Chapter 116
Claire's POV
It's been two more days since everything happened. I'm fully healed and have been going to school...alone. Martin has yet to talk to me. My room is for the most part finished, the window was replaced and sometimes I get a glimpse of him, pacing his room, eyebrows furrowed and tight. Sometimes I just stare at him for a moment before I close the curtains and force myself not to think about what he's doing or thinking about. I've caught him looking into my room as well but I quickly lean against the wall or close the blinds.
It's the end of the day and I'm finally back in my room. The walls are white and bare, the bed frame just came in from a local store and they put it together for me. I have a mattress but the comforter isn't here yet so I've just been sleeping on it bare with a pillow and small blanket. The lamp, nightstand, and dresser pair nicely together and I hope soon it'll feel like my safe place again.
There have been rumours around school saying Tara has been spotted in packs and running around others territory. All I know is all the rumours say she's far away and I pray to god she is. Maybe she's trying to find another pack? Someone to take her in? But what about Lawrence or her Father. Lawrence has only sent me a quick text saying he caught her trail but has yet to find her. I didn't text back because I didn't know what to say. I did visit her Father yesterday, he told me how sorry he was and that he didn't know what was going on with her. He cried silently to himself and I tried to comfort him. He doesn't have the strength or will to go after her but he's in so much pain knowing she left.
Everyday I look out into the direction of Tara's grandmothers house...wondering and debating if I should go talk to her and find out the reason Tara hates me so much. But each time I look away and leave, I'm almost too afraid. I'm afraid of what she'll tell me and I'm not ready to face whatever it is, not yet. We have a break from school all of next week. It's Thursday and almost everyone is skipping tomorrow.
I throw my bag on the bed and get to work, I haven't seen Bervely since she went to spend the night at his house. She hasn't even been at school, my parents seem over joyed at this, even though she hasn't even contacted them. I haven't even seen Martin. I've seen him in his house and sometimes when I pass by the council hall he's in there, talking with the rest of the men.
I shake him from my thoughts and get busy on my last day of homework for a while.
An hour in I hear someone walk into the house. Could it be Bervely? I almost don't want to move, just sit here and pretend like I don't care, but I have to know. I quickly push off my binders and papers and scurry off my bed.
I shake him from my thoughts and get busy on my last day of homework for a while.
An hour in I hear someone walk into the house. Could it be Bervely? I almost don't want to move, just sit here and pretend like I don't care, but I have to know. I quickly push off my binders and papers and scurry off my bed.
By the time I run to the doorway Bervely is already up the stairs and headed back into her room.
"Where have you been?" I ask in a hurry. Her hazel eyes shift to me and she looks me over "what does it matter" she rolls her eyes and continues to walk into her room
"Bervely!" I call out and she turns to me
"What?" She snaps, annoyed
"Where have you been" I demand she scuffs but after a moment smirks
"Well if you must know me and Martin were exploring our interest to each other, spending time with that man will change you" she licks her lips and instantly images of them touching and kissing come to mind, I almost gag
"I guess he got tired of being around the weak link" she laughs lightly and my heart sinks
"You're lying" I say holding back tears and she rolls her eyes
"Whatever Claire, just accept that he'll never want you...no one will" she says and before she walks away she turns her head and I swear I see a hickey. My knees go weak as she walks into her room, slamming her door and leaving me a confused, sad, and angry mess.
Is it true? They've been together this whole time? He wants her. He just dragged me along because...because I don't know but I can't keep this in. I'm infuriated and embarrassed beyond anything I've ever experienced. Why would he do this to me?
Even though I feel like crying until my eyes fall out I stand up tall and walk down the stairs. By the time I reach the door I have half a speech ready for the new alpha that I wish never stepped foot into this pack.
With glassy eyes I walk outside to see warriors training, Martin isn't in wolf form but just turned back. He pulls on his shirt, his shorts already hanging low on his hips. I wait patiently leaned up against the house, watching and waiting till he dismisses them. I don't know why I'm doing this. What if he says something hateful, I can't handle a cold stare from him, what if he says he really does have feeling for her? I shake my head, no I need to make him understand what he did.
The Warriors run into the wood and shift back, coming back fully clothed and human. They all disperse and Martin starts to walk to his house. I stand with head held high and collect the courage to go over to him. Each step brings more anxiety but my anger helps me keep moving.
When I'm a yard away from him he looks over to me. We stand facing each other in his yard. His eyes widen as they look at me
"hello Claire" he says softly, and it feels like a punch to the gut.
My plan to stay calm, not yell at him and just explain how much of an ass he is completely thrown out the window as we stand in silence. I explode.
"She really is your type isn't she? All that shit you said about how I'm not nothing and how you care about me was all bullshit wasn't it? You just go off and play house with my Sister, doing god knows what the day after you kissed me? What? You thought you'd just string me along like a little weak lost puppy?" My voice raises and I step closer to him "I'm not weak! But you make me my weakest!" I scream, meaning every word
"What was the point? To prove I'll never be good enough for you or anyone else here? Only Bervely is good enough right?" by the time I finish I'm have hot angry tears moving down my cheeks
Why couldn't I have just not cared? As I try to calm myself I just hear silence from him, this both angers and confuses me. I look up at him and he looks like he's in complete shock, his eyes are wide, mouth hung open, and eyebrows pulled together.
He finally speaks
"What are you talking about Claire? I have never kissed your Sister" he cringes
"she only stayed that one night and the next morning I kicked her out, I heard she's been staying at one of my warriors houses the past two days" he says and my face drops and my eyes pop out of my head
I pause a moment trying to collect my words, whipping my eyes I look over his face, seeing if he's lying
"she hasn't been with you?" I ask quietly.
He shakes his head, his dark brown hair swaying at the movement
"heavens no, the night she stayed she tried twice to make a move on me but I told her to leave..." He trails off and I try to think
He shakes his head, his dark brown hair swaying at the movement
"heavens no, the night she stayed she tried twice to make a move on me but I told her to leave..." He trails off and I try to think
She lied. But that makes no sense? He asked her to stay, why would he kick her out the next day?
"Then why did you ask her to stay and not me?" I ask moving my silver hair from my face
He tilts his head and his eyebrows pull together tightly "Claire I did want you to stay, your parents told me that you didn't-" he pauses and looks away
"you didn't feel comfortable with me and that you wanted to heal with them at home" he says and I gasp
I remember my parents whispering to Bervely when I came home
"They said that?" I ask and he nods
He looks my face over
"Please tell me that's not true Claire, it killed me knowing you-"
"No of course it's not true, it's a lie" I assure him immediately and smile, he lets out a sigh of relief and smiles a little
"They told me that you offered for Bervely to stay at your house and I could take Bervely's room...well the couch" I say the last part to myself
He seems baffled by this. His lips pull together in a thin line, his eyes grow a deep golden brown.
"That's fucking ridiculous! I asked them to let you stay" at this point he looks as infuriated as ever, his breathing is rapid
I know he's angry but I can't help but be relieved
"so..." I trail off
"you wanted me to stay?...and you didn't kiss Bervely?" I ask quietly and at my tone Martin calms himself for a moment and caresses my cheek
"I would never kiss her, I wouldn't kiss anyone besides-" he pause looking away for a moment
"I would and will never kiss another woman unless that woman is you" he says, standing up a little taller as he steps closer to me and my mouth falls open as I stare at him
"Really?" I ask, hardly above a whisper trying to decide if this is a dream or not
He smiles softly
"yes, I promise" he says and kisses my cheek
I blink a few times, trying to work out the scene that just unfolded. My parents lied. Bervely lied. Martin was deceived just like me. Martin does have feeling for me. I sigh and lean into his chest, he wraps his arms around my back and pulls me closer, his whole being surrounding me completely...and I feel safe.
"I'll have to deal with your parents later but right now all I want to do is be with you" he whispers against the top of my head and kisses my silver hair
I smile and try not to worry about what will happen to my parents, I need to be with him right now.
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