Chapter 108: Alpha Gene
Chapter 108: Alpha Gene
Elena
"Wow," I was stunned.
So this is why they had been killed, Richard had been so greedy for power that he wanted to eradicate anything that challenged him. He didn't kill my parents on his own, he had to send his men to do this dirty work.
A low simmering rage started to build within me, it took a lot for me not to suddenly blow my gasket. I thought maybe I would have felt sad after hearing this news but no, I felt angry. Richard was responsible for all the suffering and pain I had to endure all because he was scared to be outed as a fake Alpha. Bernard squeezed my hands in his.
"I can feel your rage, Elena. Are you okay?"
"I don't know."
"What are you feeling right now?"
"Rage, sadness, confusion." I let out a heavy breath.
"I'm feeling so many things but all I know is that Richard will pay. He was the cause I had to spend ten years running and fearing for my life. He had taken so much from me and I want it all back."
"We will get it all back, I promise you, my love. I will avenge your parent's death, I will make sure that he pays for every single thing he has done to you. You have my word."
Now that I know the reason why they were killed, I felt a sense of closure that washed over me but there also was this large wave of anger that I felt. I was never a violent person but my wolf was bloodthirsty, she wanted Richard's blood. I knew statistically, the odds were stacked against me but I felt like I could take him, I just needed to learn how to fight.
"I want to learn how to fight."
"No problem, I can help you with that."
"I also want to be the one to kill Richard." He looked at me stunned.
"What?"
"I want to kill Richard Gray. He will die at the teeth of my wolf."
If he wanted war, so be it. Bernard stared at me with uncertain eyes. understood why, I never talked like this before. I was often very peaceful and always avoided violence but my wolf was angry.
"How long do we have before he arrives?"
Bernard snapped out of whatever trance he had been in and looked at me.
"Two weeks or more, I think but I need to send some scouts to his territory and see what exactly is happening. Once he realizes that Nicholas is no longer responding, I am sure he will make a move." I nodded.
"So, we have two weeks to get ready. I know I will not be able to overpower him but I know that I can outsmart him, I just need to be cautious."
"Elena, I am not letting you go toe to toe with Richard. He is fourteen years your senior and not to mention he is an Alpha. His bloodline may have cheated the system but he was still blessed with the power of an Alpha. There is no way you can match him." I furrowed my brows.
"He killed my parents, Bernard. He killed them because he was jealous and greedy for power. I know you said you want to avenge them but they are my parents, this is something I feel I need to do."
"You will get yourself killed."
"Then, I die trying to avenge the death of my beloved ones."
"And what about the ones who are alive that you love now? What will happen to me if you die?"
I was silent, l knew that my wanting to battle with Richard and win was a wild and crazy dream but my wolf wanted revenge and she wanted Richard to die at her hands.
"Elena, I know that Richard took a lot away from you but you have a lot to lose right now too. You are not just yourself anymore, Elena. You are the Luna of this Pack and the love of my life, the key to my future. You are too valuable to put in the line of danger."
"And what about you?"
"I am the Alpha, I am the only one that could challenge Richard and have a chance of winning. He had skills and attributes that you would not be able to complete with, my love. I am not saying that you are not capable of being a good fighter but you will not win this one."
The illogical side of me wanted to argue with him because that side thought I stood a fighting chance against Richard but I knew that it was wrong. Richard had garnered his reputation for a reason. He was ruthless, unforgiving, and monstrous. There was no chance of me winning this, even if I tried to outsmart him. Richard was highly skilled and lethal.
"I just want him to pay, he killed my parents, Bernard. He took them away from me and caused me so much pain. I ran for my life every day terrified that I wouldn't be able to see the sunset. I lived my life in constant fear, always on edge, and never settled. He stole so much from me."
Bernard brushed away a stray tear I didn't even know had come to my eyes. I didn't mean to be so emotional but I couldn't help it. This discovery opened up a lot of wounds I had worked so hard to close.
"He will pay but it won't be in your hands. Not only would killing him be hard but you aren't a killer, my love." He cupped my face.
"You are innocent and kind, I refuse to taint you." I removed his hand from my cheek and looked at him.
"But war is coming, Bernard. No matter what, after this fight, there will be blood on my hands. That of my pack and that of his."
"Would you be able to handle that?" I shrugged.
"I don't know, I think I will. It is a part of my job description, right? There will come times when I will need to make decisions that are life or death. Even if people won't die at my hands, they can still die because of my decisions. I just hope I make the right decision that doesn't cost people their lives."
"You will, as long as you head from behind and always follow your gut and your heart." I stared into his eyes, suddenly feeling vulnerable.
"And what if my gut and heart are opposing each other. What then?"
"Then you rely on your natural instincts. You lean into that inbuilt leader instinct that you were blessed with from birth." I shook my head.
"I am no leader, Bernard. Unlike you, I was not raised to be a leader. I feel like I'm somewhat of an imposter in this position. I don't even know what I am doing half the time, I am ten years behind on basic things and I am still paying to catch up."
"You are wrong, Elena. You are a leader, you carry the gene." I stood from the lounge chair dropping his hands from mine.
"My biological makeup does not make me a leader, Bernard. The gene gives me a claim to leadership. A claim I am not even sure I want to have anymore."
"What do you mean by that?"
I looked away from him, I felt like I couldn't get a hold of myself. So many emotions were swirling inside me.
"Elena?" I felt him come up behind but he didn't touch me.
I hung my head low in shame, how could I tell him what I was really feeling? Would he even understand?
"Tell me and I will do my best to understand." He answered my unspoken question.
Damn it, I forgot about the mind link, I closed the link temporarily because right now, I don't want him to have access to my mind. A lot was going on and there were things I didn't want him to see.
"Stay out of my mind, please."
I turned and brushed past him making my way back into the room.
"Elena." He called but I was already making my way up to the porch steps.
He caught up to me easily and grabbed my hand before I could get inside the room. He turned me around so I was facing him.
"Talk to me, I can't fix it if I don't know what's wrong."
I bit down my lips, contemplating how I could possibly word this without it sounding like I was a bad person.
"Elena, he leaned forward and kissed my forehead.
"Talk to me, please."
I leaned away from his touch and looked into his eyes, they stared at me with concern swimming in them.
"I don't want them."
"I don't understand. You don't want what?" I sighed.
"My old Pack, If I carry the Alpha gene and I am the rightful Alpha of the Silver Crest Pack that means if Richard is defeated then I would need to take over the Pack. I don't want to do that."
He was silent for a moment.
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