Chapter Sixty Three

Erick had hurt me and shattered my heart into several pieces. I blamed myself for not listening to everyone who spoke to me about him. 


My parents had insisted he was not good enough, Isla had been open about her worries concerning him but I had turned a deaf ear.

I swam to the surface of the water and then to the shore. I wanted to know if Erick had come in search of me.
I wanted to see him and speak with him, I wanted to know why he was avoiding me.


"Who was that person he was with?"

"Did he love her more?"

Too many questions were yet unanswered.

It had been months since I saw him last. I was carrying his child and I wanted to share the good news with him but he didn't come to see me. I didn't even know how to reach him.

I was lost in his sweet words and warmth that I did not notice he was just messing with me.

I wondered what I had done wrong for him to treat me this way. I was yet to tell him about my true form.

"Was I not good enough for him? Did he not love me too?"

I thought of all the reasons why he should act the way he was acting. I felt betrayed and heartbroken. I wanted him to see the baby we had made together.

"Was this all a joke to him?"

What did I really do to make him turn his back on me?

I showed him how much I loved him and would do anything for him. He was my first love and I thought I meant the same to him. I understand now that he did not rate my feelings for him.

For all the times I told him that I love him, I got no response, and realizing that now makes me feel like a fool.

"He never loved me," I said to myself.

"We need to tell your papa" Isla said.

"I am not ready to face him yet"

"Why? You need to be ready to face him now"

"Do you think he will ever forgive me?"

"We can only find out when he knows about it, but for now I can't tell"

I didn't think I was ready to face him. I had brought so much embarrassment to him that I was scared to look him in the eyes.

Isla insisted that it was the best thing to do, especially now that my baby bump was not yet obvious.

"Would you go to see him with me?"

"I will go wherever you want me to go with you. I will always be there for you" she replied

And just as she had promised, Isla followed me home to break the news to my parents.

When we got to the house I was scared to go inside. I was scared of what my papa's reaction would be. And my mama would be so disappointed in me.

The moment she saw me she rushed over to my side and hugged me.

"You look better than the last time"

She walked us in but I was behind her.


"Why are you acting this way?" Mama said when she noticed us coming.

And then I came in quickly.

"What is the problem? You look exhausted.?"


"I just feel really tired. Where is papa?"

"He left briefly to get something"

We waited for him to get back but my mama kept asking if everything was alright.

And I insisted on speaking when papa came back.

I noticed my mama became a bit worried but Isla assured her it was okay.


Papa finally got back and joined us, he was happy to see me.

"You look well and it gladdens my heart"

"I want to tell you and mama something"

"Finally, you have finally come to your senses. King Maithusa would be happy to know you have finally accepted to be his bride"

I was surprised at how my papa had concluded just like that.

"That is not what I want to tell you and mama"

And his expression changed.

"What else could make you summon this meeting. If not to tell us you have accepted the king's proposal"

"Well, I only came to tell you and mama that I am pregnant"

"What?" Papa shouted and from the look on his face, he was angry already.

"I'm sorry papa."

He walked away. My mother came over to me and held my hands. She looked unhappy but she still came to console me.

Isla held me as I cried. I had no idea it would end this way.

"Wipe your tears my child" mama said

"I'm sorry for bringing shame to you and papa"

"I forgive you Yara .. the mistake has already been made and I hope you have learned from it"

And then mama hugged me.


I couldn't hold my tears anymore, I let them flow from my eyes while Isla and mama kept consoling me.

"Papa must hate me so much," I thought.

He would be so disappointed in me. Mama assured me she was going to speak with him.

"Please help me beg papa. I was blinded by love"

"I will speak to him, don't worry he will come around"

"I am sorry for all of this... I thought Erick loved me too"

"I feel so sorry that you have to go through all of this. It will be fine" mama kept assuring me.

I just wanted everything to go back to the way it used to be. But I know that was going to be difficult. A lot had happened. And even if it was going to get better, it would take a long period of time.

"King Maithusa finding out about your pregnancy was another thing I should worry about. He must not know about it"

"Why? That way he would leave her alone" Isla said

"No.. he will make sure he ends her life and that of the baby" mama cautioned.

Thinking about it now. They all had been right about Erick but I had been too stubborn to listen and it took Erick's betrayal for me to understand.

My papa didn't speak to me for days and I kept hoping he was going to because the guilt was killing me.

One day, I was lying in my tent when I heard noises outside and then I peeped to see King Maithusa and I was so scared that he might have found out about the baby.

I remained inside and then my mama came out. She was the only one around aside from me. He wasn't alone, he had come with his guards.


"Where is Yara?" He asked and his voice was very loud.

He was angry and I could tell from his voice.

My mama was fidgeting and I was scared she would give me out because of fear.

"I ask again, where is Yara, my bride-to-be?"

"Yara has not been home in days and we have been searching everywhere for her but are yet to find her"

And he laughed.

"You and your husband think you can deceive me. I don't care what you both do, all I care about is my bride. Find her and bring her to me or you will face the consequences"

He turned to leave but stopped immediately

"One more thing, I hope the rumor I hear about her being pregnant is not true"

"No it's not.." my mama said

"It had better not be" and then he stormed out with his guards.



My mama came to check on me. I could see the fear in her eyes. I had caused all of this for her and papa but they were also to be blamed.  They had encouraged King Maithusa all along, but regardless they never asked me to go get pregnant.

"I am sorry mama for causing you and papa so much pain and embarrassment"

"It is okay my dear. I have forgiven you"

"But papa had not"

"He has. He is only hurt and I promise that he will come around. Yara you can't continue to stay here for your safety"


"King Maithusa will not rest until he finds you and rumors are already making around Aidon that you are pregnant"


"I know mama and I've thought about it. But I do not have anywhere I could go to"


"There is a place I'll take you to but I won't be able to stay with you because of your father"

"I can survive by myself"

"No, it is too dangerous for you to be out there by yourself, especially in this condition"

Mama left me for a few minutes and returned with Isla.

"Isla will take you there. You will be safe there"

I gathered a few necessary things and left with Isla. We left Aidon to discover a serene tent. I wondered how my mama had come to know this place.

Isla helped me settle in.

"Thank you so much... I think you should be leaving now before it is too late for you"

"I'm not leaving you here by yourself and for your information. I'm staying with you"

I tried to convince her to go but nothing I said was enough to make her leave.

I was grateful to her for staying. She helped me a lot. Mama came once in a while to check up on me but for once papa never came with her.

I always asked about him and she would say

"He promised to come next time"

"Would papa ever forgive me?" I asked her


I knew what that meant and didn't ask any further. He was still very angry with me and it was justified.