CHAPTER 18
LUCAS’ POV
I laid in bed that night tossing and turning all night. Stupid Harry. Of course I couldn’t get Skylar out of my head. Her face tonight is the only thing going through my mind. That little smile that she gave us tonight. It’s the first time we’d seen her smile.
Tomorrow she might even laugh. Wouldn’t that be something to see. I bet she has a beautiful laugh. It’s probably as beautiful as she is. If not, close to it.
Of course I liked her and I wanted to protect her. But until tonight I didn’t think I felt that way about her. Not until Harry said something. Again, stupid Harry. I was fine until he made me realize that I was jealous at how she was always so close to Jax and she still kept her distance from us.
I didn’t realize that I was actually jealous as I saw Jax carrying her up the stairs. It was just a reaction. I had no control over it. And apparently I had no control over my face either. Harry noticed it.
Harry had been more aloof around her but I was the one that had been harsh. More straight forward and probably more scary to her. Until I started teasing her. I hope she’s not scared of me. I don’t think I could handle that.
Why the hell did I have to be that guy? I was the mean one who was trying to hide my true feelings about her.
I was being mean so she wouldn’t see that I was attracted to her.
That’s the last thing she needs. Skylar doesn’t need us being mean to her or being too harsh on her. She needs someone who understands her right now. And that’s not what I’ve been doing.
Why do I always have to fuck up like that? I don’t mean to.
I can now see why Jax was so worried about her and needed to get to her when he did. He knew her back when she was 14. He’s probably seen the beauty and character in her that we only got a glimpse of tonight.
I completely understand why he was so desperate to save her now. And I don’t regret doing it for one second.
But Jax isn’t going to let her out of his sight. Not knowing that we’re hunting those assholes that attacked our families.
We’ve put her into a dangerous situation after taking her out of a dangerous situation.
Were we actually doing anything good here? Or were we setting her up to get hurt even more than usual.
I could actually imagine getting a lot closer with Skylar. I think I want to get a lot closer with her. To have a closer relationship. That’s nothing I had ever considered before.
I’ve never been interested in a relationship at all. One night stands have always been my thing and I was happy with that. The guys always teased me. But it was better than Harry who never showed an interest in any girl, but I know why that is. And Jax, he was just complicated when it came to girls in general. He would date them but then he’d dump them after a couple of weeks for some reason. There was nothing to it. He would realize that he hadn’t seen his girlfriend in a couple of days and he didn’t even realize that he hadn’t seen her. So he’d end it. Knowing that it obviously wasn’t that important to him.
I guess he was doing them both a favor when he did that. But it was still weird.
Jax didn’t believe in one night stands. And Harry, well, I don’t know what his sex life is like anymore. It’s too much of a sore spot to bring it up. He doesn’t get involved in the usual boy banter and locker room gossip about girls.
What the hell is this girl doing to me?
The longer I laid there and the later it got, I just got more and more restless. So I got out of bed and I found myself standing outside Skylar’s room, hesitating whether I should go in or not.
I eventually grabbed the door handle and opened it slowly and pushed the door open.
I saw Skylar asleep under the covers and Jax was asleep next to her. I guess he never made it to his room after he took her to bed.
She was facing Jax and he had his hand on her waist.
A strange sensation just washed over me. Jealousy, I think. That’s the only thing I could think of.
But as I looked at Skylar’s peaceful sleeping face, I started to settle down.
I decided to carefully climb into her bed as well and I laid on the other side of her. Jax tossed around a little and I stopped moving so he didn’t wake up either. I definitely didn’t want him to see me sneaking in here. I’d never hear the end of his crap.
I was really careful with my movements after that so I didn’t wake her up. She looked too peaceful. Something that wasn’t normal for her. She always looked like she was a little panicked about something.
I was just getting comfortable under the covers, right next to her when she rolled over towards me in her sleep. She was facing me now and I carefully reached up and softly stroked her hair. Somehow, I felt a sense of calm and contentment that I had never known before. It was the first time I had felt this kind of connection with anyone. It was so profound that I didn’t even know what to do with it.
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