Chapter 8
Heading upstairs to the top floor meeting my fathers and brother before heading out back for the party. I can feel the pack's excitement through the link. All the hopes and future of my pack ride on me. Stopping in my tracks afraid to move forward. “what's wrong little one?” my dad asks. “what if I am not good enough to guide them all. I mean I don’t even know what I want to study at school. It's not like I am needed for the business aspect auntie and Addie have that covered. What good am I to them all maybe Jordan should be heir, not me.” the door slams shut on its own. Wind fills the room as Luna Bronwyn comes through the doorway to the lower floors. “where is that stupid shit coming from? You are a strong wolf and more than that you are also a fairy who else can say that but you. Who else around here has the same magic you do? Sure we all have some magic but who here is fae? Who here is as connected to the land then you? Answer me, child.”
Her eyes shift changing swirling. The three eyes of her goddess. The triple goddess sister to the moon goddess. She's channeling the goddess the power coming off her so strong I gasp for air. Seeing my plight she lessens the power in the room. I can't move but I can breathe. “no one” “then what is the real issue here as we both know you already care for this pack more than your own life?” “I don’t want a mate. I don’t want to have to fight him or her for my title. I have fought for so long I just want to be happy and not worry about them trying to take the pack from me.” I stammer out. “oh sweet girl we would never let someone take anything from you. Nor will this pack. If I have learned anything as the Lune of this pack they all love you and are loyal to you. If your mate is here they will stand by you not try and push you down. If they are not here they will learn too fast you don’t have just one pack backing you on your alphaship but several including the royals. The only one who can take your title away is aria and you.” my dad says to me as he pulls me in a hug. During his speech, the goddess left Luna Bronwyn.
Squaring my shoulders I walk out the door to the car. The only part I put my foot down on was I wanted the party at the lake. I love the lake, it's clear green water and the rocks and sand are all different shades of green. The truth is the pack was named after the founder of the pack. John Greene first alpha of the green lake pack. Formed almost 200 years ago. Other than who started the pack I don’t know much about its start nor does anyone in it. With any luck, I might one day be able to see the past of the lake like a movie in my head and see what the lake has seen. It's a spell I found in one of Luna Bronwyn's spellbooks. I hope to be able to see what and how the pack went so wrong and write down the past so the future always knows how we became. On the short drive to the lake, I center myself on the party. I know for someone gonna be alpha one day I hate having all the attention on me.
I can hear the party as we get closer to the clearing at the sandy beach. The smell of grilling meats fills the air making my mouth water. Moaning at the sound my father looks back with a cocked eyebrow. “what I am hungry the glam team wouldn't let me eat.” I shrug my shoulders. The truck filled with laughter. Climbing out the back of the car the area gets quiet. Looking up I see looks of shock and lust fill the area. “oh Ashley you look amazing” uncle James says. Making me blush. “finally your here” Addie breaks through the silence. Breaking everyone's trance-like state. I am soon swallowed up in hugs and well wishes. To my relief, the only scents I smell are that of my pack and the grilling food. The mouthwatering smell tickles my nose one too many times I and I can't help but follow.
The night was great dancing and food. Friends and family and best of all I made it through without fining my mate. So making my way to my room at the end of the night my feet killing me from the horrible shoes I hope to never wear again. Tossing them in the donate bin on the way through the house. I had proposed we set up a system where things we no longer want or need are passed out in the pack to those who do. I spent too long without because of the selfishness of the prior alpha and pack. Father agreed with me knowing firsthand how a pack like was as he came from a similar pack. Over the years with them, I have bonded with both my fathers in different ways. Daniel growing up in a similar style pack knows the horror I have lived. And Noah is always the protector and warrior a role I am new to but desire to be the best at. There are still things that Noah still doesn't get about our pasts but he does his best to be understanding when we need our space. Even with all the time and healing, we have done we both still have things that trigger a strong emotion and or flashback. My birthday wish at the stroke of midnight has been the same for the last four years. I ask the goddess to help us all finally be over the past. The chains that still hold us back from one thing or another will all be cut freeing us from the hell and letting us all live in the now.
