Chapter 58
Noah pov
Sending Dan off to burn off some of the anger he was feeling at Kyle. I was ready to rip his head off his should and would have if we didn’t need him. So when he was asking about Ashley being betrothed I played dumb along. Simply stating we have not got an offer we liked yet. This is the farthest thing from the truth.
Heading into the cabin with Jordan I hear the girls upstairs giggling. “I’m home are you guys hungry?” I hollered up the stairs as Jordan jumps down running up the stairs to find them. “yes dad do you need help?” came Ashley's sweet voice. “nope just gonna order pizzas I feel like we need a movie night” I tell her as she makes her way down the stairs with Addie and Jordan behind her. They all smiled and started shouting their orders out. After I hang the phone up I feel pain fear anguish. So strong I’m brought to my knees. Ashley is fast to come to me demanding to know what is wrong. Trying to breathe and dampen the pain I know is Daniels. Linking him I feel the block telling me he drifted off and is sleeping. He hasn’t had a nightmare in a while I had forgotten how strong they are. I know they are more memory than anything. Yelling at him through the link. Fear crept up on me. I don’t know where he is but I can track him. Gaining control over myself again I look at Ashley. I see the worry all over her face. Pulling her to me before I speak. “daddy is having a bad dream and I can feel it. Can you watch your brother so I can go find him.” she nods tears in her eyes shes heard Daniel have a nightmare a couple of times. “pizza will be here soon it paid for you guys to eat and put on a movie ill be home soon and make sure you lock the doors.” I tell her getting an eye roll before she says “I know dad and don’t worry I got this go get daddy he needs us.” this girl is wise beyond her years. Kissing her cheek I look to Jordan telling him to behave for ash and I leave.
Shifting I run the tree line until I catch his scent. Yelling for him to answer me when I finally get a small whisper of my name through the link. “tell me where you are please love?” I ask him he tells me he's at the small lake and I head there finding him curled up in a ball on the ground. Shifting I go to him pulling him to me and holding him tight. I feel his cry against me. He needed to get it out so I just sat there and comforted him as he cried tears I know needed to be released.
“want to talk about it?” I ask him he shakes his head but started telling me about the dream. My arms tighten around him as he tells me about it. We have to talk to a therapist at least once a week I learn how to help when Dan is having a breakdown from memory or flashback and he learns how to open up and let me. I would never push him to tell me what he's been through but I will always be there for him. I knew this was triggered by that asshole thinking our daughter is property. That is how Dan was raised to think of females and he hates that. Ashley and Jordan mean the world to him along with Kari and kade. I know that Dan worried about being a bad parent. Kari kade and I tell him all the time he is a great dad and will be a brilliant uncle. Feeling him relax against me I kiss his neck. We have learned that we easily fall into having sex when these strong emotions take over. don’t get me wrong we enjoy sex a lot and I mean a lot. But when he has a breakdown like this he tends to revert to that. He made a rule that no matter how bad he wanted to forget what he was feeling and replace it with sex. He would not do that again. He took me hard and fast once in pain and anger then hated himself for it. So when he is emotionally vulnerable we keep everything to a pg 13 Disney setting. Having this rule has made him have to sort the feelings and deal with them rather than bury them. Our therapist Dr wiles was impressed when we told her of this rule we made. She had told us that we were already showing that we planned to work through things and not hide from them.
After a while of holding Daniel and us talking through the feelings and memories, he relived his stomach made a demanding sound. We both laugh “come on I ordered pizza” I said standing up holding my hand out to help him stand; slipping on some shorts we head home. We barely had the door open when Ashley and Jordan were throwing themselves at Daniel showing him love. They both had a rough beginning themselves. So they understand having a nightmare as they still have them from time to time. Watching my mate hug and reassure our pups I can't help but smile and think that the goddess sent them to each other to help heal. I see Addie standing off to the side but before I could say anything Ashley demanded she comes over too. Addie might now be our pup but she had a home here as if she was. With her sister being the beta of a pack and trying to help her alpha with she-wolves from their pack and training Addie spends a lot of time with Ashley. I have a feeling one day Ashley will ask her to be her gamma this is something I have mentioned to Shelly who says she sees it too. And that if that happens she will agree to it and let Addie train with use for that spot even if she is still in the hidden flower pack until she turns 18. the hidden flower pack members have all become close with the resat5 of the packs here.
“not to make you made but Kyle approached me today. Nothing too amazing just talking about training so far.” Ashley tells us we all nod knowing it's now only a matter of time before he sends word to Kane. All of a sudden an idea comes to mind and I need to talk to Sharon or Luna Bronwyn.
