Chapter 83: Fight

Chapter eighty-three: Fight

Elena

This was exactly what I was afraid of, I knew he would react like this. I don't know why I had expected a different reaction from him.

"Bern, I need you to be calm. You can't pick a fight with your Beta."

"Why? He threatened to kill his Luna and that is treason, Elena. He will be handled just like any other criminal." I grabbed his face in between my hands.

"But, he doesn't know that I am his Luna. Maybe we can give him the benefits of the doubt here."

"You can't seriously be defending him."

"I am not defending him, what he said to me was messed up. I don't understand why he dislikes me so much and he doesn't seem to want to change his mind about me, I can't force him but that doesn't mean that you two should be butting heads because of it."

"You are my mate, it is my job to protect you from people who say and do things like this. He needs to pay." I stood up from his lap.

"And what exactly are you going to say to him? Will you tell him that you are killing him because of me, the rogue you know nothing about and seems to bring more and more trouble with each passing day? The same rogue who got you poisoned and bedridden for over two weeks?"

"Obviously, I won't word it like that." He tried to reach for me.

"Please come closer." I dodged his hand, rounded the desk, and went to sit on the opposite chair to his.

"No," I crossed my arms over my chest.

"You are being dramatic for nothing, Bernard. You want to fight your Beta for a rogue."

"You are not a rogue, Elena. You are my mate."

"But do they know that?"

"They will in due time."

"But they don't know now." He was silent.

"Exactly my point." I clapped my hands together.

"This is why I didn't want to tell you in the first place because I knew you would react this way."

I loved it that he cared about me and wanted to protect me and defend my honor but I didn't need him fighting with his Beta. It would just bring unnecessary tension to the Pack. When the leadership in an organization was rocky, the whole system would soon begin to fall apart.

I have only been in this Pack for a while and I had fallen in love with them. Yes, there were a lot of them who treated me like scum seeing as I was ranked publicly as a gamma but it didn't matter. There were still good people too and a community that had accepted me. I have fallen in with Crescent Wolf Pack and I wanted to do right to them.

"Are we really arguing about me wanting to punish someone who threatened to kill you?"

"Yes!" I burst out.

"And the fact that you don't even understand why we were arguing is one of the many problems, Bernard. Are you willing to risk your relationship with your Beta over a comment he said while he was in a heated moment?"

"Why are you defending him, Elena?"

"I am not." I slammed my hand on the desk.

"I am trying to help you see sense."

"The only thing I see is you defending him. Why must you always have me against the wall like this, Elena?" I am trying my best here and I have met you halfway on every single occasion."

"What do you mean?"

"The bakery, I told you that I didn't want you working but you insisted that you wanted to do your whole independence thing and I yielded. I asked you to move in with me to make spending time with you easier but yet you refused. I am always having to do the bending and you continuously refuse to even bend a little bit."

"You are not serious right now, you said you understood me." He ran a frustrated hand along his jaw.

"I do understand but that doesn't mean I welcomed it. Do you know most mates move in together at most a month after finding each other? We found out about us being mates two months ago."

"And we also happen to have accepted each other less than a week ago or have you forgotten?" I countered.

"But that was no fault of mine, you kept running, Elena, or did you forget the whole reason I was stuck in that hospital bed for so long? It was because I was trying to save you."

"That was low." I whispered across the desk.

"You know I didn't mean to get you hurt."

That one was a low blow, I knew that him being hurt was my fault. I had beaten myself up about it for weeks, I knew it had been my error and I wanted nothing more than to turn back so I could correct my mistake but I couldn't.

"I am just tired of always feeling like I have to bend every single time, especially with this issue of Nicholas. It cannot go unsaid and it definitely can't be let go."

"But I am asking you to let go, shouldn't that be enough?"

"Not this time, I refused to bend. It is time you meet me halfway, my love."

The tears that I had felt stinging my eyes had turned into seething anger. I didn't like that I was so heated about this conversation especially since it was because of Nicholas but here we were.

"You say I don't meet you halfway but I have been bending for you since the moment I arrived here. The reason I ran away which you know was because I was running from those rogues. I felt I would be safe outside your pack lands, not to mention the fact that you had been engaged before my arrival." He was silent and I continued.

"You seem to have forgotten that I spent nearly a decade as a wolf. The last time I was fully human was when I was still a teenager, I was still a child in the eyes of the world. What others were learning at that age, I am only now learning and I am doing my best. You forget you thrust me into this whole new world, you not only expect me to be a good mate but also expect me to be a good Luna. I have to become responsible for hundreds of people, not only that, I am trying to get used to this place and finding my footing. You grew up like this but I never did." He didn't say a word so I continued ranting.

"You got to do things on your own, you got to feel what it is like to work for something and to make something of yourself. You probably felt powerful and in control of your life but since I was just ten years, I had never felt in control of my life. I was always on the run, scared of my life. I never got the chance to decide and now I have the chance or at least, I thought I did." He stood up from his desk.

"Yes, you do. Just because I may not like something you are doing doesn't mean I won't want it if that makes you happy. I may not like the fact that you worked at the bakery but seeing you happy and smiling is worth it for me."

"Then, why are you insisting on fighting me on these things? I am trying my best and I know you think you are helping but you aren't."

He rounded the desk and tried to come to me but I stood up from my chair and walked to the window. I kept my back turned to him so he wouldn't see the tears that were already streaming heavily down my face.

"I know that." He said behind me.

"I am sorry for being so hot headed about the Nicholas thing. I understand now that you are only trying to be diplomatic and keep the pace but he crossed a line today. Mate or not, he has no business saying that to you."

"I understand that you feel you need to protect my honor but my honor hasn't been disgraced. Tensions are already high between you and Nicholas and I don't want to make them any worse than they already are. Not when those rogues are still out there and probably plotting something." I heard his footsteps coming towards me. I didn't move, I just continued to stare out of the window.

Yes, he had apologized and he also kept adding a 'but' in his sentence which only means that he heard my words but he wasn't listening. Talking to him was like trying to get through to a brick wall at this point. I felt his arms around me from behind and he nuzzled his nose into the crook of my neck.

"I am sorry." He breathed.

"I forgive you." I felt his body relax against me.

"But I just need some time to breathe, so I am going back to the gamma's house."

I slid out of his arms and made my way out of his office. I heard him call after me but I didn't look back. I needed some time alone to think through my thoughts.

This was not what I had planned for today.