Chapter 75: I Am Home

Chapter seventy-five: I Am Home

Elena

After some more attempts to keep me in his, Bernard finally let me leave. I was practically floating as I made my way back to the gamma's house. It was already dark and kind of eerie but I felt safe, there were a lot of guards scattered all around the Pack area. I knew that those wolves wouldn't dare to cross the Pack boundaries to look for me especially when the security was so tight. I had nothing to worry about but yet I couldn't shake the feeling that I was being watched.

I picked up my pace a little bit, I probably should have taken his offer to walk me home maybe I would have felt more at ease. The gamma's house was twenty-five minutes walk from his house and I had done more than enough to be familiar with the surroundings. I could see the house coming into view and the relief washed over me like a bucket of cold water. Next time, I would either ask for an escort or take up his offer to walk me back home.

I was about to hit the diner that leads to the gamma's house when I felt a hand reach out to grab my shoulder. I reacted quickly, twisting and sending my foot flying backwards. I had no official training but every defense skill I had learned was purely instinctual or I had picked it up while on the run. My foot connected with the person's torso and they stumbled back but they quickly recovered. The person who fits went flying towards me but I dodged it expertly and I was about to counter the attack when I heard the person's voice. I froze immediately with my fist still in the air.

"Helen?" I muttered.

"You kicked me you bitch." She seethed as she straightened herself out.

"Why are you following me in the middle of the night like some creeper? And why would you try to attack me? What if I had transformed?" She scoffed.

"As if your wolf could even take on mine. I possess the Alpha gene or did you forget?" I rolled my eyes at her.

The initial fear I had felt had disappeared and now all that remains was the slight anxiety of being close to her. The last time we had spoken, it had gotten a little uncomfortable and heated and I didn't want a repeat especially after I just had such a wonderful day with Bernard.

I was about to turn around and leave but she positioned herself in front of me. I tried to step around her but each I made, she tried to get by and blocked me. I became tired of our little dance and the clock was ticking, I had to wake up early to go to work.

"Helen." I said exasperatedly.

"Please move aside so I can go to my room. I am tired and I have work in the morning." She crossed her arms over her chest, making her cleavage bulge out even more than it already was. I don't have time for this.

"If you have something to say then say it so that I can go to sleep, please." I had learned that to deal with someone like her, you had to show zero fear even though I could feel the slight trembling of my feet. She was like a wild beast and she could smell fear and preyed on it.

"Where are you coming from?"

"Bernard's house." I didn't skip a beat.

"And why were you in his house?"

"He invited me, Helen. Is there anything else you would like to know? My ID number perhaps or maybe my blood type while you are at it too." She took a step towards me with a menacing look on her face.

"Don't patronize me, gamma. Remember who you are speaking to. I am not your little peer who you think you are equal to."

She is right, we weren't equal. Technically, I over ranked her. She may have been the Alpha's daughter but not of this Pack. Here, she had no true status and I was Bernard's mate which made me Luna even though I hadn't officially taken on the position.

"Anything else, Helen?" I feigned a bored expression even though this facade was causing me a lot of anxiety. I wanted nothing more than for this conversation to be over. I was never one who liked confrontation.

"You think you are so clever, aren't you? Well, I am here to tell you that this little fairytale that you have in your head that he will be loyal to you and choose you is simply delicious."

"He already has, Helen. I think you need to give this all a rest now. I understand that it must feel horrible but you can't change fate and what is destined. There are times when duty is overruled by the inevitable." She let out a humorless laugh.

"And this is precisely why you are so wrong for him. A true leader knows that duty is what is the most important in this world. You had this little delusion of happily ever after is simply childish. But this isn't a fairytale, you are living in the real world."

"I am living in the real world, Helen. The real world is where Bernard and I are mates. We have accepted each other and are that much closer to becoming fully realized mates. No bond will be stronger than ours and no outsider force will ever break us apart."

"That is where you are wrong, Bernard committed to my father that he can't afford to break. If he were to break this commitment, it would not only harm his reputation with the rest of the Alphas but also deplete his land severely." She noticed the shock on my face.

"Oh, your mate didn't tell you this one little fact? Well, it is unfortunate really but my father put in the clause so that I remain protected and he doesn't get the chance to back out at the last minute." I felt my whole heart sink to the floor. That is not true otherwise Bernard would have told me about it.

Bernard would have mentioned it to me, right? Or maybe he would have kept it to himself if he thought that it would upset me.

"I am going to marry Bernard whether you like it or not, little girl. You are trying to play a game that you will never win. I am smarter than you, I have taken on men three times your size and won. It is only a matter of time before Bernard sees sense and does the right thing."

I tried to keep my resolve but I was failing dismally. She had found the cracks in my armor and she was piercing my soft flesh repeatedly.

"Do you think that he would pick you over his Pack? Because that is what the choice will come down to at the end of the day. It will be his Pack or you and quite frankly, no Alpha in his right sense would ever jeopardize their Pack."

I hated to admit it but she has a point. If what she was saying was true and it did come down to a decision between the Pack and me, Bernard would have to pick the Pack. I wouldn't even allow him to pick me. After he had told me about his reasoning for being the Alpha, I knew how important the position was to him. He couldn't give it up for me, I wouldn't let him do that.

I felt my heart crack at the realization. I didn't want to believe her but everything she was saying was making sense to me. I hated how my life now seemed like a constant up-and-down roller coaster of emotions. I would be happy for milliseconds at a time before I was plunged back into a pit of despair and depression, I don't like it. It is a moment like this that stole my joy.

"Woah, does the baby want to cry?" She teased me as she laughed right in my face.

I didn't want to cry, I didn't want to seem weak in front of her but I was so tired of having to be the one on the constant roller coaster ride. I just wanted to be happy for once and to stay happy for longer than a couple of hours. Bernard brought me joy and peace yet he was being taken away from me when I had just gotten him. I wanted to run back to his house fling my arms around him and tell him to never let me go. I wanted what Helen was saying to be a lie, I needed to see my mate now but I also couldn't go to him in this state. He would only move with rage and when it came to Helen, you couldn't win with just running on pure emotions.

"Do yourself a favor and leave. Go back to where you came from, go back to your home wherever it is." I turned on my heel before the first year fell and I began to storm away from her but then I looked over my shoulder.

"I am home, Helen. It is you who doesn't belong here."

And then I took off towards the gamma's house, I just needed my bed now. Tomorrow I will speak with Bernard and understand what was going on. I needed to know if she was just spewing lies or if she was telling the truth.

I just prayed that she was telling lies because I wouldn't know what to do if she was telling the truth.