157. Kaya
Kaya
I sat there in Cade's office. It had been a few weeks since the war. I was feeling better but was still on edge. I had woken up every night having nightmares. Cade had been patient with me, putting me back to bed through the means of sex. Honestly, I was happy about the contact. The bites mainly had faded. The scars were there, but the skin around them was no longer red and irritated. When I had to do something for Luna's duties, I kept my long hair down, covering my missing ear.
I didn't think I would hear my hair back in braids anytime soon. Cade looked at me. I was lying on the floor playing with a ball and Sol. I liked to watch her. She seemed so perfect with nothing on her mind. I got a mind link from Cade. "Kaya, we need to discuss some things." I looked up from our daughter to my mate. I was unaware of anything we needed to talk about. But then again. I knew Cade was trying to give me time to recoup.
I sat up and signed. "What is it?" I was dreading the news. The last several months, when he said he wanted to talk, it had always been bad news, and I was no longer expecting good news when he said we had things we needed to discuss. "So, as you know, Crescent Moon Pack is joining Shadow Pack." I nodded. He had told me this when I was getting out of the hospital. He continued to sign, "Well, they want to swear to you as their Luna." I felt my eyebrows raise.
"You are the Alpha. Just have them swear to you." He smirked at me. "I would, but they want to claim you as their leader." "You are the alpha, though I am just your mate; you have the final say." I signed. Cade looked at me a long time before he responded, "Kaya, you are a great leader. It is what the people want, and we will choose things together going forward." "But you had Len and Saka swear to you to join the pack; why would the rest of Crescent Moon want to swear to me?"
I had no idea why they wanted that. I was not a wolf born of alpha blood. I know Nieva had said I would lead the crescent moon pack now and that she had chosen me. But their joining Shadow Pack should be enough to fulfill that. "Cade, I can't. I am a fucking mess; I am the reason all of this happened in the first place. I shouldn't be rewarded with this position. I have cost us so many lives." There, I had finally told him. The guilt I felt was consuming. I didn't feel like I deserved any kind of happiness; I was the reason everyone died.
Cade looked surprised as I signed what I was feeling. He got up from the desk and joined Sol and me on the floor. He looked at me and began to sign "Why would you think that the war was your fault? You didn't kill our wolves that died?" My eyes watered. "I should have protected them better. I should have just given myself up to Howi; maybe he would not have killed so many. I should have stayed in the north. I don't know; I just know because I loved you, everyone died. My happiness killed so many."
Cade looked at me for a long time. Then mind, mind-linked me. "Kaya, you did not make us mates. The Goddess did; she knew what she was doing. We were supposed to be together. And you did everything you could think of to do to protect the pack. You held them off much longer than anyone knew was possible. I had been reckless and left to get angry out, and you stayed and set mines and traps that held Howi and his forces off for a long time. I would not have thought of that."
"You were meant to be here. The Goddess herself told you as much, and she wants you to be happy. Your joy did not kill anyone. Don't put that on yourself. The only one to blame is Howi. He was the one responsible for the deaths, not you." I felt like a child needing to be coddled like this. I sniffed and wiped my tears away. I didn't want to cry anymore, but I did it most days. "Now about you swearing them to you. I think you should. I know I have been against it in the past, like with Len and Saka, but you are a great leader, and I know you would never make decisions without me like I wouldn't with you. We will both run the pack as equals." "But does that mean I won't do Luna's duties anymore?" "No, you will still do them. Just when it comes to the pack's welfare, we will decide together versus me calling all the shots. And with the northern in the pack, they will always follow your commands."
"But what about you?" "They will follow my commands, too. I mean, I commanded Shadow Pack to follow what you say, and you will do the same with the northern about me. They will still call you Luna and me Alpha, and we will hold equal power. You are more than capable of being my equal, and if I am honest, I think you might be better than me at leading. You are much more level-headed." I just rolled my eyes. I sat there thinking.
"How about this. We have everyone from the north swear to both of us. They can cut their hands and bleed for me and then for you. When we combine the blood, we both do it." He thought, "That is fine, but the remainder of the shadow pack must cut their hands and swear to you as well. We will both be in charge that way with everyone. Everyone in the pack will be sworn to both you and me." I nodded. I liked the idea that Cade and I would be equal. He looked at me. "I guess everyone in the north will need a new tattoo?" I laughed.
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