Chapter 30: Who Are You?
Chapter Thirty: Who Are You?
Elena
"Liam, I want her out of this room!" She said.
"As your future Luna, I demand that she should be sent out!" She ordered, I looked at Liam hoping that he wouldn't listen to her.
"Helen, Elena is Bernard's guest. So you can't kick her out and you may be the future Luna but you are not the Luna yet. You have no authority to order anyone." Liam responded to her.
"It will be a matter of a few days anyway, so what is the difference, Liam? I am Bernard's mate and I demand that she leave this room." She muttered.
Days? Did she just say that she would mate with him in a few days? That is not true, I thought Alisha said it would be in a few weeks. I could feel the sting growing behind my eyes, I was losing my mate. There is no way that I could sort through everything with Bernard in a matter of days. There is a lot to unpack and a lot to figure out.
"I am leaving." I croaked out, I couldn't let them see my brimming tears, it would only cause more questions to arise. I should have just stuck to my original plan and left when I was at his mansion.
I ran out of the room like it was on fire and I could hear Liam calling out to me and his footsteps behind me but I didn't slow down.
"Elena, stop!" He called out to me but I didn't listen. I continued to push my legs faster and picked up my pace. I was in no state to speak with him and my heart felt like it was bleeding out.
Why is it like that, ever since I came here, all I had experienced was pain and heartache. I kept moving through the halls, heading towards the exit door. It is time to do what I had been contemplating doing since I woke up in this Pack. It is time to leave.
"Elena, please just wait." He called out to me again.
"I want to be left alone, Liam." I said to him over my shoulder and I heard him pick up his pace to a full-blown jog. Within a matter of seconds, he caught me by the arm and brought me to a halt. I was already panting and he looked like he hadn't even broken a sweat.
"I am sorry about Helen. She is just on edge with Bernard being in the hospital. She had been wanting to lash out and unfortunately she decided to do it to you." I shook my head at him.
"She had every right to be upset. It was my stupid decision that ended up getting Bernard in trouble. I was fine with putting my own life at risk but not Bernard's. He is your Alpha." I said to him.
"Listen to me." He placed his two hands on my shoulders.
"Bernard came after you because he wanted to. He could have easily let the trackers find you but he was out there on his own accord, no one forced him. He knew the risk and you don't have to beat yourself up because of that." He tried to calm me down.
"How can I not?' I sniffed.
"He is in the hospital right now just because of me. My stupid decision put his life at risk."
"No, it was the rogue attack that put his life at risk, not you, Elena." He said to me as he brushed away one of the stray tears that had fallen from my eyes. I am in a mess and I have been in a mess ever since Bernard fell unconscious.
"I need to leave, Liam. Helen is right, I think everyone would be better off without me here and much safer. All I have done since I have been here was cause tension for him with his Beta and now his mate. The least I can do now after all the pain and suffering I have caused is to leave this Pack. Bernard deserves better than me." Liam looked at me oddly as I realized what I had just said.
"Better than some prisoner who has just brought him strife." I corrected myself.
"Firstly, you are not a prisoner. You are a guest to the Alpha. Secondly, you haven't brought strife to Bernard. If anything, you have awakened something inside of him, there is an extra kick in his steps." He said to me.
Really? My heart swelled at the thought of that but then, it was short-lived when the reality of everything sunk in.
"Regardless of all that, Liam. I don't belong here, it is not my home." He looked at me with an eye searching for an answer that I wasn't willing to give.
"And where is your home, Elena?" His eyes bored into mine, willing the answer out of me but I was smarter than that. I am not going to give up.
"I don't remember." I looked away from him.
"But I know it is not here." I added.
"You know what? I think you just need a little breather. You haven't eaten all day and need something to eat. We can get some food in the cafeteria and talk all of this over." He said to me.
"I am absolutely fine, Liam." I just need to get out of her right now.
"Bernard said that I shouldn't let you out of my sight and I need to make sure that to don't do something stupid like running away as you have done before." He muttered.
Bernard asked him to watch over me? I don't know why he said that but that made my heart flutter a little. I should have been angry that he was having me watch but my wolf purred at the fact that our mate wanted us looked after. It meant that he cared and was taking the initiative to ensure that we stayed within the Pack.
"Okay, I am feeling kind of hungry, anyway." I relented.
Liam's face split into a star-dazzling smile. He ushered me downstairs to where the cafeteria was located. We didn't utter a word to each other as we made our way there but I could feel his glances on me. He was itching to say something or rather ask something but I wasn't in a mood to delve deep with him.
He showed me all the different stations that served various kinds of food and I opted for a simple grilled cheese sandwich. I was trying to get used to human food again, I had been used to eating my meals raw rather than cooked food. Although the food still tasted strange to me. We sat at the corner of the cafeteria secluded from everyone. There weren't a lot of people in the cafeteria, anyway.
We were in silence for a moment and I dived into my sandwich, Liam picked at his salad. I could feel the weight of his gaze on me every so often but I ignored it for some reason. After a while, I started to grow agitated. I didn't like it when people stared at me, whether it was good or bad.
"Your staring is unnerving, Liam." I said as I swallowed the last bit of food in my mouth and gulped it with water. The water was so much better than the river's
"There is more to you than meets the eye, Elena." He pointed his fork at me.
"There are just so many layers to you." He added and I shrugged.
"Isn't it like this with everyone? Aren't we all just like onions, made up of different layers that make up who we are?" I muttered.
"And who are you, Elena?" I squirmed in my chair. His eyes were staring right through me like he knew something.
"I don't know who I am." I responded to him.
I knew that I still had to play the part of an amnesia victim but the truth was, I don't really know who I am. I knew the person I had once been when my parents were still alive but that girl died along with them ten years ago. She no longer exists and then, I lived as a wolf for almost a decade. I had no true identity, no Pack, no family, and no purpose. I was more of a beast than a human for ten years straight and now, I am a human again, yet I still don't know who I was. Fate said that I am mated to Bernard, destiny said I am the Luna of this Pack. But reality said I was a rogue who belonged nowhere. I had titles and yet I still didn't have any sense of self.
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