Camilla's POV continues

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“Hmph, Alpha,” Arielle calls out, getting a quicker reaction from me because I now respond quicker to Alpha than my actual name. “Can I have my baby now?” She asks, holding her hand's out.

My gaze shifts from the baby to her empty arms, “Huh,” I ask, that one stubborn brain cell refusing to process the fact that I agreed to give her the baby, she saved the baby, she wanted her when I was too scared to have her, when I wanted to get rid of her.

“The baby, remember you agreed to let her keep it instead of suffocating her with a pillow soon as she was born.”

I choke, swallowing the huge lump that forms on my throat. I look at Arielle, dropping the paper and putting the baby in her arms. I feel empty again, I don't like this feeling, it's worse than when I left her father, it left a hole in my heart but I tossed it away. I don't know if I can fill the emptiness that giving Lauriana away to Arielle has left.

“Thank you, I'll get going now but I'll come see you sometime this week.” Arielle tells me, shushing the baby.

“Okay.” I force a smile,

“I will help you take these down,” Mirabelle says, sparing me a glance before she proceeds to drag a suitcase. I watch them walk away, my heart beat rising so fast I feel like I'm suffocating, I'm counting backwards again, trying to calm my breathing but it's not working, I don't need breathing exercises, this isn't some fucked up trauma. I tell myself I'll still be able to see her, Arielle lives a four hour flight away, I'll see her.

No.

I jerk off the bed, running after Arielle and Mirabelle. “Ari,” I called out to her.

Arielle turns, “What's up baby, do you need something?”

Yes, but I can't say it for some reason so I point, pointing to the baby.

“You need the baby?” She frowns, in response, I shake my head. Arielle sighs, “Just tell me what is that you want, use your big girl words.” she chuckles.

“Can King keep her?” I blurt out, wanting to slap myself already.

“Kingston?” both Ari and Belle ask in unison.

Like the fool I am, I nod, “Yes.” I lick my lips. “He likes her a lot.”

“Hmph,” I laugh. “I absolutely love her, I can't give her to Kingston, you gave her to me she's mine now unless otherwise.” She grins, looking down at the baby to make a kissing sound.

“Wait, if King can't keep her, can Karla?” I ask, instantly regretting my words soon as I say them.

“Camilla, I know you give Karla everything she wants but you can't give your daughter.” Mirabelle laughs.

“Can I keep her?” I coax, my voice breaking now. Arielle looks at me with a feigned confused expression, I know she can understand me. She does this to me instead of saying, 'I told you to.' She feigns confusion, waiting for me to acknowledge the mistake I made.

“Can I please keep her?” I sob, “I thought I could let her go but I can't, I don't think I'll ever be able to live without her. I'm scared of being a shitty parent, but I would rather be one that tries, please don't take her away.”

“Oh honey,” Arielle frowns. “Of course you can keep her, don't cry, I was never really going to take her. She's all yours, and no one is ever going to take her from you.” she tells me.“Come here,” she frowns.

I move closer, closing my eyes. She gives Arieya to me, the feeling of her having in my arms once again making me cry even harder, I rock her in my arms, attempting to soothe her crying.

“She is yours sweetie, all yours, you can keep her as long as you like.” Arielle tells me, brushing my hair.

“Even forever?” I sob, blinking back tears as I stare at Arieya.

“Yes,” she giggles. “ Even forever, she's your baby, she belongs to you. Now if you don't stop crying like this, I'll take her.”

“No,” I cry out, sniffing.

“Bring to visit soon okay?” Arielle tells me.

I nod, looking down at Lauriana who is still crying despite me shushing her. “Why is she crying?” I ask.

Arielle laughs, “Probably scared of staying with a crybaby like you, give her to me.”

I laugh, placing her in Arielle's arms where she quiets down almost immediately. I frown, looking at Arielle, “But why does she cry only when I hold her?”

“Probably revenge,” Belle snorts. “You were literally going to give her up for adoption a few minutes ago, I'd be mad too.”

“If anyone should be mad, it's me, she looks nothing like me. Despite staying in me rent free, she comes out like I stole her from somewhere.” I frown, wiping tears on my hand.

“I'll go and check her diaper, maybe that's what woke her.” Arielle frowns, making her way back to my room with the baby.

“I'm scared,” I tell Mirabelle. “I think she hates me, doesn't she? That's probably why she's crying.”

Belle laughs, “She's a baby dumb dumb, she doesn't know anything and she is crying, it's what they do.” She pats my shoulder. “Don't worry, you're a great mom.”

“Karla is older.” I counter.

“Trust me, you will do just fine and we're all here for you.” she tells me, wrapping her arms around me. I sigh, relaxing in her embrace. “Where is my future Alpha? I haven't heard her screaming.”

“She's resting, after we found her in your room, King seeked advice from reputable doctors and they figured she might be able to walk again. But, she has to get surgery by a specialist.”

“Surgery?” I gasp, “She's only five.”

“That's what Kingston said, but if there's a possibility she'll walk, he'll take it.”

“No,” I shake my head, that's too risky. “She won't get surgery, it's too risky. We need a second, third, and fifth opinion, she'll walk but surgery? No.”

“You need to rest,” she tells.

“I've been sleeping for four days.” I frown, making me laugh.

“Did you see Arieya's eyes?”

I laugh, yes I have, I've seen her eyes, she couldn't even get that from me. “Those eyes that made me a fool? Yes, I saw them.”

Mirabelle shakes her head, “No, I mean her eyes when she was crying.”

“No,” I honestly say. I didn't notice her eyes when she cried, I was focused on holding back my own tears and quieting her.

“I am scared of her eyes, even the paediatrician was stuttering when she saw her.”

“Why, what did her eyes do?”

“Arieya's eyes turned exactly like yours, right now.” she tells me, watching my eyes. “Silver grey,” she breathes. “Now they're back to their color.”

Grey? I frown at her, my eyes are never grey and Lauriana has her father's eyes, her entire appearance screams him, perhaps if she grows a little we will be able to notice some changes in her. I sigh, the amount of work ahead of me screaming in my head, from Alpha duties to my law degree, and everything in between that's constant, like parenting. I'm a mother, not of one but two little girls, two girls that I love wholeheartedly and I will give my life up for.
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