Chapter 91

'You were bleeding after you woke up from your what-so-ever nightmare, since when did it started?" She asked me.
' It's part of the complicated stuffs about my life. I'll let you know about this the sooner but not now. You just have to believe some thing about this, it has become part of me already." I explained.
The look she was giving to me is that which told, 'No more secrets." Even without making the friendship vow, I know we aren't meant to hide stuffs like this from each other.
But I can't tell her now. For the sake of Riel, this has to remain a secret.
I heaved.
'I have to meet with Riel, he has to know about what I saw." I stood up to my feet. 'Look, Desire, the truth is. . ."
The truth is, I don't know where to start from. To say I see crazy things or the fact that I travel from earth to another dimension.
Geez, she's gonna think I'm crazy. Of course, I am.
Back there at the other dimension, I killed those people? Does it mean after defeating Sophie, I will end up every lives in the fortress?
I'm still wondering why I would do such a thing like that. I don't even have anger issues to talk of a solid reason I would make such an ugly history.
Okay, let's talk about Riel. I'm just imagining how awkward he's gonna stare at me. He's gonna think I've gone into a new level of psychopathesim.
Despite that, of all people, he has to know. Then we talk not only about defeating Sophie, but myself.
Because right now, I don't think I fear anyone or anything as much as I fear myself. It's always sweet when you discover your gift, but it's not funny when it consumes you.
'It's okay if you don't wanna talk about it now." She said with an understanding tune. ' It's not like I'm so desperate or anything. Go talk to your husband, I don't think he'll like it when you keep secrets from him."
That's just one good thing I love about Desire. She always believes me even when I don't. She makes me believe that there's much hope even when there isn't.
Somehow I wonder what it was like not meeting her in my life. Crazy me, I most times end up comparing her with Camila.
Wanna know what my results comes out to be? I prefer her. Though Camila was my childhood friend, she's always been there for me countless times, she closely has this same characteristics of Desire, but nevertheless, Desire is a pure definition of 'The Best."
'Hey, stop giving me those look, I'm not a gay." She sarcastically rolled her eyes. ' What are you waiting for, go tell him what you saw."
' Do you have to be this pushy?" I teased.
She forced a smile. ' I feel scared and I don't know why. My dreams for you and his majesty is to be happy and live alone without anyone hindering or somehow interfering. But somehow, I feel like none of these is gonna happen.
It's like something bigger is yet to happen. Some thing worst and dangerous. And whatever it is, is way bigger for just his majesty to handle alone." I said, and I listened.
' Some thing bigger like what?" I asked, acting not to know anything.
' I don't know." She chuckled. ' I don't even know what I feel. I just feel like nothing is safe anymore."
'So, this thing you feel, does it tell you that lives will be taken?" I asked, inquisitively.
' What do you think? When something dangerous is involved, lives are involved too." She chuckled. ' I can't believe I'm saying this."
'It's nothing. I believe in nightmares and crazy dreams, what about you?" I asked.
' You know, the last time I doubted stuffs like that, I lost someone dare to me, I ain't doing that now. Whatever the dream says, as far as it is true, I believe in it." She snorted. ' I just wanna stop being this scared."
Honestly, I'm scared too. Oh God!
The only time Riel and I have such a good time to talk is always at night, so, I sat on the couch waiting patiently for him to show up.
Riel walked in, first he gave me this look that asked鈥� 'How are you?"
I gave him an assuring smile that I really am okay.
'I saw you with Desire, guess you two had a great time together." He say.
' Yeah, we did."
He took off his shirt, spreading it on the edge of the couch. 'How was your day?" He sked.
'Should I say 鈥業t went well?'" I asked him.
'Then say you did see another vision." He's just so smart. 'So, what did you see?"
'A vision. A different one, I'd say."
' Okay, I'm listening."
I took a deep breath. ' It's the third evil." I say. ' I know who it is."
' Who?"
' Me." Okay, that went too straight. Do you think he's gonna believe that? I mean, I can't believe myself if I have to be too straight to say I am the third evil.
'You?"
'Yes, me. Look I know it sounds totally crazy and stupid and鈥�" I was making so much effort to make him believe I didn't camouflage the whole thing.
' I believe you." He simply said.
He does?!
'From what happened the last time, bleeding through your nose, screaming almost every windows down鈥� I knew this would get to a point we all won't know what to do.
My fears isn't defeating Sophie, is being able to defeat the other part of you which controls you. So, this led to my reason for sending a message to the white sisters at London. They have decided to help you control your powers."
' But I am not a witch."
' Your gift is closely related to one."
So, I'm gonna fly all the way to London just for this? I mentally say to myself.
'Yes, you are gonna fly all the way to London just for your gift." I know he just read my mind. ' But don't worry, it's for our good." He reassure me.
' What's wrong?" He asked, noticing my quietness.
' Nothing. I just鈥� we don't know how long it's gonna take for me to control my gift. And鈥�"
' You're missing me already?" He asked.
I blushed, and I know it's obviously clear on my face. 'Who else am I gonna miss if not you?"
'I never thought you'd miss me this much." He's teasing me.
' Fine, I don't miss you. I won't." I faked an angry face at him. Maybe, I'll have to miss Desire alone."
I was beginning to vex that he doubts my feelings for him. And I won't talk to him if he doesn't apologise to me.
He was just smiling. His smiles always made me smile, but this time, I didn't let my emotions cloud my feelings. I am still angry with him.
He hugged me from behind, I flinched, I wasn't expecting that. 'You look sweet when you act angry." He kissed the back of my ear.
I shivered. What's he trying to do? Apologize, in a seductive manner??
'That doesn't change the fact." I insisted.
'So, what changes the fact?" He asked, brushing kisses on my neck. 'I wanna know, please." His voice sounding pleadiful.
' Ray鈥�" I moaned.
' Mm-hmm."
' I鈥� I was鈥� I鈥� was thinking if鈥�" I stammered.
' Get on bed?" He completed. ' I was wondering when you'd say that."
'I wasn't going to say that." He paused. 'I was going to ask when I'll be leaving to the White Sister's place?"
He was disappointed at my statement, I know, that isn't what he wants to hear. I was just kidding.
I鈥� actually wanted to ask about us getting on bed. Just doing some pay back, don't blame me.
'Next tommorow, it's up to you."
'Next tommorow sounds good to me."
'Yeah, I think it does." He walks back to bed. I'm a frustrator, you can call me that again.
I unbuttoned my gown and I let it slide down to the ground. I was putting on only my pants and yes, I am naked!
'Ray?" I called,
'What?" He's angry, I can tell that from his slow piercing voice.
'Look at me." I say.
'Babe, I think we should get some r鈥�" He paused the moment he looked at me.
' Honestly, I did wanted to ask when we'll be getting on bed."
' You are unpredictable, Jane."
' You aren't the only one saying that." I took off my panties and鈥�" what do you say about tonight, My Love? ' I bit my lower lip, making seductive eye contact.
He smirked, chuckling.
'What are we waiting for?"
I am unpredictable.
I got on the bed stake naked as I am. Tonight, I was fully prepared for the act. I was ready to have him all in me.
And, I was ready to become the mother of his kids. Especially, I just figured out I was much desperate to be called 'Mom"
The only way to be called that is to have it done once and for all. Am I forgetting something?
Yeah. I think I'm ready to carry to baby bump. And it's all gonna happen tonight, right on this bed.
I'm also gonna say this, I was gonna commit my first SIN with him.