Camilla's POV continues

“I won't go to jail.” She frowns.

I roll my eyes and cross my arms over my chest, “You think?”

She nods confidently, “You're not going to let that happen, you promised me I would never go to jail remember?”

My blood runs cold from the memory, and I nod. Of course I'll never let any harm come to her but she keeps looking for trouble. I go closer to the girl and kneel, Raquel backs away and Tee steps closer, beaming at me. “So what are we going to do with her? Should we experiment on her body before discarding it?”

“No!” Raquel cries out, “You won't experiment on my sister you little freak.”

I look up to her and cock my brow, “Your sister, you helped Tee murder your sister?”

I grab the girl's arm and check her pulse, it's working. A sigh of relief escapes me as I look at Tee. “She's not dead, you just knocked her unconscious.”

Tee frowns like she's aggrieved she didn't murder someone, this is one sick bitch but who am I to judge her when I've always been her accomplice.

“What even happened here?”

“Before you assume it was my fault, it wasn't.”

“Oh yea? When is it never your fault or mine Tee, we are magnets of chaos you would think you know by now but no, you won't stay out of fucking trouble.”

She snickers at me, “What do you suppose I do? I lost my sister and no one-”

“We will talk about that later!” I scream at her, rising from the ground. “-and you, cut me a piece of your dress.” I turn to Raquel. She opens her mouth to say something but I shake my head, “Just fucking do it.” I growl.

When she hesitates, Tee charges at her and tears a piece with a fucking blade, making sure to graze Raquel with it just enough to draw some blood.

I tilt my head towards the blood and shake my head gazing back at Tee. She simply shrugs, yea, Belle and Racheal are a huge step up from this psycho for friends. I nod towards Raquel's sister and Tee cleans the blood off her forehead. I was right, there's a small wound, nothing major.

“So, you two are the fucking dream team.” I seethe.

“No.” Tee protests, “I don't like this bitch, her sister just pissed me off because she drugged my toy to sleep with her and this idiot was there. I slapped her around a little bit then her sister tried to interfere with it so I pushed her but I swear it wasn’t hard.”

“Oh, that seems very normal but Tee, I can't keep doing this, you can't. You will start seeing Mina tomorrow or I'm done with this for you. It's time you got help for your thirst for blood.”

She nods, matching my stare. “Like you did? Oh wait, you didn't.”

“I don't go around bullying little bully bitches and killing their sisters!” I snap.

“I didn't kill her.” She disputes.

I shake my head and look towards Raquel, “Take your sister home. I'm sorry I called you a little bully bitch and whatever this was, it stays here. Make your sister believe she dreamt it.”

“How ca-”

I shrug, “Figure it out and keep away from Tiana.” I say putting emphasis on the ana, “and oh, in case you forgot, exams are tomorrow. It's Monday already.” I say pulling Tee with me.

I drag her to a pizza place that's always open, my brother's wife cousin works here. We sit in the corner of the booth, eyeing each other silently. Tee buys us smoothies and a pizza, I put my phone on the table when the pizza arrives. It's three in the morning and I'm eating pizza with a demented eighteen year old that refuses to accept she has issues deeper than emotional trauma.

“I am sorry.”

“You'll have to be more specific than that.”

She smiles blankly, “I'm sorry for everything. For waking you up but mostly for forcing you to lie for me.”

“You didn't force me to lie but you have to do more than just be sorry.”

She nods, slurping her smoothie. “I hate myself bear, I'm tired of pretending. Aren't you sick of it?”

“Sick of what Tee?”

She leans forward and licks her lips, those empty eyes peering at me. “Playing the good girl, you'll never be.”

I snort out a laugh, this is exactly what I thought of her earlier.

“I'm serious bear, hiding your claws doesn't change what you are, theoretically and literally. You're a weapon of destruction, you and I are not good girls in the least. We act like it, everyday but we both know what we are.”

I sigh, “Tee, you can't go around murdering people.”

“I don't, I just play with them. I don't kill anyone.” She counters, her voice breaking and we both know why.

I imitate her breathing to keep me from drifting to the darkest part of my mind, from getting lost in my memories. But she already mentioned it and now, I'm thinking back to the moment I found her kneeling before her sister with bloody hands and I gulped. Shaking my head, to terminate the memory from resurfacing further.

“Don't you ever feel it, the thirst?”

I nod, “I do and I understand how addicting it is. Once you get a taste, there is no going back. Do you know why I'm back?”

She shakes her head and I bite on my tongue, “I caught my mate fucking someone else, I had my demons pushed to the surface and it was fine for awhile but every time I saw him and that woman, I wanted to kill them both. I wanted to pull her apart limb for limb, to see if she was just as perfect on the inside like she is on the outside but I didn't, instead I hurt myself. I got so blinded in the euphoric bliss of feeling something that wasn't rage and I almost lost my life.”

Tee is watching me with wide eyes, “I can't lose you.”

“I know and I can't lose you either but you're pushing your limits, what if Raquel’s sister died tonight? we would have had to kill her too to keep this buried and someone else would have seen then what? You'd kill them too and the next and-”

“Fine. I'll start therapy with Tamina again. But here's the thing.” She leans forward and takes a deep breath, for a second I can see the old her again, she's not a bad person, neither am I.

“If we are going to accept truths then you should drop the weak girl act, you're so far from that. Letting people pick on you and treat you like shit won't bring Tiana back, she's dead. Letting spoiled bitches walk over you isn't making up for her death. You already ditched the nerdy look, might as well go ahead and drop the weak act too.”

“But it's not an act it hurts me.”

“Yes of course it hurts, I know exactly how you feel. I too feel like a cursed little bitch that deserves nothing good even if I pretend I do, there's always a voice telling me otherwise but everyone deserves something right? So why can't we have happiness, there's worse people out there and they're happy so why not us bear?”

I fight back tears and reach out for her hand, “I promise I won't let anyone pick on me ever again, I will fight for good like you do.”

She smiles and this time it reaches her eyes, “I love you bear, I want to see that spark in your eyes once again. I want the old you, the sweet, confident girl who stood up for herself even. I want to see Camilla, the real Camilla. I don't care if you don't hangout with me anymore. Losing you for your happiness is better than losing you to untitled motherfuckers that get high off belittling people. You are not some lamb, you're my fucking bear and you need to show them that.”

“I love you, you're always going to be my best. It doesn't matter that I've got Mirabelle now, I will always need you both. You're a huge part of my life and I don't care what happened, my love for you remains unchanged. You're my favorite person Talitha, every version of you.” I smile.

“You called me, Talitha.” She sobs, and I laugh. Of course no one has called her by her name in so long because to everyone, the malicious twin died and the Saint survived but fuck, Tiana was no less a saint than Talitha. Her parents loved Tiana so much, they forgot Talitha existed most times. To them Tiana was perfection and Talitha was besmirch, but they were wrong, Tee was better than their precious Tiana in every way, she didn’t hide her vice like her twin did.

They were the same but Tee was extra and too imaginative for their taste. I hate how Tiana got all the attention, and Tee would get whatever was left and it would solely focus on the bad things she did.

Talitha would be gone for days with my mom and I and they'd almost never notice. They treated one child like a jewel and the other a burden, if you ask me, Talitha didn’t kill Tiana. Their parents did, the way they treated her and Tiana's behavior caused her death.

One might say Tiana was a child that didn’t know better and her evil sister murdered her in cold blood but come on, they were both kids. So neither of them knew better.

When I found Tiana laying in a pool of her own blood, I thought it was Talitha. She was wearing her clothes and she looked exactly like her twin. I could only tell them apart through their eyes but at that moment, her eyes were closed and she was wearing the exact clothes I was wearing.

But when my eyes drifted to where Tiana sat in tears, I was confused. I remember calling her by my pet name for Tiana and she looked at me through hazed vision, I saw Talitha. They both had a darkness to them and it reflected in her eyes, only Talitha's darkness had a deep sorrow to it, much like mine.

I knew it, I felt it and lived with it from the day I met her. People thought I adopted her darkness but no, she simply activated my own. I always knew there was something wrong with me since my early misfortunes in life. The death of my biological parents, the infertility Mom had after they took me in.

When I asked her what happened she looked at me with regret and said she didn’t want to kill her but Tiana was pushing it, taunting her to do it and she snapped, one minute she was pleading for her to stop the next she was crying next to her dead body and I believed her, she was a lot of things but a liar wasn’t among them.

When the thought finally registered to me that Tiana was the dead one, I felt relief, relief I should have never felt. It was wrong and I thought I should atone for it by changing myself, becoming something she always pretended to be, we both did.

Talitha told me she would become like Tiana, the perfect child if only she woke up but it was too late. Tiana was already dead but I agreed with her. I told her to not only be like her but become her, and she swore to me Talitha was dead. Her brother Mikel found us and called the ambulance, Talitha lied through her teeth and so did I. Since I was never close with Tiana, I kept my distance from Talitha, scared she’d get caught.

A few years later, I found out the autopsy read she’d died from overdose which meant by the time Talitha killed her she was probably dead, I think she knew she would die and wanted to remain the victim even in death or maybe Talitha did kill her.

I didn’t tell Tee what I discovered, by then we were already imitating her. I liked being a good girl, everyone did too, I was paying for my sins and discovering a new me. Blood still gave me the same feeling and I loathed it.

Talitha was Tiana in every sense, she was finally the good child but Mikel knew she wasn’t Tiana, he knew her better than that. Talitha imitated her sister perfectly, no one but Mikel caught on. Tiana's death haunted me more than it did Talitha, if it did, she hid it so well. While she pretended to be perfect, Talitha shined through her every time I saw her.

I wanted to change who I was, the evil that crawled within me even though everyone only saw light, I saw the evil.

That was the time I was grateful Mom didn’t allow me mirrors but still, despite her efforts to make me the perfect child, on the inside I felt-feel like a shit person. I just didn’t realise Tee felt this way too, it must be harder for her to carry the weight of her sister's death and embrace her personality to the point where she doesn’t recognize herself.

I bring my hand to her face and wipe her tears, more fall but I wipe them too. “You might have changed your name, but honestly Tiana was a snobby tiny version of your mom. God rest her soul but you deserved better than whatever your parents had to offer. You should ask for the autopsy, Tia committed suicide and you took the burden upon yourself it’s what she wanted to get you in trouble but that failed miserably.” I snort, not sure if I believe what I’m saying but anything to make sure Tee becomes normal and gets help.

“She might have been a favorite but hey, you got the better name. You know just how good Talitha fits you and you never have to worry about losing my love. It's forever yours, you'll always be my sunshine.” I say walking over to her side and I hug her. I mean it, l will always love her no matter what.

She beat up everyone that bullied me even though she knew I was capable of it. Tee holds my deepest and darkest secrets and she gave them light. Thanks to her, I haven’t heard from the blood thirsty demon within me in ten years.