Sweet and bitter feeling
Sadie's pov
My life without Daisy has been incredibly painful. I think about her every day and I wish it was all just a bad dream. Every moment since the breakup has been a mix of sweetness and bitterness. When I see Justin, I feel okay, but when I think about Daisy, I feel sad again. How long will it take to reconcile with Daisy? When will I have the courage to approach her and tell her that Justin and I met on a blind date app even before she introduced him as her father to me? I was already in love with him, and being here with him only intensified those feelings and we couldn't hold ourselves from sleeping together.
Justin looks much younger than his age, and I don't understand why that stranger who brought gifts referred to him as my dad. I now understand why Justin acted strangely that day, and I'm starting to get used to his behavior. Does this mean Justin is possessive or very jealous? This is the time I need to get to know him better. Does he not trust me? Why does he suddenly think I will leave him when everyone knows we're dating now? He needs to change that mindset. But how can I do it?
As I was trying to come up with something, an idea popped into my head, and I jumped out of bed and went to meet Justin in the living room where he was using his laptop.
"Darling, I have an idea," I said, touching his neck and I added,
"Let's go on a picnic to the beach?"
Justin remained silent for a moment, looking at me.
"Beach! Beach!" he said, humming. I couldn't tell what he was thinking, and then he asked,
"What will you be wearing?"
Feeling carefree, I turned around with a smile on my face and replied,
"A bikini, hmm... any of your choice."
He didn't respond immediately after I mentioned the bikini. After a few seconds, he said,
"Let's go to the grocery store and do some shopping for today. Some other time, we can go to the beach."
"Okay, but I thought I was the one going to do the shopping alone?" I asked.
"I just want to be by your side," he quickly replied.
"Is that why you've been delaying my going to the grocery store because you are finding time to go with me?" I asked, and when he could tell I wasn't pleased, he said,
"No, I just want to be wherever you are. I can't spend a moment without you."
I took a deep breath and decided that as long as we left the house, I would be fine. I was tired of being at home for so long. Daisy had always been the one to take me out, and what I could reason was that Justin doesn't want me to go outside alone.
I went back to my room and I picked up my phone while I sat at the edge of the bed. Since yesterday, I had been trying to call my mum, but she hadn't answered. I dialed her number and was looking at the phone. As it started ringing, I put the phone on speaker, hoping she would pick up. It rang and rang, but she didn't answer. What's happening to me? Everyone I love seems to be against me because of my choice to love Justin. After about two minutes, I received a text message. I quickly opened it, and it was a message from my mum.
"Sadie, as long as you continue to date Justin, I won't answer your calls. Your actions have caused me a lot of pain and shame..."
I couldn't finish reading the message before I burst into tears. I bent my face towards the floor. Then I put my fingers on my face, feeling the intensified pain of my mother's rejection. Suddenly, I understood Justin's words and actions. He was the one causing this mental torture. My mum has always been my best friend and companion since I can remember. Now, my best friend Daisy is gone, and Justin hasn't done anything to help resolve these issues. I don't have the same kind of heart as him. My mum and Daisy were tormenting me from the outside, and Justin is tormenting me from within with his new attitude. I can't take it anymore. I want to leave.
I got up from my bed and started packing my clothes into my suitcases. I might have made some noise during the process because Justin walked into my room.
"What are you doing?" he asked, surprised. I didn't respond and continued removing clothes from hangers.
"Why are you crying?" He approached me, held my right hand, and tried to stop me from taking my clothes.
"I'm tired. I'm going back home. I can't tolerate the way you're treating me now. You don't care about my feelings. All you want is for me to understand everything. How can I understand? Daisy, my best friend, isn't answering my calls. You said we would reconcile with time. My mum isn't answering my calls either. You said we would come to an agreement. And you, who should be comforting me, are acting possessive and trying to control me and don't want me to go out alone. Are you jealous when someone talks to me, or are you afraid I'll leave you? You're not the Justin I knew. The Justin I met at the hotel was gentle, kind, and understanding. I'm giving up. Let it be that I gave up on love because of the pressure. If only you showed real concern, it would have been better, and I could handle whatever my mum and Daisy are doing."
"Oh my god, I didn't realize the extent of your pain. I didn't know you were going through all this. Trust me and believe me..."
"But you believed the stranger who called me by my name. Even when I told you I didn't know him, you kept doubting. Tell me, are you afraid of losing me?" Tears continued to stream down my face. I couldn't bear the pain any longer.
"I'm sorry," his voice changed, and he patted my back. I was waiting for him to admit that he was afraid of losing me. But being afraid of losing me shouldn't cause me pain. It should make us love each other more.
"I'm sorry for not trusting you. I was wrong. Who do you want us to meet first, your mum or Daisy?"
When he mentioned meeting either my mother or Daisy, my heart filled with joy.
"My mum."
"We'll take a flight to your city tomorrow. I don't want my love to cause you pain, but joy. I'm sorry."
As we were about to conclude our conversation, my phone started ringing. I turned and picked up the phone. It was the number of the stranger who brought me those gifts.
"That stranger is calling. Please, I want you to answer the call."
Justin took the phone from me and answered the call, putting it on speaker.
"Hello, young man."
"Oh, sorry, I wanted to talk to my love," the stranger said.
"Okay. She's not here at the moment, and just so you know, I'm the one using this phone now. Whenever you call, I will be the one to answer you. Do you have any message for her?”
“I thought this was her number,” he said.
“You, but whenever you call, I will be the one to answer it.”
Justin looked at me with a smile and ended the call. He placed the phone on the stool and moved closer to me, holding me in his arms.
"I will never doubt you again. I don't want to lose you. I'm just afraid, you are too beautiful," he said. Hearing these words from him was what I had wanted, and I quickly responded.
"You shouldn't be afraid. There's no one who can take me away from you. I love you with all my heart."
Suddenly, he said, "Check online for the next flight to your city. I want us to go today."
"Wow!" I jumped on him, wrapping my legs around his waist. There was immense joy in my heart as we prepared to meet my mum. We started kissing and I held onto his body.
This was a turning point for Justin and me. We made love, and when we finished, he carried me to the bathroom, and we bathed together. It was a swift change for me, from being very sad to being very happy.
The next flight to my city was at 3:30 PM. As I imagined my first impression when meeting my mum, I suddenly remembered the hand chain she gave me as my dad's only property. It was something my unknown dad had supposedly given her, or at least she woke up to find it on her right wrist after the stranger left her in the hotel room.
I decided to wear that hand chain, as it symbolized a strong connection between my mum and me. As the time came for us to leave the house, my heart started beating faster as I wondered what to say first when I came face to face with my mum. Should I draw her attention to the hand chain?
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