Chapter 139
Massimo
As soon as Marco phoned me to let me know about the phone call Rachel received, I drove home as fast as I could. Marco also told me the person used a burner, so we couldn’t trace them. When I arrived home Bella was a total mess, she sat in front of the fire place with her arms wrapped around her knees and rocking herself. She didn’t even hear me approach. “Bella” I said softly. “Bella” the second time she looked up, tears where streaming down her face. I bend down and gave her a hug. “Sweetheart talk to me.” “It’s just too much Massimo.” She sobbed “What sweetheart.” “Everything was just too much today. We received the best news we could have hoped for, then everything went to shit. People chasing us then you took care of that, then people following us. Then that phone call. I could handle everything today or so I thought then the phone call. That was just the cherry on the cake. When is it going to stop, will it ever stop? Will our children’s life also be like this? Permanent afraid about what is next?” The crying was gone and I could see she was angry, angry at me and possible my whole lifestyle. I tried to keep calm and explain everything to her. “Sweetheart it just the Ricci’s trying to put pressure on me but I’m taking care of it. Our children’s lives will be different than their friends but they will be safe I’ll make sure of it, always.” “I take it we don’t know who called me?” She said very sarcastically as if I’m not doing everything in my power to sort this shit out. “No sweetheart but I’m sure it’s one of the Ricci’s, I must have pissed them of with taken that building.” “I can’t live like this Massimo, afraid of going out, afraid of answering my fucken phone.” “Bella it will stop I promise, just give me time.” I begged her. “How much time Massimo? I don’t want to be afraid while giving birth that someone will get into the hospital.” “Bella that will never happen. I promise you that.” “You making a lot of promises Massimo, not sure you’ll be able to keep them.” I knew I was making a lot of promises, but I was also sure when I take the head of the oldest Ricci’s son, they will leave us alone for a while. We just needed time until the FBI backs away, then it’s hunting time for all of them. I started to worry that she was actually telling me she wanted to leave me. I don’t know what I’ll do if that was what she wanted to do. “You want to leave me Bella, is this where this conversation is going?” I asked as calmly as I could master. “No Massimo, I’m just tired, tired of everything.” “I’ll make it better Rachel I promise.” “Again, with the promises Massimo. Stop promising me things you’re not sure you could deliver on.” “Okay Rachel, I’ll show you.” “I’m going to bed Massimo I’m tired.” “I’ll join you in a bit.” She turned around to walk away but I grabbed her hand, “Not so fast Bella.” “What now?” “Just give me a kiss.” I told her. She came closer and gave me a very quick kiss. I’ll have to be satisfied with that, at least she did kiss me. Bella walked to the room and I went to my office. “I really hope I’m right and this plan is going to work.” I thought to myself.
Rachel
After the call I was a mess. I think I could have handled everything today, but that call was just too much for one day. I was sitting infront of the fireplace rocking myself. I thought about everything I had to go through all the violence my ex-husband inflicted on me and now I’m in a similar position. No Massimo will never hurt me but his enemies want to hurt us and now I don’t have just me to worry about I need to think about our little baby to. I refuse to lose another child because of a man. Any man it doesn’t matter how much I love Massimo but my child’s life comes first from now on. I’ll give him time because that’s what he always asks for and yes, I know it’s difficult to get to the Ricci’s now with the FBI but for fuck sakes there must be something they could do, they are the Mafia after all. The question to myself is ‘how much time do I give him? Until the birth of our baby, until the next incident? When is enough, enough?’ I was thinking about all these things when Massimo talked, he must have stood infront of me a while and I didn’t even notice him or the tears that was rolling down my face. He started to asked what was wrong and I spilled all the beans. I had verbal diarrhoea asking question after question and he kept on promising he’ll take care of it; I got so fed up with the promises that he’ll take care of it. I told him so and then off course came the big ask, time. I hate absolutely hate it when he asks for more time, because I go back to what I thought earlier when is enough enough? I was getting very worked up and just wanted to go to bed, to leave this conversation. Then Massimo asked me if I want to leave him? That is the million-dollar question right, do I really want to leave him. I told him no and said I’m going to bed. He pulled me back for a kiss, it was a very quick kiss. That should tell him in what head space I truly was. I change my cloths and got into bed. Thinking the whole time, what will I do if I leave him, will my life be any different than it is now. I’ll have his child with me and that will still make me and his baby a target. I know he won’t let me go easily, but at the end he will let me go if that’s what I wanted. I started to cry again, sobbing into my pillow, that’s how I fell a sleep with tears streaming down my face.
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