Camilla's POV
ALPHA'S HATED MATE
Camilla's POV
The tears came faster than I could register what was happening, my heart couldn't seem to pump blood fast enough and I felt like I was dying, fuck I wanted nothing but the world to open up under my feet and swallow me whole into an endless abyss. I wanted to scream but I didn't, I bite my tongue until a metallic tang filled my mouth, I swallowed as I walked away from the disgusting image in front of me.
Michelle was hot on my trail, until finally she caught up with me, not far from Adrian's office. Where I can hear him cursing at his whore to hand him his clothes.
“Camilla, wait! ” Michelle calls out for the seventh time and I stop because this time, she's grabbed my arm.
I turn, glaring at her through my tears as I yank my arm from her grip, “You fucking knew didn't you?”
Her eyes grow wide as she stares at me, “My God, what did you do?” She shrieks, obviously noticing how bloody my mouth is. Her hand came to my mouth, “Let me see.”
I slap her hand away and put some distance between us, “Don't touch me!” I cry out.
“Camilla.” Adrian calls out from behind Michelle, making her turn. “Alpha, I tried to stop her.” Michelle says softly.
I begin to run once again, with him after me. My vision is blurred by the fountain of tears gracing my face. I can't remember the last time I felt like this, broken, deceived and worthless. My body runs into a wall, a wall with hands, keeping me from falling into his arms. I look up only to find Santiago. “Cami.” He mumbles, looking over my shoulder, I follow his gaze to where a shirtless Adrian now stands now. I moved further away from Santiago and him.
“Mia, let's talk.”
I shake my head, “No, I don't want to talk to you. You can go and talk to Angel! ”
Santiago glares between us, “Angel, What the fuck did you do Adrian?” He snarls.
“It was nothing I just-”
“Nothing?” I snicker through my tears, “If that was nothing I'd hate to see what something would look like.”
He takes a step forward and I make a run for it, going straight to my room and I lock the door behind me. Adrian and Santiago are at my door when I hurl myself on the bed, sobbing into my pillow. I was so excited to come back home to him, I was happy the roads were closed because it meant I didn't have to be away from him.
When he didn't text back, I assumed he was upset because I left even after he begged me to stay this morning but no, it was all for show.
He wasn't texting back because he was too busy fucking Angel. I knew he was having coitus with other girls but I assured myself he required time to sever his old habits, one in particular but the minute I turned my back, he put a knife in it.
My ears are ringing with rage, I want him to die a miserable slow death and bring him back to life afterwards. I want him to feel the pain I do, I want Angel to hurt as well.
Why should I always be the one to cry in pain every time? Sometimes I feel as if I offended the world by being born. Yes, that must be it. There is no other valid justification I can think of to explain my misfortune, I know I'm lacking in many ways but him going back to her after he promised me he wouldn't touch her was a stab in the heart. My tongue might have bled but my heart aches so much, I wish I never met either of them.
For a while now, Santiago and Adrian have been bickering at my door, Adrian is calling out to me while Santiago is reprimanding him.
“Mia open this door before I knock it down.” Adrian demands.
I shake my head against my pillow, it has been over thirty minutes -I think. I'm tired of them yelling at each other.
“You won't do jack-shit until she wants to talk to you, you fucked up Adrian. I'm tired of explaining you to Camilla, fuck your traumas. This is ridiculous, complete idiocy!” Santiago roars.
“I have to see her, she's angry.”
I hear Santiago chuckle bitterly, “She's not angry, she's fucking disappointed Adrian.” He argues.
He's right, I'm not angry at him. I'm disappointed. Not in him but in myself, seeing him fuck Angel and hold my gaze as she came hurt me. I felt inadequate, was sex what he wanted? I would have let him have a go at me, used me if he pleased but he never once tried to get into my panties for something other than eat my pussy for "his pleasure" as he called it.
Once, I'd pleaded with him yet he turned me down, said I wasn't ready and he'd wait until I was, he said he had to prepare me because I'd break easy. I'm weak as a mate and seemingly as a bed warmer too. He doesn't need me for anything. I'm just a pest that won't stay out his way and he won't push away because he is tired of trying and feels obligated to tolerate it, that's all I am to him and it hurts.
The voices outside my door turn silent and only one is audible, Belle. She's asking if they've seen me. I hear Santiago snort at her question, “Adrian, care to tell Moon what you did to your mate.”
There's a light tap on my door, “Cami, open the door.” Belle whispers softly on the other end. I clutch my pillow closer, using it to stifle my cries unsuccessfully.
“What, do I hear crying? What have you done to Camilla?” She roars.
Adrian doesn't speak.
“Go on, tell her just how good you felt when Cami caught you pounding into Angel.”
I hear Belle gasp, “No!” She yells, “Are you fucking stupid Adrian, how the hell do you keep going back to Angel? If you don't want to break up with your whore then leave her alone. Cami has had enough, you're breaking her faith in people she's so innocent and you're trying to ruin that! Man she doesn't fucking deserve all this pain one day she won't have enough to give. She gets bullied on a daily basis so you didn't have to do it indirectly, sleeping with your whore is confirming every taunt she hears, her confidence was building up but you damn took it from her well done Alpha Adrian,” She claps, “Congratulations you did it you broke another girl's heart. I told her to stay away from you but she's drawn to you. All she has done is put her faith in you and this is how you repay her by sleeping with your little slut?”
“Belle,” He warns.
“Belle nothing, Moon is spilling facts. This is the one girl you shouldn't have broken, you fucked up for real this time.” Santiago counters.
As I reach for a glass of water with trembling hands, I hear an urgent knock on my door, making me throw the glass to the door. It's taking everything in me to keep my inner demon trapped within me.
“Stop that, you're upsetting her. And don't look at me like you care about her, you didn't think of her when you did that shit. You've made your bed Adrian now lay in it and don't force Cami to speak to you. Leave her the fuck alone you've hurt her enough for one night!” Santiago barks.
I hear Adrian growl, “You know I care about her.” He counters, matching Santiago's tone.
“Camilla, honey. Don't do anything stupid okay? I will rip Adrian's head off his body for you if you want me to, no? Come on, he is not that pretty to look at and besides, my mom will gladly take the exchange I'm offering, you for him. It's a good deal, he won't be missed when I kill him, Santiago can be Alpha. Just say the word and he's gone Cami, I can murder him with one eye, no both eyes closed.” Mirabelle snickers.
I manage to smile through my crying, she's trying to make me laugh. She knows how broken I feel so she wants to put the band aid on, that's what she does, she fixes me and shields me. Sadly she can't protect me from Adrian because I'd still do this a thousand times for the lies that made my stomach flutter as we lay in bed talking all those nights.
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