. The box was only moved when Katniss did her makeup, something I never touched. The sex toy was discreetly packaged and hidden inside, and when Katniss couldn't resist anymore, she would take the toy to the bathroom for self-pleasure, all without my knowledge.
Knowing the location of the sex toy, that night, I arrived home half an hour earlier than Katniss as usual. I secretly found the sex toy, black, electric, and quite large. But why did the shape of this dildo feel so familiar? Curiosity got the best of me, and I fetched a tape measure from the toolbox. I measured the insertable part of the sex toy and found it to be exactly 8.66 inches.
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