Chapter 150
Logan's POV
My heart churned when Akira asked If I was picking Katerina over her because Katerina is a wolf while she is nothing but a mere human. I was watching them from the Security Camera.
I didn't mean to hurt Akira but I know there is nothing left for us, we don't have a future together, and that HEA which is happy ever after was not meant to happen in my life.
Although I have recovered from my near-death experience the last six days were still hell for me, I feel weak and sometimes I just can't feel my wolf.
I knew my days on Earth were closely coming to an end, I didn't want to question the goddess, and I didn't want to act like an ingrate by wishing for things that I know will never happen and trying to change fate.
Meredith thinks there is a possibility that I will get better because he said after I passed out, he gave me blood that he got from the human hospital because the ones we got from our pack members were exhausted and he was desperate to have the transfusion that he couldn't go back to the pack to get more, so he option for the human Territory and it seems the blood was more effective like Akira's blood.
But I didn't want to keep my hope high, even when he said he would go back to the hospital to get the name of the donor. I knew this life of mine would be taken away anytime. So with this little time left, I should fix things, I shouldn't be thinking of myself anymore, I knew it was time to end this madness and reject Akira, and mate with Katerina to produce an heir for the pack. My predecessor should be more important than whatever my heart is yearning for.
I have prepared everything for Meredith, in case I slumped and I didn't wake up. He could be able to step in my shoes before my heir comes of age.
It's been a week and nothing has happened but I tried to fix things, just as I had been doing before Akira came into my life, those times with her were bliss but every good thing had an end.
Before, I only had my heir on the list but now, I wanted to make sure Akira had the best life ever after we broke up and I am gone to my maker.
Although nothing strange had happened, deep down I knew my days were numbered.
My eyes snapped to the mirror, the mark on my chest had spread more and it was killing me.
"Logan!!" I heard Meredith called out to me, I grabbed my t-shirt and threw it over my head, he hiss knowing I was trying to cover myself.
I don't hide anything from Meredith but I wasn't comfortable with this mark spreading on my chest.
"As she left?" I asked and his expression darkened.
"No," he shakes his head.
"What?" I growl. She left the first time that Meredith asked her to go only for me to see her on the CCTV that she was back at the Manor this late, I asked Meredith to send her home, only for him to inform me that she was still here.
"Keep it low, I told her that Williamson and I including Austin are the only ones here but she refused to leave, she is worried and sad and a bit tipsy, she is hurting, and she said she wanted to talk to you and she even wants to go to the Pack if that will make her speak to you, this isn't the first time she was coming here, she is becoming desperate, do you have to avoid her? Keeping her in the dark isn't the best, you know you two could..."
"For goddess' sake, Meredith, I am not like you, I can't afford to be reckless and play this game of love. I wasn't raised by loving supportive parents, I wasn't raised to live for myself. I have a pack to run, those Pack members look up to me, and their weight weighs on my shoulders. My life is not mine while yours is yours. I was born for a purpose, and I will not trade the purpose for another..." I take a deep breath. Ruffling my hair, I know he wouldn't understand.
"I can love her and want her, but I still have nothing to offer her and I still don't want to do that to her but that doesn't make me a liar or heartless. It makes me an alpha with some vision and self-sacrificing soul, and you don't come in here and tell me that I am a coward and a man who doesn't want to put his heart on the line."
"Logan, what are you saying? I never called you a coward, I only want you to be..."
"Happy, in my remaining miserable six months of my existence."
"No, I never said that, you and Akira, you could figure out how you two can love each other in your teams, you don't have to push her away, and you don't have to act cold to her. She loves you and she is carrying your mark now." I shake my head.
"It's not possible, it's just impossible and you know it," I said backing Meredith, I know he meant well but there is no future for me and Akira, I shouldn't have fallen for her in the first place. I shouldn't have marked her or let her mark decorate my neck.
Maybe, this pain wouldn't be in my heart if the goddess hadn't gifted me a mate, a human mate that wouldn't give me an heir.
"But..."
"No, I don't want to talk about her again," I growl, he shuts his eyes as his shoulders fall in defeat.
"Fine, I will not talk about her again. You can protect your heart for the remaining part of your life and die every day before your twentieth birthday but Logan, if you want me to tell her that you don't want to see her again, then I am afraid, I will disobey this time, you have to tell her yourself..."
"Please..." Meredith knows I can't look Akira in the eyes and asked her to leave, I can't. I have fallen for her but I know I can't be with her and I am getting married to the woman that my mother picked for me, the female that we bear my heir, the Pack's next Alpha. "Meredith, no, please don't make me..."
"It's the only way you are getting rid of her because I will never leave this room and let you wallow in your pains, I will not force you if ever I don't think there is hope and a future awaiting you and Akira, that happiness that you have found and if you think otherwise then it's obvious that you don't know the power of love "
"Go on, tell her to leave by yourself and I promise, I will resign from being the pack beta and I will never talk about it in front of you or anywhere."
"Meredith, you are crossing the line and I don't want to let out an Alpha command on you."
"Logan..."
"As you alpha, I command you to go..." My words stop when the door pulls wider revealing Akira's face.
"Wolfie...” she called as tears welled in her eyes, it’s obvious she had heard everything that I said. “You are breaking up with me?”
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