Chapter 172- Please Forgive Me
HARDIN'S POV
Ronny left to rest for the night after I told him everything I wanted us to do and I just sat there in the living room with my thoughts. Ariana saw me this morning in the type of position I was with Claudia and I know that wasn't right, we'd agree that we'd be each other's partners but I don't think we talked about not seeing others. Did we?
I sighed as I got up from where I was seated and made my way upstairs. I'm hoping that by now she would be calm and would want to listen to me.
I knocked on the door of the room I know she'll be staying but I didn't get any response from inside.
“ Vera, I know you're in there, please open the door, we need to talk," I said as I knocked again,
" I'm not going anywhere if you don't open the door, I'm already sitting outside,” I said as I slowly slid down to the floor and sat down.
She didn't come open the door, this was just a clear indication that I crossed the line and hurt her feelings.
“ Vera, please can you please just come open the door, please,” I begged but still no response and I sigh.
“ Vera,..." I started… " I know you're upset and maybe don't want to talk to me, I know I'm the shittiest person and you've had to a deal with me for a long time, I don't know what is wrong with me Vera but I'm going to be sincere with you but it's hard, the moment she looks at me, all my mind wants me to see is that beautiful girl I fell in love with, my mind keeps falling for that and before I can realize myself, I've done something stupid,” I said as I rubbed my face.
I stayed silent for a while as I just rested my head on the wall. I knew she was listening so I continued.
“ I know I crossed the line, I know I'm crazy, infact I'm every name I know you're calling me right now,"
“ I'm not calling you any name," she said from inside and I couldn't help but laugh, she was just behind the door.
“ Vera, please forgive me, I'm not going to let myself fall again but please I need you to forgive me, I sent her away, I can't let her stay at our house and cause trouble so please just forgive me and I'll try not to slip up again,” I said,
“ You're stupid you know right?” she said and I tried not to laugh.
“ I know and I'm sorry for being stupid," I said,
“ Hardin, I don't think you've gotten over your obsession with Claudia, truth be told the only way you can see her and not fall for her tricks is when you come to agreement with yourself that she's not the Claudia you knew when we were all younger. Until you talk to yourself and accept this I don't see you going anywhere, you need to fix that broken lover boy and move on, I won't lie to you there are other better women out there that are deserving of you, even though you're a total crackhead at times.” she said and I smiled,....“ This is all I have to say to you, Hardin,"
“ I'll try my best, it's a promise, I won't let Claudia into my life for any reason again," I said and I heard her chuckle.
“ It's easier said than done Hardin, you should know that," she said and I I nodded but realized she couldn't see me.
“ I know, that's why I said I'll try," I said and it sounded like I was trying to reassure myself rather than her.
“ Okay, we're watching. Good night Hardin, I have to sleep, I've got a big day tomorrow,” she said before I heard her standing up.
“ Good night Vera," I said from where I was still seated on the floor.
I knew she had returned back to bed but I just couldn't bring myself to stand up. My mind kept replaying every word she just said.
She wasn't wrong but the problem was that the love I had for Claudia was rooted too deep in my heart and I've tried to uproot it but even when I succeed, the little part still remaining after all my efforts start to grow again the moment I see her and that wasn't normal.
It wasn't normal at all.
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ARIANA'S POV
I had other problems to think of but here I was unable to sleep just because I found Hardin in a position that annoyed the fuck out of me with another woman.
I know he wasn't my boyfriend and we didn't make any promises to be just each other's partners. We didn't talk about it.
He slept with her, the woman I've heard caused him nothing but pain but yet he was found in bed with her like a gentle lover. So much for being a secret admirer.
I really don't know if I was angry the entire day because of my conversation with Scar or seeing Hardin with that woman. But I'm sure it had more to do with seeing him in bed with someone else. I've told myself that I won't let anything about Hardin bother me but thinking about what I saw this morning just made my heart clench.
I said I was going to take what he gives and not complain but I just couldn't keep to that promise. My love for him was consuming me.
I tossed and turned in bed trying to get some sleep but my mind was too occupied for that to happen. I sat up in bed with a sigh as I picked my phone.
I opened my phone gallery and then went to that special file with just Hardin's pictures there.
It wasn't obsession, it was love, I was in love with him and the love was rooted too deep in my heart but he was in love with another woman. While I stare at him, he had his eyes on another woman but I just couldn't stop, I couldn't stop loving him no matter how hard I've tried.
I threw the phone to a corner in anger and was about to lay down when it vibrated with a message. For some stupid reason I quickly picked the phone hoping it was a message from Hardin but when I looked at the screen it was a message from a strange number.
I read the message and if my mood was sour before it became worse. I didn't need anyone to tell me who the message was from, I knew.
The audacity.
Who does she think she is?
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