Chapter 96
Claire's POV
"Are you afraid of me?" he asks but more demands
I wince at the question
"no alpha" I tell him, fear and excitement battle in my chest and mind
"I told you not to lie to me" he says softer but still harsh
"I'm sorry alp-"
"Martin" he says and I meet his eye "don't call me Alpha, at least while we're alone...for now" he says and I nod slowly, confusion being the main thing I feel when he speaks
"Now I'll ask you again" his voice is a whisper now and his head moves lower to me
"do you fear me?"
I place my hands by the wall to keep me from touching his hair and look up into his eyes
"you intimidate me" I tell him, which is true
He smirks a little
"what's so intimidating?" He asks
My grey eyes widen and I search his face, I raise an eyebrow and tilt my head
"everything about you" I spit out before I have time to think5
He frowns at my words and a second later backs away from me, at first I think it's because of me so I begin to apologise but then I hear the door open. Beverly pops her head out, first she sees Martin and smiles seductivly when she sees me though she instantly frowns and raise an eyebrow
"Claire why would you follow the alpha out here, leave him alone-he needs his privacy" she says but I almost laugh because one- he came out here, and two- she was coming to find him and take away his privacy7
Her face completely changes as she looks back over to Martin
"forgive her" she laughs
"anyways desserts on the table" she smiles
"unless you want another type of dessert" she bites her lips and my mouth flys open.
"No thanks" he says
"we'll be in in a minute" we both say at the same time, anger filling me at her words after the shock
She frowns but winks at him anyways strutting back inside with swaying hips.
"We should go in" I tell him and he nods, I'd rather stay out here
He looks at me for a moment with debating eyes, he goes to say something but stops. I turn and grab the handle of the door but feel him bend down next to my ear, his hot breath fans across my neck and hair. "I don't think you're nothing" he says, voice deep and melodic
My eyes widen and I suck in a deep breath, Glad for the cold weather chilling my flaming blush. I don't know how to respond so I give a wary smile walking back inside while he follows, his loud footsteps close behind.
The rest of the dinner or dessert goes smooth enough, my mom and dad try to be doting and happy, laughing at every short sentence the alpha said. I stayed quiet and listened to when he would answer my parents questions about him. Bervely, I frown even thinking about her, she wouldn't stop hugging his arm or laying her head on his shoulder. She even scooted so far over when she turned to him her chest rubbed up against his arm. I caught a few very irritated and angry glances from alpha towards her but she didn't seem to notice, she was too busy trying to seduce him.
My mom takes his and the rest of the family's plate, except mine. I bring my dish to the sink and start to wash it.
"I actually ran into Claire this afternoon" I hear Martin say and I quickly drop the plate and turn to him, my heart plummeting to my stomach
I look over at my mom and dad and they both stare wide eyed at him "did you? Where?" My Father asks
"In the forrest, she had just gone on a run...something I'd like to talk to you about" he says and I gasp quietly knowing my parents are going to kill me
"Really?" My Mother says in a growl like tone, but her face shows full fear
I back away from the sink
"it was just a quick run" I tell her "I'm going to my room" I walk away before they can answer but I hear Martin stand
I run to the stairs and curse myself for not being more careful, of course I had to bump into the one person who we'd be having dinner with and the one guy who doesn't know I can't run with anyone. I lay down on my bed and fight the urge to cry knowing when he leaves my parents are going to come up here and rip me a new one.
About an hour after I leave the table I hear the front door close and I cringe. I didn't hear much of there conversation but a few harsh words on Martin's end.
I hear there foot steps racing up the stairs and I close the book I was reading and wait. They burst into my room
"what were you thinking?!" I Mother whisper yells
"Claire you know you have to tell us when you go for a run!" My Father fumes
"I'm sorry, I couldn't take it, he didn't see me I promise...it really was after I ran" I swear to them but there faces still hold anger
"How could you be so stupid? He could throw you out of the pack!" My Mother flares her hands in the air, her blonde hair shakes with her movements
I'm stunned at her words, he couldn't do that could he? He wouldn't want to, would he? "What?...you think he'd do that" I ask quickly, hands moving to my chest where my heart pounds
"Claire you're weak, strong men and alphas like that don't want weak wolves in there pack" my Father says and I feel my heart shatter
Tears prick at my eyes a so try to hold it together
"I don't feel weak" my voice is hushed, so quite I hardly hear
"But you are" my Father dead pans and that's it the tear gates open
Warm tears slide down my flushed cheeks and I look down at my hands. Fear, hate, and disappointment run through my veins, fear of being thrown out of the pack by Martin; a man who makes my insides feel warm but also my knees shake in fear, Hate for the way the moon God made me, hate for the illusion and irony of feeling so strong yet being so weak, and disappointment for myself due to my thinking I was ever good enough, for thinking for even a second the Alpha cared about me. He probably only came out to make sure I wouldn't run so no one would see me like my parents. He probably only said he didn't think I was nothing because-...because I don't know, make me feel better or something. He probably asked if I feared him to see if I was as weak as they say. He linked with the pack this morning, that's what Tara told me.
"I'm sorry...it won't happen again" I whisper, tears falling on my collected hands in my crossed lap10
They don't say anything else. They walk out and close the door behind them. The second I hear them leave I turn over and scream into my pillow, feeling the deepest loathing for myself. I'm so stupid. At this point I shouldn't even care when someone calls me weak, it's true. I think back to hours ago when Martin was inches from my face, the feeling of a fire in my chest when he's near me, the flicker of his eyes to my lips...stop. I'm being completely ridiculous.
I turn over and strip from my dress and bra, throwing on my pyjamas and laying in bed, this time checking if my window was closed...not that it mattered why would he look at me. I'm sure he's heard plenty gossip about me when he mind linked.
I close my eyes and fall asleep with tears in my grey orbs, praying I'll dream of a place far from here.
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