CHAPTER 80

The following morning I woke up at 5am and Jax was still sound asleep so I gently got out of bed and I crept out of his bedroom without waking him up.
I went to my room and I was almost expecting to see one of the other guys asleep in my bed. But there was no one there.
So I got changed into some workout clothes and I crept downstairs to the kitchen where I filled up my water bottle and I walked down to the training room.
I was admiring the sunrise coming up over the city as I was walking across the backyard and again, realizing the potential in this backyard.
There are hedges and trees to give us privacy, but this is a huge backyard and it has so much potential.
I knew I could do a lot with this place. I just didn’t have the money to do it.
So, I would just have to keep dreaming about it. I wasn’t going to ask the guys for the money to fix up the backyard.
It’s their house and their money. It wasn’t any of my business.
I walked into the training room and I got started on half an hour of cardio before I started on the weights.
It wasn’t long before that room started getting really hot because of the work out and I opened the large doors to let the morning breeze come through. But it wasn’t really blowing in this direction.
So I turned the industrial size fan on and I kept working out on the weights.
By 7am I was still working out and suddenly I saw Harry come running down the backyard towards me.
“What’s wrong?” I asked.
“We’re looking for you.” He said, out of breath.
“You guys really need to stop stressing so much.” I said as I continued to do the weight training.
Jax and Lucas came running down after they realized where I was and they couldn’t really speak either.
“What are you doing down here this morning?” Harry asked.
“I’ve come up with a solution to our William problem. I’m working out every morning on weights to build up my muscles and every afternoon I will do hand to hand combat with whoever is available. And next time William sends you on a job, then I am coming with you.” I explained.
They all looked at each other strangely before looking back at me.
“I am not being locked up in this house with that fucking prick every again. I hate him and I hate that he acts like dad. He is a creep who stares at me and I hate the fucker.” I said, not stopping my work out while I was talking to them.
They looked at each other again, but this time they seemed a little more impressed then confused or worried.
“I think that’s actually a brilliant idea.” Lucas said.
“You’re not afraid that she’s going to get hurt?” Jax asked.
“Not if we train her the way she wants. I think it’s really doable.” Harry said.
“Good. So, who’s training me this afternoon?” I asked.
“I guess it’s my turn to step up.” Lucas said.
I finished the workout that morning while the guys were in the training room. They were sitting around talking and talking to me, but they were going to respect my wishes and wait until I was finished.
We all walked up to the house together and I had to go straight upstairs to have a shower and I stood under the hot water, loving it on my sore muscles.
But I was surprised when the shower door opened and I turned around to see Harry standing there.
“Really?” I asked.
“The guys are making breakfast. I thought you might need some help washing yourself.” He said.
“I’m pretty sure I know how to wash myself by now. Besides, we don’t have time. We’re going to be late.”
“I promise to keep all private parts to myself. I just wanted to come and see you.” He said walking up to me. He turned me back to face the water and grabbed the soap and started washing it all over my body, washing me very thoroughly before I did the same for him.
When we finished in the shower I had to walk across to my wardrobe, making sure I was wearing a towel.
I know that they had all seen me naked now, but I still didn’t feel comfortable walking around the house naked. Not even around my room naked. So I walked into the wardrobe and I got dressed in a green and white maxi dress with thin straps that was stretchy around my breasts. The top of it was mostly green with white in it, the middle of the dress was white with green in it and the bottom was green with white in it.
I put on some white slip on shoes and I made sure that everything was packed into my bag and I had finished all of the homework that I needed to get done before I walked downstairs.
As soon as I got down there I smelt breakfast straight away and I was craving what they were making.
This morning really made me build up an appetite.
The guys all loved the dress and said that it suited me great and I was glad that they liked it.
I really liked it and I had put it back but they grabbed it again and bought it for me. One of the many clothes that I have in my wardrobe now.
I was pretty preoccupied during breakfast and when we got in the car to go to school I was still thinking about some shit in my head.
“Hey Lucas, do you mind stopping at the drugstore before school?” I asked.
“Sure. Are you feeling alright?” He asked.
“Yeah. I just need to grab something.” I said.
I looked over at Jax and he was looking back at me but I didn’t say anything.
When we got to the drugstore, the guys were going to get out, but I told them to stay. I was only going to be a minute.
I went to the back of the store to the pharmacist and there was only one person in front of me that I had to wait for, but once she left I walked up to the counter.
“How can I help you?” The guy asked.
“I just need the morning after pill, please.” I said. And he looked at me for a moment.
“Have you considered going on the proper pill?” He asked.
“I haven’t seen the doctor yet.” I said.
“Have you thought about abstaining from sex until you get on the pill?” He asked.
“Are you gonna sell it to me or not?” I asked.
“Well, I have to make sure that it’s right for you.” He said.
“No. You just want to push your beliefs onto me. I’m usually careful and I usually use protection, but last night was an exception. Can I please just get the pill?” I asked.
“I have to ask you a few questions to make sure that you are suitable for it.”
“Every woman is suitable for it.” I said, through gritted teeth. I was really starting to get pissed off with this guy.
“I’m sorry but this is procedure.” He said.
Then someone walked right up beside me and leaned on the counter and put his arm around my waist.
I turned to see Jax standing there.
“We both know that’s not true. Now, why don’t you give her what she asked for before I come back there and rearrange your store again?” Jax asked.
The pharmacist shut the hell up after that, his eyes going wide when he saw Jax and he just nodded his head and typed a few things into the computer before he went to get the pill.
“Rearrange this store again?” I asked.
“He owed William money so we were sent to give him a message. He knows us.” Jax said.
“Why the hell would you guys bring me here?” I asked.
“Because we knew that if he saw us, he wouldn’t give you a hard time. Like he was before I walked in.”
“What the hell did you tell the guys?” I asked.
“I told them the truth, alright. They know what you’re getting. You don’t need to lie to them.”
“I feel like I do.” I said softly.
The guy came back with the pill in a little box and Jax paid for it. So we left the drugstore and we walked to the car and as soon as we got inside the car I was about to look for my water bottle when Lucas handed me a small bottle of water.
I took the pill but I was having trouble looking at Lucas and Harry after all this.
I know that they’ve all admitted that they loved me and they know what I’m doing with the others. But that doesn’t change that I still feel like I am betraying the others when I have sex with one of them.
I mean, this isn’t exactly a conventional arrangement and it’s definitely not something that I ever thought I would be involved in.
But the guys didn’t seem to get jealous when I’m with one of the others. It was weird. They didn’t care about sharing me.
Is that because they loved me so much that it was something that they could live with. Or have they had other women like this.
There were so many questions. And I was really hoping I was the first woman that they had like this. Because I am already afraid that they will get sick of me and want to move on to someone else. Or they will meet someone else that they love so much more than me.
That was my fear, but I wasn’t able to tell them that yet.
I knew that I would eventually, but just not yet.