Chapter 87: I Messed Up

Chapter eighty-seven: I Messed Up

Bernard

I had taken a run and got back home after the sunset. I took a shower and paced around the room for the last hour and a half. The run had helped in some way but I still felt uneasy. I hadn't spoken or heard from Elena in hours and I was going stir crazy. It was taking everything in me not to rush to the gamma's house and find her. I needed to respect the decision even if I didn't like it.

Being with Elena had taught me that I couldn't always get my way no matter how much I wanted to. I needed to learn patience and be okay with finding a middle ground, Elena wasn't some subordinate that I could boss around. She is my equal and I hadn't treated her like one earlier today. I don't know what to do now but I knew that this fight wouldn't break us because we were stronger than that. Yet, I didn't like the distance it had created between us. I needed advice and the only person I trusted and who knew the majority of what was going on between me and Elena is currently stuck in an operation and I didn't know when he would be done.

I felt my phone buzz in my pocket and I pulled it out. I looked at the screen, it was Liam. Thank goodness, I was about to do something stupid if he hadn't called.

"Hey, Liam." I greeted him.

"How are you doing today, man?"

"I messed up."

"What are you talking about?" I sighed.

"I got into a fight with Elena earlier today and it was bad. I said some things and she also did and then there were some tears."

"From her or you?" I could hear the teasing in his voice.

"Liam now is not the time to be making jokes. I am in trouble and if I don't fix this, it could just all go downhill from here."

"Dude, relax, I am sure you are overreacting. Tell me what happened from the beginning to the end."

I told him everything that happened, I left nothing out and filtered absolutely nothing. The more I explained things to him, the more guilty I felt. As I was saying the words out loud, I could finally hear the reasoning behind Elena's actions and words. She had only been trying to help the situation and I was just trying to be this big strong Alpha male and that wasn't what she needed at the moment.

Liam listened quietly on the other end of the phone and remained silent for a few seconds after I was done. A part of me knew what he was already going to say but I needed to hear it come from his mouth to be fully effective.

"Do you want it unfiltered or do you want me to filter my words?" I licked my lips nervously.

"Unfiltered." I muttered.

"You messed up big time, man and you already know that. The problem with your actions is that you heard her but didn't listen to her. Elena is right here, man. She had a point about you and Nicholas, both of you have worked closely with one another and if tension is created, how then can you two lead the Pack together."

"But he threatened to kill her."

"Because in his mind she is an outsider who has a rogue chasing after her and none of you know anything about her. He has reason to think she is a threat and it is his job to protect you and the Pack. Technically, he was only doing his job."

"So, are you defending him, too?"

"I am not defending him, Bern. I am trying to help you see the reason. He doesn't know that she is his Luna, I believe that if he had known, he would have never dared to say anything to her. You and I both know that very well."

Nicholas was not stupid, he knew who to respect and where not to cross the line. If he had known about Elena, I am sure he would have backed off a while ago. There is only one thing I can do now, I need to let this go because there is no way I am telling Nicholas about Elena. It is a secret I had to keep close to my chest and never going to reveal it. The time will come when we will hold hands in the sun but as for now, we are just going to enjoy each other in private.

"Thanks for talking me off the ledge, man. I really needed that."

"What are friends for?" I heard some ruffling on the other end of the call.

"I need to go back to work now but I will text you later after my shift. You get some rest and start your groveling marathon tomorrow." I rolled my eyes at his statement.

"I am going to be groveling for a long time because she is worth it."

"And that is what I want to hear. Tell me the outcome of it, okay?"

"I will."

Then I hung up the phone, I stared at the back screen for a few moments then I remembered the gift I had to give to Elena when she had come earlier today. I ran up the stairs to my bedroom and retrieved the gift that was on my bed. Maybe if I go and give it to her, she would see it as a type of peace offering or maybe I was only telling myself that because I needed a reason to go and see her. I don't care whichever it was.

It was already eight o'clock in the night and Elena would have most likely had dinner and would be getting ready for bed. I needed to move on if I wanted to catch her before she clocked out for the day.

I walked out of my house feeling more nervous than I ever had, she had that effect on me. You would think that with the way my heart was hammering hard in my chest, I was walking into a battlefield. But I was capping my pants because I was going to see my mate who was angry at me. I arrived at the gamma's house in just ten minutes and I could feel my palms sweating away.

"Here goes nothing." I muttered to myself as I walked into the house.

There were a lot of surprised faces that turned my way and I couldn't blame them. I never came to the gamma's house nor any of the high-ranking wolves ever came to the house. It wasn't because the place was bad but simply because the higher-ranking wolves tended not to mix with the lower-ranked wolves. I walked up to the reception where a trembling wolf was staring at me with wide eyes.

"Alpha." She bowed her head in greeting.

"Hello, I am looking for…." My voice cut off when I looked at her phone that was facing up on the desk. There was a picture on the screen that had my blood feeling heated up. I grabbed her phone and she didn't protect me. I looked down at the picture and I swear, all I saw at that moment was red.

"Where did you get this?" I stared down at the picture of Elena and Jack holding each other and looking intimately into each other's eyes.

"I…I…I…" she stuttered, unable to get the words out.

"Speak!" I ordered and she flinched away from my harsh tone.

"It was sent to me by one of my friends. Apparently, Elena and Jack are officially dating. The only reason it is such hot news is because Jack has been the most eligible male gamma here and all the girls are a little disappointed that he is taken now."

I couldn't hold back the growl that left my lips. I squeezed my hand tighter, feeling like I needed to punch something and in the process of closing my fist, I managed to crush the poor girl's phone. She gasped in despair at her now shattered phone in my hand but I handed her the box which contained the new iPhone. It was meant to be a gift for Elena but now I saw that she didn't need any gifts from me.

"Here." She took the phone from me, I walked out of the house with my head feeling frazzled and my heart feeling heavy.

We had just gotten into one fight and she just ran to Jack, for what? Comfort or advice? But it didn't look like he was giving her advice, it looked to me like he was trying to get intimate with my mate and Elena had allowed it. I walked aimlessly not knowing where my legs were talking to me. All I knew was that I needed to get as far away from the gamma's house as possible or I was going to tear it down.

If she had done this fickle just after one fight, I needed to protect myself. I loved Elena and I wanted to be with her but as an Alpha, I also needed to think about the future of my Pack and my alliance. I had been listening to my heart a lot for the past weeks but now, I needed to use my head. I found myself coming to a halt in front of my parent's house. I knew why I was here and a part of me probably the same part was telling me to walk away but I didn't listen. I raised my hand in the air and knocked on the door.

I needed to run, that was what my mind was telling but I stayed rooted in my place. As luck would have it, it was Helen who answered the door looking a little worse for wear than normal. She looked at me confused as if she thought I was an illusion of some sort but when she realized that I was really in front of her, she straightened.

"What are you doing here?" I cleared my throat.

"Don't leave yet."

"What?"

"Don't leave the Pack, I know you were planning on leaving soon but don't do it."

With that, I turned away and walked back to my house. I didn't know but I felt that I had just created an even bigger mess for myself to clean up.