Chapter 101

Soma’s POV

After Roman guards took away Max, Oliver finally was on his knees. I knew he wasn't going to let anything more happen to me. I wanted to get closer to him but they had him out of my reach.

“Oliver,” I called, but he didn’t look at me. I felt a sadness building but I had to remember they drugged him with something otherwise he would have already gotten to me.

“So Nathaniel since you don’t want to help me, I am going to start my torture of your daughter at least until your mate arrives and when you don’t comply I am going to mark her and make her mine, and then we are going to kill you both together.”

I tried slipping my hands out of the chains, but they seemed like they were coated with something, it was kind of burning my wrists. I wanted to tell Roman he was hurting me, but clearly, he had all of this planned. I didn’t want to see anyone die, but seeing Roman begging for his life was something I could see. I knew what I was feeling was wrong, but with everything that I had already been through since I found out, I was this Lycan Princess. I didn’t know what was expected of me I was just a normal girl but I wasn't.

I wondered why my parents didn’t tell me about what happened, did they not know people would find me and force this upon me. I was a little hurt that my real parents had to hide me because they were afraid of what would happen to me, but then again I understood. I wanted to get to know them, but with Roman telling my father he was going to kill my mother I wasn't sure what to think. I know the anger inside of me was becoming stronger. I wondered if that was me and all the things that happened had finally pushed me over the edge, or if it was the wolf inside me. I wish I could communicate with her to find out what was happening to me. My body was trembling and I was getting cold which was weird because with the fires in the room it seemed like it was overly hot in here.

Roman walked over to me, he stood over me like he was the King. I tried not to look up at him because that would give him what he wanted.

“Do you want to be my mate?” he said kneeling in front of me. “I know you don’t want to go through the torture I will put you through, but you better understand I will do what I have to when it comes to getting what I want.”

“I don’t want anything to do with you,” I said as tears threatened to expose themselves. “I have a mate, I’ve told this to King Gideon and he didn’t care. Why don’t you respect my choice, I don’t want to be forced to be with you and I won't. I would rather take my own life than be a slave.” I said finally looking at him, I knew I had to be careful but at this point, I was trying to be strong and I wanted to show Oliver he wasn't paired with a weak mate.

“I don’t want to hurt you, but you need to be broken before we can become one.” he sighed before standing up. “Get me the whip, maybe I will have your father do this,” he said looking at Nathaniel. “If you don’t I am going to kill your mate.” he smiled as the whip came closer to me, my body was shifting into an uncontrollable shake. “Come here now Nathaniel!”

Nathaniel did what he was told, I was sad that my father was going to do what he wanted him to, but I understood he was trying to protect my mother. Was Roman going to let my mother live after he got my father to do what he wanted? I wasn't sure Roman was that kind of guy, I could see him betraying everyone he loved or cared about just to get what he wanted to be done.

“Now beat your daughter until she submits to me” he growled throwing the whip at Nathaniel. I was afraid he would do it but wasn't sure how much he would. I closed my eyes and thought about what my life would have been like if I would have stayed in that small town in Colorado I grew up.

Yes, I wasn't wanted there, and couldn’t keep friends but at least I was safe from this. Maybe it would have found its way to me but maybe not. I wanted to go back in time and redo my decisions, but I knew only God could do something like that and I am sure he wasn't about to adjust time because of my decision.

When I felt the cloth on the back of my gown rip, I knew what was coming. I held my breath waiting for the first lash but it didn’t come. I looked back to see the sadness in Nathaniel's eyes. I knew he didn’t want to do this, and I hoped he wouldn't.

“Do it now!” Roman growled. “Or I will be forced to do it, and I want her to love me someday.”

“I am not going to ever love you Roman, and you making my father do this is just going to make it where I kill you when I have a chance.” I snapped at him, he smacked me in the face. I could feel blood forming at the corner of my mouth, I licked it. “Is that the best you got?” I growled. I knew I was playing with fire, but I didn’t want my father to feel guilty about having to do what he didn’t want to do. I wanted Roman to be the one that did it because when and if I could figure out how to bring my wolf out I would make sure she made his death slow. I hated feeling the hate I had, but it was making me more stronger and confident when I thought it was gone because of my situation.

“Oh you don’t have to love me, my love,” he said smiling at me. “Give me that, clearly you are going to be a pathetic King that you are,” he said snatching the whip away from him. “I am going to show you how to take care of people that don’t want to do what you want,” he said pushing Nathaniel away from me.

I felt Roman shift behind me, I knew he was bringing the whip up when I felt the first one hit me. I tried not to scream out in pain, but when the second or third one hit the same spot I couldn’t control my pain or my scream. I closed my eyes as the tears formed and forced their way down my cheeks. I could hear Nathaniel growling, but it did no good.

I tried to look at Oliver, but I wasn't sure what he was doing. I was hoping he would have recovered but it seemed like he was lost in whatever they gave him. It hurt me that they’ve done things to us, they wanted to control us and that was something they seemed to do well.

When another lash split open another cut in my back, I felt like my body was slipping away from me. Was this the way I was going to die? Was he going to get me to submit to him after all this, I knew I had to be strong and not allow him to get what he wanted. I guess this was my life, they were going to beat me and make me suffer. I was afraid, but then I wasn't because my wolf was coming closer to me, I could feel her. I knew she was trying to find a way out of her chains, but something was stopping her. I hoped it wasn't me and me being scared that was keeping her trapped in my body. I wanted her to take over and show Roman that we are not weak.

“Soma.” a whisper in my ears, I could tell it was Seff. “Please come to me, I will protect you.”

“I, I don’t know how,” I whined. I wanted to give her what she wanted, I wanted her to make the pain stop. I wanted everything to be fine, but I was afraid to fail too. “How do I find you?”

“Come, I am getting stronger, hold on for me my darling.” I heard her say before she went quiet.

Maybe she was coming and I just had to hold on a little longer. I wanted her to take over so the pain wasn't so hurtful. I tried to open my eyes, but it seemed with the whipping my eyes forgot to open and my body stopped responding to the pain. Maybe this was it, and I wouldn't have to deal with the pain as much as long as he didn’t hit me anywhere else.