Chapter 27
We finished our food in silence after he stopped laughing, I had too many questions running through my head, and I had to straighten them out before we could talk properly. He left me to my thoughts, allowing me space to arrange and sort them, which I was grateful for. When we finished eating, and the plates were removed, I thanked everyone again. He stood, offered me his hand, and we walked back to the lounge, he offered me one of the armchairs. I sat down as I struggled to arrange my thoughts, he took a seat on the couch, opposite me. Someone had removed the damaged cushion and started the fire while we were eating so the room was warm and comforting.
“You said I would be Luna, what are a Luna's duties? Would a human be allowed to be a Luna? Would I have to give up my job?” The questions flew out of my mouth in a stream of word vomit, like there were too many questions in my head and I had to make room. He coughed, uncomfortable and shifted himself nervously in his seat.
“Well, firstly a Luna's duty is to provide an heir, but we don’t have to do that right away.” He added hastily as my eyes widened in fear. He groaned loudly. “The Luna is the mother of the pack, she watches over the pups, although that’s more figurative these days, ensuring none are being hurt, that the school is doing well, and stuff like that. You also protect the females, if one is being mistreated in any way, as Luna you have the authority to deal with the person mistreating them however you wish. Mostly, the Alpha is the discipline, and the Luna is the nurturer, we are mother and father to the whole pack. You would also be in charge of any and all social functions, and in the event, something happens to me before our pup was old enough to take on the Alpha role, you would rule in his place.” He finished, he watched me carefully, while he waited for my reaction.
“And my job?” I asked.
“There’s nothing that says you can’t work while being Luna, that’s up to you. You don’t need to ask my permission; you are my equal, not my subordinate. You are also the only person who can question my decision in front of our pack. My beta, Ben, can question me to an extent, but if you disagree with a course of action, you can say so at any time. If another member of the pack attempts to question me, it is a challenge, and we would fight.” He stated casually.
“Fight, like argue or to the death?” I asked incredulously.
“They would have to kill me, but I would just need to make them submit unless I decided what they did deserved death.” Again, he was so blasé about the whole thing.
“That’s barbaric!” I cried, horrified by what I was hearing.
“We are animals, Charlie, at least in part. Many of our laws are the same as those you would find in a wild wolf pack. But no one has challenged an Alpha in decades, at least in this pack.” That surprised me.
“No one has disagreed with the Alpha in decades?” I asked my tone doubtful.
“No of course they have, but they did so in private. They either convinced the Alpha, or the Alpha convinced them. There are also advisors who can offer an alternative plan of action but diplomatically. Or a group can send their leader to discuss their concerns. We aren’t a dictatorship; the pack follows me because I am the strongest wolf. I provide protection and prosperity; we all have our roles to ensure our society stays strong.”
“Okay, you talk about your wolf, like... like you are two different beings, how does it work?” I asked, while I attempted to accept that delusion or not, I needed as much information as possible to survive it.
“We are and we aren’t, we are two sides of the same coin. He is my more animalistic tendencies, he’s still me, and I am him, but we are also separate and different.”
“I don’t understand.” I frowned, it felt like he was talking in riddles, while I needed the truth.
“I know, it's difficult to explain. It’s not like there’s a wolf inside me, talking to me, he is me, but where I can control my desires, and my urges, he is an animal. He runs on his urges and desires, they drive him. Did you ever take a psych class in college?” He asked suddenly.
“Umm... yeah in freshman year, why?” I replied more confused than ever.
“Okay, he is the ID, I’m the super-ego, and our ego, is all that separates us... does that make sense?” He asked.
“Alright, I think I get it, so when you said he wants to mark me, what does that mean? Is it like a branding or something?”
“No, when we mate, and choose to be with each other forever. I would bite you like I did when I lost control.” He paused, looking ashamed. “Then you would bite me. It creates an unbreakable bond between us, we would be able to sense each other’s feelings, and with someone who isn’t a wolf it allows them to use the mind-link but only to their mate, you have to be initiated into the pack before you could mind-link anyone else. It takes some getting used to, but you’ll get the hang of it.”
“What’s a mind-link?” I was more confused and overwhelmed than ever.
“Oh, sorry, it’s a silent form of communication.” He shrugged.
“Like telepathy?” I asked, I started laughing again. It was ridiculous.
“Yeah, I suppose, but you can’t invade someone’s mind and pick what you want out. It’s like a phone call, they only hear what you want, and you only hear what they want. You have to accept the link; it can’t be forced on you. You can shut it off if you don’t want to be disturbed, and it requires a close proximity, or relationship. I could link my brother in Appletree right now, but if I was on the other side of the country it wouldn’t work. Although my parents, who are both of Alpha blood, can link each other from quite far away. One time-” He began chuckling, but upon seeing my reaction suddenly stopped, his face fell. “It's too much too soon, isn’t it? I know this is a lot to accept, I really do, but you’re not crazy. You have to believe me.” He almost begged, I felt torn, I wanted to believe him, but it was insane. None of it was possible, it couldn’t be. Could it? I needed time to think, time to process. I let out a deep breath, confused and scared of what would happen next. His body sagged defeated. “I’ll take you back to Appletree, but can we talk again tomorrow?” I will come to your office after work, and we can go out to dinner?” He asked hopefully.
“I can’t go back to work right now,” I whispered.
“Oh, okay, I can take you home if you’d like, and you can take a few days off, to think everything over?” He offered, going home was the right thing to do, but the idea of leaving him broke my heart. I didn’t want to leave, but I couldn’t stay either. I had no idea what to do.
“I don’t think I could concentrate on work right now. But I don’t want to leave you. I also know I can’t stay; I’m just completely overwhelmed. I have no idea what to do, and I’m not used to that.” I tried to explain
“That’s okay, you don’t have to leave, or go back to work. I will do whatever you want.” He said perking up a little.
“I have to go back to work, I need to pick up my bag, my coat, and my phone. I need my keys so I can go home.” I rambled, at a loss for what to do. The whole thing had been too much for my brain to deal with and it was coming out in a stream of fractured thoughts.
“Alright, it’s okay, I’ll have your assistant bring your things here and then I can drive you home later if it’s what you want?” He offered, he slipped off the couch and crouched in front of me, he wanted to comfort me, but had no idea how. I reached for him and buried myself in his chest, the only thing that had calmed me down was his smell and embrace. I just wanted to bask in it for a moment to calm my speeding thoughts down.
“Yeah, I think I need some time to get my head around all this. Maybe I should just go now?” I whispered unsure as his hands ran from my waist to my shoulders.
“I will take you home if you want, but I wish you would stay for dinner. Please?” He asked, he looked so sweet and uncertain.
“Okay, I will stay for diner.” He smiled so widely and brightly that I felt myself melt and my reservations disappeared for the first time since he told me everything.
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