Chapter 145
Logan's POV
I was just coming out of my room when I heard the door slam and Meredith walked in with a gloomy face. I have been in my room for the past two days since I last talked to Akira, although I had a call from my mother. That is not the reason I didn't see Akira last night and this morning, I had to send Meredith to her, so she doesn't keep calling me or to come to the house or the office. I haven't been feeling too well. I guess my illness is coming up stronger, and I don't think I have any more time, but till Akira hasn't reconciled with her family, I don't think I could break up with Akira and when Meredith invaded my head and told me that he was going with Akira along with Roe to the mall including Vida, I guess it was a good distraction for Akira, and now I saw him show up with a gloom face.
The glass coffee table was the first casualty. With a roar, Meredith lashed out, sending it crashing to the ground in a spray of glass shards. His breathing was ragged, he was letting out a feral growl. I could feel his wolf howling for release, demanding he give in to the fury spreading through his veins.
The sound of shattering glass echoed through the living room, and he reached for the golf club that was lying on the floor, the one, Austin, my gamma, had brought back from his golf game. I knew he was going to trash the living room very soon. Whenever he was pissed he would end up trashing whatever his hand could meet.
If we were in our territory, he would have let out his wolf and run. That was common with shifters. Whenever they were stressed or upset, they would go for a run, but there was no forest here and Meredith couldn't do that here.
I wondered what must have caused this rage in him. He was not this grumpy and upset when he mind-linked me that he was going with Akira.
I grabbed his hand before he could trash anything, pulling the golf club from him, "what the heck is wrong with you?" My voice was low but firm.
His chest heaved, his lips pulled back in a snarl. “She Was flirting with him!” he spat, his voice rough and guttural. “She’s mine, and she should know better not to let anyone touch her except me. As far as I am concerned, her entire body belongs to me, and she should know that.”
“She’s human,” I interrupted, throwing the golf club out of my hand. “And humans do not know the bond and the mate stuff, they don't have wolves whispering the word in their head mate."
"That isn't a fucking excuse for her to flirt with Roe and then after kissing me, she still had the guts to ask me not to let Roe know about what happened there when she was mine." My brow hiked. I guess this barbaric beast had smashed his lips against her and the bond had made it hard for her to resist. What the heck? I thought he said she was not his mate. Where does possessiveness come from? I wanted to tease him, but I have no strength in me and considering the condition he is in, I don't think that he could take one.
My eyes squinted while I was staring at him. "Don't give me that look, that woman is annoying, and all I just want to do is..."
"To bend her over that desk, spank her ass till it turns red, and shove your cock into her till she cries out your name." He gulped his saliva, averting his gaze from me. "Goddess; you are pathetic. Do you think this is how you handle it? By tearing apart where we live?”
Meredith's claws scraped against the wall. “She knew what she was doing. She knew it would hurt me.”
My eyes softened slightly, I wanted to laugh at him, but I tried to keep a steady voice and a poker face. “And is this going to make it better? Destroying everything around you? Scaring her if she ever comes in contact with you? Showing her that you are sexist?”
My words seemed to hit Meredith like a slap. His hands dropped to his sides, his claws retracting slightly. His wolf growled in protest, but the human side of him began to surface, guilt mingling with the anger in his chest.
From his actions I could tell, he did something to Vida that he was regretting. Meredith wasn't the violent type.
“I can’t...” Meredith's voice broke, and he sank to his knees amidst his pains. “I can’t stand the thought of losing her, Logan. I know I shouldn't be loving a human, with or without the bond. It's a forbidden love.”
"Forbidden love?" I murmured, he raised his head and looked at me. That expression on my face showed that I was no longer referring to him but myself.
"Don't get me wrong, I wanted her as much as I wanted to see the pack reach its full potential, and I know there are things that are more important than these feelings in my heart, but I am still scared of losing her." his body slammed onto the couch and his shoulder dropped, feeling defeated.
“I know, Meredith, you have been a good brother to me and a better beta to me and the pack, but that doesn't mean you should stop living your life and push your mate away. You are not the one with the disease, you are not the one dying..." That part tasted so sour on my lips, that it made me want to puke. I hated to recall my predicament, I hated the fact that I would not be here by next year and that I might shut my eyes and never open them again on my twentieth birthday.
"Meredith, you still have a lot of years ahead of you. You could still get her, if your heart longs for her, and you like her, but one thing you should know is, that losing control like this won’t bring her closer to you. It’ll push her away. You need to talk to her, not let your wolf dictate your actions, tell her everything about the bond.”
Meredith nodded slowly, his body trembling as the anger began to reduce. Knowing that he was no longer in his feral stage, I smirked, tapping his shoulder.
“Clean this up,” I said after a moment, my voice softer now. “Then go to her. Explain how you feel without letting that stubborn wolf of yours take over. If she’s truly your mate, she’ll understand.”
He looked up at me, his jaw tightening as his gaze moved towards me, but my eyes shut suddenly and I swallowed hard. My Laryngeal prominence was bobbing up and down. "Alpha... Logan... are you alright?" his voice was faint in my head.
I forced my eyes to open, giving a weak smile, "Water..." I murmured.
"I will just go get the blood, I think you need blood not...." I didn't hear the rest of the words, because I knew my legs were getting weak, and I couldn't hold my body erect anymore.
I force myself to speak, but my voice is gone and everything fades away before I crash to the floor.
"Alpha..."
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