Chapter 173
Logan's POV
"Fuck..." I curse, as I kick the air. I don't even know how I am feeling. To say that I am frustrated is an understatement of how I am feeling at the moment. I had no idea, how I should be feeling.
I should have been happy. I should have felt proud. Instead, all I felt was anger and pain.
She didn’t know. I couldn't even tell her. Even though I wanted to tell her.
But how do I tell her that I wouldn't be here when the pup growing in her came into the world? How do I tell her that she will raise a pup all by herself for the next twenty years and then he would end up just like me? I had fought it, denied it, and pretended I could outrun my fate. Live happily for the last days of my life. But I knew. The end was coming for me and I was leaving my precious mate to suffer the same way my mother suffered for me. I was breaking her heart.
And now, there was a pup.
A pup I had never wanted not because I didn’t love her, or couldn't stand my pup coming from her but because I couldn’t bear the thought of leaving them behind. I wouldn’t be there to protect them, to teach them how to hunt, how to fight, how to survive in a world that would show no mercy. And worse, the curse will be passed to him.
My eyes darted to the sky, the sun was already at its peak, I couldn't find any moon but I knew the goddess was there, she could see me and feel my pain. To Akira, the goddess was fair, giving her another curse pup. What kind of creator is she? Giving pup with a short life.
I am lost, just when I think I am running away from that awful curse, here it is staring at me, mocking me. I could hear that taunting laughter in my head. I couldn't even wrap my head around anything.
I sat on a tree root after I walked out on Akira, I didn't want to shout at her because I was already doing that, and she was crying and her tears were killing me already. I couldn't control myself and I didn't like the way her body was reeking of sobbing.
I love Akira, and I wouldn't want her to go through the pain, of trying to terminate the pregnancy. At this point, there is nothing I could do but accept the pregnancy and tell Akira everything.
I wiped my tears while pushing myself up from the ground.
I shouldn't have left Akira, alone in the car but I couldn't help it, I didn't want to hurt her with my words and actions but I didn't know ways to sound normal, and the only way, I could think about was to walk away.
For the first time, I decided to let my wall down to feel Akira's emotions, even though I didn't know if it would still work because my wolf was dying, and with the rejection taking place, I don't think I could feel it but boom.
I could feel her emotions, it’s fucking all over the place and it terrified me.
I ran back to where I left her, my eyes ran in circles when I found my car door, wide open, and the passenger seat door was ajar with Akira gone.
"Akira..." I called low, I didn't want to scare her, if she just stepped down to ease herself but I don't think that is the case. "Cupcake! Please come out, where are you? Let's go home."
But I was met with silence.
"Cupcake... Please I am sorry, come out." I called out a little louder than the former. My eyes were red when I couldn't find her and my gaze fell to the ground, having a tire track not too far from mine.
Fuck... I curse as I kick my car tire. I wanted to reach Meredith and asked for backup but I just denounce my Pack and I couldn't get into his head or anyone that belongs to my Pack. "damn... This bullshit." I curse
'Thunder please, I need help.' I called to my wolf if he could help me pick up her scent but he didn't reply, I knew I was left alone, so I jumped into my car and followed the path that the car tire track followed. I snapped ahead, just in time, to see a car tailing ahead, with the way the car was speeding, I couldn't turn a blind eye to it.
Just a few drives, my fuel was already giving me the sign that, my tank was empty. The fuel gauge blinked:
EMPTY "Damn you..." I growl, slamming the steering wheel as tears welled up my eyes, "No... no... not now." I jumped out of the car for the second time summoning my wolf but I couldn't. I fell to my feet. "I couldn't even shift." My tears welled up my eyes and streamed down my cheeks. I know if anything happens to Akira, I can't forgive myself. I will blame myself for this.
I shouldn't have left her there, on a lonely path. My gaze darted around in desperation. My eyes caught a boy pedaling down the road with a bicycle, I ran towards him. Waving frantically at him to stop. "Hey! please let me rent your bike." I shouted.
"Get the fuck away." He snarled wanting to pedal passed me, pedaling a little faster as if sensing trouble.
“Please, I beg you, it’s urgent! I need to save someone!” I pleaded.
But the boy shook his head. “No way, man! Get your ride!”
I didn’t have time for this. I lunged forward, grabbing the handlebars, and forcing the boy to stop.
“Get off!” I demanded, anger was already visible in my face.
The boy struggled. “Dude, no!”
I yanked him off the bike, jumping onto myself. The boy yelled after him, "Hey that is mine, get off it. Idiot!"
My head snapped back. I pointed furiously at my car on the side of the road. “I promise to return it, that is my car over there.
I didn’t waste another second before I pedaled away, I couldn't even hear any more words from him
All I wanted was to save Akira, my legs were already hurting, and I hadn't done this in years.
Minutes later, I spotted the vehicle, that I think took Akira away, I yanked the bicycle haphazardly to the side of the road. My heart pounded as I approached the car.
I ran to the driver’s side, yanking the door open.
Empty.
I rushed to the backseat, throwing the door wide, probably thinking that the male or whoever had taken her, had left her unconscious but I was faced with an empty car.
Akira wasn’t here.
I staggered back, my breath coming in short, panicked gasps.
She was gone. Again.
"Akira..." I screamed in the middle of the road like some madman, my voice echoed in the lonely path.
"Wolfie..." I heard my name, and my eyes snapped in the direction.
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