Chapter 85: Mother
Chapter eighty-five: Mother
Bernard
I felt like I needed to punch something, I had let my anger get the better of me which had led to a fight I had no intention of being with Elena. This was not at all what I planned for us today. I wanted nothing more than to chase her down and grovel at her feet until she stopped being upset because I didn't want to give her space but I also knew that I didn't want to push her. If I pressured her, she might pull away again and that was the opposite of what I wanted to happen. I would give her the night but I won't allow her to be away from me for up to twenty-four hours.
Yes, we are mates but we are also in a relationship and just like any other relationship, we are learning from each other. She had to teach me the same way I would study her. Unlike most relationships which were quite simple and straightforward, ours was the complete opposite.
Firstly, she is a rogue and I am the Alpha which was not really heard of. Usually, two wolves who carried the Alpha gene would be mates, and at times, it would be the Beta gene but it was never an Alpha and a regular wolf. Secondly, Elena had spent ten years as a wolf, she was right when she said that she was only learning things now that others, including myself, had already learned. She is playing catch up on the last ten years of her life. Thirdly, my arranged marriage to Helen was something that had been completely and utterly on me. Dealing with all of this and with the fact that she is to assume a high-ranking position in a pack she doesn't know, was a lot to take in.
She had been doing her best all this time and I had just blown up in her face and made her feel like she was at fault. I had been a real asshole and I knew I had a lot of groveling to do. Elena had met me halfway on a lot of things and I had just thrown that all in her face. I felt horrible but I couldn't do anything about it now until tomorrow. I knew that if I went after her, we would end up fighting again. We needed the distance to keep us apart.
I walked out of my office and headed for the backyard. I needed a run to clear my head right now. As I was about to make my way through the kitchen, my mother chose exactly that moment to enter my house. I internally groaned because I knew she was here for something, she was here to talk to me about Helen or she was here to convince me to let go of Elena.
"Mother," I walked up to her and placed a kiss on her cheek.
"Hi, my boy. Where are you going?"
"I need to go for a run, I am feeling a bit out of sorts." Her eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
"Why?"
"I don't want to talk about it, mother. So can we just drop it now, please?"
"Okay, that's fine but can I have a word with you before you leave? The matter is very time-conscious." I knew she was up to something.
"Mother, look if you are here to talk about Helen, I don't want to hear it. I have already made my decision and I am not going to change it."
"So, you refused to have a ten-minute chat with your mother? Since when have you been this disrespectful towards me, Bernard? I raised you better than this, ever since this girl walked into your life you have not had time for anyone or anything."
"That is not true and you know it, mother. I have time for my work and I would be happy to spend time with you if you didn't bad mouth my mate every single second you get. You haven't even formally met her and you already categorized her as not worthy." She crossed her arms over her chest.
"I have met her once and that was enough for me to already come up with an assessment. She is not good enough to be your mate or to be your Luna."
"Okay, I am tired of this conversation now. If you just want to continue to bad mouth Elena then you can show yourself out, mother." She gasped at me.
"Would you really kick out your own mother over a tramp like her?"
"Mother, I told you to stop." I turned away from her and continued walking towards the door.
I heard the clicking of her heels so I knew she was following me. I needed to get far away from her because I knew once she got me going then there was no telling what I would say to her. My wolf was on edge and was begging to be set free.
"Bernard," she called me.
"Can you please just wait and listen to me?"
"No!" I cast a look over my shoulder at her. I reached for the door but my mother suddenly appeared in front of me, halting my movements.
"Bernard George Joseph, I am your mother and I demand that you speak to me. I don't care that you are an Alpha now, you are my son and as one you must obey me. So sit down and let us have a civil and open conversation." She gestured to the barstool seat by the island. I obliged and went to sit at one of the seats, she also took a seat next to me and stared at me for a moment.
"Bernard, you are my one and only child. I remember praying to the moon goddess to bless me with a child after so many years of being barren. Then when I finally got you, I remembered promising her that I would give you the best in this world. That I would make sure I did everything in my capabilities to do right for you." I nodded and listened intently, she grabbed my hands in hers.
"You know I never want to do anything malicious that would hurt you. You know that, right?" I nodded again.
"You are my son, Bernard. I only ever want what is best and I don't think this Elena girl is the best choice for you. She seems like trouble and I know you feel like you should be with her but you don't my boy. Mates are more of a suggestion on who you should be with, not who you have to be with."
"Mother….." I started but she cut me off.
"I knew what you were going to say that your father and I were mates. Yes, we were but our stars aligned better than yours, my boy. I came with land and power that your father later used in the war. This Elena girl isn't even well trained, she is a rogue who has no etiquette or grace. Unlike Helen who has essentially trained for the role of Luna all her life."
"Mother, I understand you think that Elena might be some obligation to me but she isn't. Sbe is my mate and I love her. We accepted each other as mates a few days ago."
"You did what!" She dropped my hands from hers and stood up in haste.
"We accepted each other as mates, mother and I want you to be happy for me." She smacked her hand on the counter and glared at me.
"How could you be this dumb, Bernard? Now it makes rejecting her much harder."
"I don't have the intention of rejecting her, mother." I stood up from my seat as well.
"If you cared about me as much as you claimed then you would let me decide who I want to be without trying and forcing your choice on me."
"I am only doing that because you are choosing wrongly."
"How is choosing my destined mate wrong?" She was silent.
"Mother, I am done with this conversation. If you want to continue speaking, be my guest but you will be just talking to air." I started walking towards the back door again but stopped when she called my name. I stared at her reflection in the glass window and waited for her to speak.
"So, you have chosen her over your own flesh and blood?" I stared at her reflection looking her dead in the eyes.
"I never picked anyone over anybody but make no mistakes, mother. If you ever put me in a position where I would need to choose between you and Elena, just know that you wouldn't be the one I chose. It will be Elena every single time."
I didn't wait for her response, I pulled the door open and took off running towards the tree line behind my house. I jumped mid air and shifted into my wolf form. The transition was slightly uncomfortable seeing as I hadn't transformed in a long time but it felt good to be in wolf form again.
Once my paws hit the ground, I took off running, trying to run away from everything that had just taken place in my life.
Tomorrow would be better, I would grovel like I had never done before and I would set everything right again.
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