Chapter 172
Akira's POV
"What is it?" He asked me, I shut my eyes before taking a deep breath, I didn't know how he was going to take it, having a pup with a human girl. I didn't want to keep him in the dark. If I want him beside me for the rest of my life, then I shouldn't be keeping secrets, I should be more open-minded toward him. "Go on, tell me what you want to tell me. I could always forgive you, even if it hurt that you slept with Casper."
"No..." I interrupted him, and I saw his expression soften, it's obvious he was going to get hurt if I had done that.
"Fine, what is it? Tell me, what happened?"
"Please don’t judge me… to me, it's good news but I don't know how it's going to sound to you, but please don't judge me fast."
"What have you done, Akira?" His gaze was focused on me, and his voice was not a friendly one but he was trying to control himself, I was still thinking of how to construct the sentence when his voice came up again, "Akira, please tell me before I die of picturing different scenarios of what you must have done that is bothering you."
"When I was at the party last night, I felt dizzy and nauseous, I felt like throwing up. Those haven't happened to me before and I never get irritated with the smell of food. So when Roe asks that I see a doctor, I doubt if what he is thinking is true..."
"So?"
"I did and I didn't see it as anything serious because I knew I could be given medication and clear whatever was in my body that was the cause of that but the doctor found out that I wasn't sick that it was normal and I was perfect."
"Akira, I don't understand you, make me understand, you felt nauseous, dizzy, and irritated and you are not sick then what is wrong with you?" Wolfie was smarter than this but he wasn't processing whatever I was saying.
"Wolfie... We are expecting a baby. I am pregnant." I didn't even know what to use to refer to the child growing in me.
"How?" His voice was devoid of emotions when he asked this and this was the part I dreaded most. "What the fuck did you do? How the hell did you get pregnant, when you are a mere human?"
"When you told me that you were picking Katerina over me because she is a wolf and I was a mere human and with Katerina saying that you can't pick me over her because she can give you a pup while I can't, I pray to your goddess or whatever you call her, that I should carry your pup, so you could come back to me."
"Who the fuck told you to wish to have a pup for me?" He growled, was that even growling or he was roaring like a lion, I was terrified by him and I felt he was going to let his wolf out on me. My tears welled up in my eyes as I reached for Wolfie.
"Wolfie..." He swatted my arms from him.
• "No! No! This is not fucking happening. Not my pup."
"Wolfie please believe me…, I haven't slept with another before and after you. You are the first and last male, I wanted to stand nude in front of. I swear, Wolfie, the pup is yours." I didn't even know if it was Wolfie I was convincing or myself. But I think it was myself, I was trying to convince.
"I know but I don't want a pup." His words came out broken and his tears dropped, he grabbed the steering wheel and bumped his head several times against it, I looked at him lost as pain crawled into my system and left me numb.
"Please Wolfie, don't deny the pregnancy, don't shame me like Dad did my mother."
"Why didn't you tell me those times that you are not a mere human?" I parted my lips, but I didn't know what to say, of course, I had no idea, if I was not just a mere human when I first met him, I only found out about my family and my magic.
"I didn't know, and I thought this would make you..."
"Stop thinking Akira, you should have asked me, the reason, I wanted to mate Katerina not you assuming that I wanted Katerina because of a pup, maybe, I wanted her because of that before but not with you. I don't want to have a pup with you. I don't want that life with you. I don't want it, Akira, this isn't the life I wanted with you." His voice was low but it was filled with anger and they were cutting into my soul. My tears stream down my eyes, as my lid lower to my flat tummy. He doesn't want a family with me but he wanted one with Katerina.
"Is it because I am not good enough to carry your..." I couldn't even take the words. Maybe, I shouldn't have run after him, I shouldn't have disobeyed my mother. I should have stayed put and let Wolfie go when Mother told the guard that he should send Wolfie away, maybe, I should have let them chase him away but I was blinded by my love for Wolfie. "I am sorry." I found myself apologizing
"Stop apologizing..." He growled, "Don't make me feel like the bad person, don't make me feel more guilty than I’ve already been feeling. Right now, I am feeling like some terrible being, someone worse than the devil."
"You don't love me."
"Akira stop, you know I love you, I will always love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't have turned away from my Pack, from my people, from the life that I had known all my life just to be with you. "
"Then let's have this pup."
"No, Akira, I don't want this, I don't want this because I am..." He paused. "We don't need the pup to prove that I love you. Please trust me Akira, you wouldn't want this pup if you found out the life that awaits this pup, you are so desperate to have."
I kept sobbing till Wolfie pulled the door and went out. He slammed the car's door behind him, as he walked into the lonely path until I could no longer see him.
I didn't even know what to do, I didn't even know if I should hate this baby growing in me. I wanted to go after him but I didn't think he wanted me so I just stayed where I was.
Falling my face on my palm as I sob bitterly, I stay in that position waiting for Wolfie to return but he didn't return.
I was getting scared that he had been gone for more than thirty minutes, then I heard the door pulled open suddenly with force, my body jolted, "who is..." Before I could finish, the fellow covered my nose, with a handkerchief. In a blink, my eyes close slowly.
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