Chapter 32: Elena Is My Only Choice
Chapter thirty-two: Elena Is My Only Choice
Elena
"But, Alisha said…." My voice trailed off.
"I don't know what Alisha heard but Bernard wasn't calling anyone to ask about you. He wants you here, Elena. You were the first person he asked for when he woke up. If he wants you, why would he look for you? Why would he risk his own life to save you? Why would he move heaven and high water to make sure that you are okay?" I wanted to believe his words but they weren't coming from the lips that I needed to hear them from. Bernard acknowledged that we were mates but he had done nothing beyond that. He made no initiative to claim me but I had also made no initiative to claim him either.
It was like we were tiptoeing around each other, trying to see who would crack first. I didn't want it to be me because I knew that if he rejected me, I would be able to take it. But then, I wondered if he did take the initiative, would I accept him? I had no intention of rejecting Bernard but I also had no intention of becoming his Luna. The more I think about our problems, the more complicated they get.
An awkward silence fell on us, our hands connected. Liam was watching me through cautious eyes while I was lost in my own thoughts.
"Do you love him, Elena?" He asked, pulling me out of my clouded mind.
Alisha had asked me the exact question and I tried denying it at first but now I knew better. The truth is out now and there is no use hiding my feelings for him.
"Yes, I do. I love him with every fiber in me." I replied.
"Then fight, Elena. Fight for your love, fight for Bernard, and fight for the destiny that rightfully belongs to you." There was no room for argument in his voice.
"If you….
"Your destiny was to be the Beta but you chose a different path." I interjected, he shook his head as a knowing smile graced his lips.
"Being the Beta would have been my destiny only if I had answered its call. But my destiny wanted me as a doctor. Our fate is written by the moon goddess but it is our decision that determines if we fulfill our destiny or not." He said.
"What if this isn't my destiny?" I asked.
"If it weren't, would you have stumbled across our land? Think about it, everything leading up to this moment has brought you and Bernard closer to one another. Destiny has called, it is up to you to answer." He is actually telling the truth but I am scared. I don't know if I want to answer the destiny call. There were still so many things up in the air and too many uncertainties. I still had a past that Bernard knows nothing about, I am not safe yet, not with Richard looking for me. Becoming Luna would only place a bigger spotlight on me which is something I couldn't afford.
I am good at hiding in the shadows and blending into the darkness. Being with Bernard brought too much light and attention and that was the last thing I wanted. Richard hadn't stopped after almost a decade, he is still hunting me. I had gotten good at evading him but it seemed that my luck had run out. Yet, with all of these reasons to leave, I had a dozen reasons to stay.
But the true fact is that being with Bernard didn't necessarily feel scary or wrong, actually it felt right. It almost felt natural, not being with him felt like betraying something inside me and I hated that feeling. And on the other hand, I didn't want to see him with anyone else. Screw this Alpha promise and what other consequences there were for breaking his promise. He is mine and I am his.
I have made up my mind, I am going to try at least. I needed to try, I could only hope that I was making the right choice.
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Bernard Pov.
'Elena.' My mind echoed as I felt a land latched onto mine. She is here, which means she decided to stay. I groaned as the pain in my head intensified. What kind of painkiller had Liam given me? It is doing nothing for my current situation.
A hand tangled with mine and I squeezed it back but when I didn't feel the familiar warmth I expected to feel, I was confused. I fought against the weight of my eyelids and pulled them open. The lights in my room weren't as harsh as I was expecting them to be.
"Bernard? Bernard, do you need anything?" I heard a familiar voice beside me. She wasn't who I wanted to wake up to, I turned my head to my left and saw Helen sitting beside me with a look of concern painted on her face. Her eyes were scanning over my face.
"Helen?" I croaked out, my throat felt hoarse from the lack of moisture.
"Have this." She said and reached for the jug and glass beside my bed and poured me some water to drink. She helped me sit up and brought the glass to my lips. Although her arms weren't the ones I had wanted on me I was grateful nonetheless. I drank the water and cleared my throat as I looked at her again. A small smile graced her face and I could see the relief swimming in her eyes.
I met her in person for a brief moment, and we attended events together but since then our paths haven't crossed. According to some men, her beauty is loud and prominent, and seeing her in front of me, I could understand why they said that. She is truly beautiful and there is no secrecy to her loveliness. A month ago, I would have been drawn to a woman like Helen Elison but now, having met my mate, Helen's beauty paled in comparison to Elena's. In my mind, there could never be a woman more beautiful than Elena.
"What are you doing here?" I asked and I could see that my question hadn't pleased her because her face twisted into a scowl at my words. I hadn't meant to be rude but there was no need for her to be in my room. She wasn't scheduled to arrive early, not only had she come early but now she is not giving me any privacy.
"I heard that you got hurt and I came running like any mate would have done, Bernard. She said.
"Instead of asking stupid questions, you could just say thank you. I stayed here for hours, watching over you while you were unconscious." I could tell from the tone of her voice that she was getting angry. I needed to fix this and I must do it now.
"I really appreciate that, Helen believe me. I am just shocked that you are here, I wasn't expecting you for at least a week. I didn't have time to prepare for your arrival." I tried to make my eyes look as sincere as possible.
"I mean, look at me. This is not the condition I wanted to meet my mate." The words felt wrong being placed on her, I didn't want her as my mate. I am just caught between a rock and a hard place. I took an oath and made a promise to Ronald that if I backed out now, my integrity would be called into question and other Alphas could break the alliance over it.
Even with all these weighing on me, I am still willing to take the risk. Elena is the person I wanted, she is mine and mine alone. I called for her when I first woke up and I expected her to be at my bedside as I woke up but with Helen here, she may have run off again and thought the worst.
"Did a woman come to my room while I was unconscious?" I asked her and I saw the flares of anger flash across her eyes. I squeezed her hand in false reassurance, she had no reason to worry about Elena because there was never a choice between her and Elena. Elena is my only choice.
"Ugly red hair and weird looking eyes?" She asked and I could taste the bitterness oozing from her pores. I didn't like the way she spoke about Elena but I held my tongue.
"Yes." I responded and she flipped her hair over her shoulder.
"She was annoying so I sent her out of the room. Poor thing, it looked like she wanted to cry when I told her to get out."
"Why did you do that?" I barked at her.
"Excuse me, you don't talk to me like that." She said and I could feel my wolf stirring inside me. He was not happy, Helen made our mate cry and had run her off. Maybe, she could have crossed the boundaries by now. Did Liam keep an eye on her as I told him? Did he make sure that she stayed? Screw this, I am going to find out for myself.
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