CHAPTER 30
I was walking down the hallway of school with a few kids hanging around everywhere with no clear path to get outside. I was just walking, pretty fast when I heard some footsteps running up behind me and Skylar grabbed my arm.
“What the hell is this? Are you actually jealous or something?” She teased.
“Don’t make fun of me.” I warned her.
“Are you actually jealous?” She asked, more seriously this time. “I can never tell with you, Harry. You never say anything to me. You never express any kind of feelings or emotions. I wish you would talk to me. Let me know what the hell you are thinking because otherwise, I don’t know.” She added, looking like she was getting angry herself now.
So I grabbed her by her arms and I pinned her against the wall with me blocking her in so she couldn’t get away.
“Do you really want to know how I’m feeling?” I asked.
“Yeah. I wouldn’t mind.” She said, staring me straight in the eye.
She’d never done that before. She never looked me in the eye. She always looked away whenever I looked at her. I know she caught me staring a few times and it made her uncomfortable. She wasn’t uncomfortable now. She was looking me straight in the eye waiting for an answer.
“Alright. You really want to know what I want? I want you. I want you to be with us. All of us. I know that it’s not conventional, it’s not normal, but we’re best friends and we don’t get jealous of each other. We get jealous of other assholes like Bentley who swoops in and tries to take you away. But I want you. And so do Lucas and Jax. I want you to belong to us as much as we will belong to you.” I said. And she stood there stunned, like she didn’t know what to say. I don’t blame her. That was a hell of a lot to take in just a couple of seconds.
“But you have barely ever spoken to me. I don’t understand why you like me that much.” Skylar said.
“Just because I don’t speak to you, doesn’t mean I don’t want you. It has nothing to do with what’s happened in the past. It has nothing to do with us saving you or any of that bullshit. I want you because I genuinely like you and want to take care of you. We all do.” I said.
I could see that Skylar was more than moved by the transaction that was going on between us. I had only ever expressed these feelings to one person before. And I never thought I would do it again. I never thought I could open myself up to someone just to get my heart broken again.
But I was never going to let anything happen to Skylar. I’d learnt from my past mistakes. This wasn’t going to be the same.
I’ve been trying to fight my feelings for Skylar because I thought I would be betraying Lizzy. But I also realize that Lizzy wouldn’t want me to be alone for the rest of my life. Or blaming myself for the rest of my life. She would want me to be happy. And I think I really could be with Skylar.
“Thank you. For being so honest. I thought I was going crazy.” She said, looking downwards for a moment. But I put my hand under her chin and made her look up.
“What do you mean?” I asked. And I was going to make her look me in the eye while she said it, so I knew that she wasn’t just saying what she thought I wanted to hear. I needed to know that she was telling the truth.
“Well, I’ve been feeling the same way. But I have been feeling that way about all of you and I thought that I was going to lose my mind. That you were all going to make me choose. I was going to start keeping my distance and not spend too much time with any one of you, but try and stay near all of you otherwise, be on my own. I know that I don’t show it very well either, but I do feel safe with you. And Lucas. It’s not just Jax. He’s just familiar. That’s all. But it’s still a really big deal for me. But I have started feeling the same way about all three of you, especially you, and I didn’t think any of you would feel that way about me. I thought you were just being overprotective of me because you knew what was going on back home.” She explained.
“You haven’t just been thinking that we were here to save you from your dad?” I asked.
“No. I do remember everything that you did to get me out of that house. And to stop him from seeing me at the hospital. And pretending to be my boyfriend so the doctor would talk to you.” She said, chuckling. I didn’t know that she knew I said that. One of the guys must have told her. Assholes. I was definitely going to get them back for that one.
“So, I’ve been an asshole to you and you still have feelings for me?” I asked.
“You haven’t been an asshole to me. Why would you think that?” I asked.
“Because of the way that I talk to you, when I do talk to you. The way I stare at you. Everything.” I said.
“I never thought you were an asshole Harry. You’re my knight in shining armor.” She said.
As soon as she said that, I couldn’t help myself anymore.
I abandoned all of the restraint that I had been holding on to and I leaned forward and kissed Skylar dominantly, passionately. But to my surprise, she put her arms around my neck and responded in the same way. Leaning into it dominating me as much as I was her.
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