Chapter 136
Chapter 136
Helen
I watched from my room as my father returned home. I haven't left the house for weeks now, I was ashamed. I had prepared for my role as the Luna for two years and when I left my pack, I was given a princess send-off.
My pack expected to see me again with a child or at least pregnancy instead I returned home with nothing but a broken heart and poisoned soul. Bernard had disgraced me in one of the most heinous ways possible, he rejected me without care. Then first, I was able to handle it with some grace but then he came back the second time, I was ready to walk away with my head held high. But he came like a fool and I believe him. He got my hopes up and then crushed it down again.
I was embarrassed and forced to leave in the most humiliating way possible. I loathed Bernard Joseph for what he did to me.
Then, the imbecile my father was currently walking in with came up with his stupid idea. He wants to overthrow Bernard and assume the position of Alpha. It seemed as though my dreams were finally going to be a reality, like everything else in my life, it turned to crap. Nicholas was jailed and Richard was killed, all these powerful men had disappointed me yet again. My mother was right when she said that men were useless. If I wanted something done then I needed to take matters into my own hands.
I watched my father enter the house with Nicholas, they were heading to his study room and I wanted to be a part of that conversation. If Nicholas is here, that means he was being banished from the pack.
I made my way downstairs as I heard his study room door shut, I should be left out of the meeting. I was almost at the door when my mother appeared out of nowhere.
"And where do you think you are going?" She stood in front of me with a judgemental look on her face.
"I am joining that meeting with my father, I want to hear what they are saying."
"Leave this to the men, my dear. The meeting room is no place for a lady." I scoffed.
"Mother, this is not in your era, I am joining that meeting. If it had anything to do with taking revenge on Bernard, I want to know about it."
"When are you going to let this go, Helen?" She sighed.
"I understand you have not had the easiest time lately but your father will find you a suitable match soon. A match that is better than Bernard Joseph."
"There is no match that is better than Bernard, mother. He is the creme de la creme when it comes to mate options. He had the biggest land, the biggest bank account and not to mention, the power to match. The only one who came close was Richard but he is dead, so we are fresh out of luck."
I tried to sidestep her but she blocked my path. I tried again but she continued to block my path. I was growing frustrated, Nicholas and my father were most likely to be done while my mother was here wasting my time.
"Don't you have a credit card to max out, mother?" I snapped at her, she narrowed her eyes at me.
"Don't speak to me like that, Helen. I am your mother and you will respect me."
"I will respect you once you earn it, respect is not freely given, mother. Now move."
I shouldered past her and headed to the study room. I didn't bother knocking, I just barged in like I owned the place. My father's eyes snapped to me with anger shining in them. Nicholas looked at me with a stupid lust filled gaze. This man claimed that he found mates and the idea of women repulsive but every time I was around him, I saw the way his eyes heated with lust. He was like any other man in the world, none could resist a pretty face.
"Helen, what is the meaning of this? Can you not see I am in a meeting?"
"Yes, I can see that." I crossed my arms over my chest.
"I want to join this meeting."
"This meeting doesn't concern you, Helen. Now leave." My father bit out.
He hated it when I tried to challenge him like this but I would not back down. I had been silenced and placed on the sidelines for too long by men and I would not be silent anymore.
"If you are discussing how to get revenge on Bernard, then I want to join, father. He hurt me and embarrassed me, I need to defend my honor."
"I am your father, it is my job to defend your honor. Go and rest or perhaps help your mother with something. I will handle this, my dear."
I wanted to fight him but from the look in his eyes, I knew he was on the brink of exploding. I bit down on my tongue and exited the room. I stomped my way up the stairs but as soon as I got to the top, I felt a wave of nausea hit me. I ran to the closest bathroom and hunched over the toilet.
I heaved violently as my body expelled all the waste, the bitter taste of stomach acid filled my mouth. I walked along the wall to the sink and rinsed my mouth with mouthwash. This is the third time I have vomited this week.
I looked at myself in the mirror, the woman staring at me didn't look at me at all. Her amber eyes that usually resembled a roaring fire were dimmed, and all the colors had drained from my face. The usual rosiness in my cheeks was absent, I looked like I was dying. The nausea had subsided but I could still feel the faint uneasiness of my stomach churning in the distance.
What could I have eaten that was causing me to feel so disgusting? My mind racked itself trying to think of what could have possibly caused this then I stilled.
"No, it can be." I whispered.
The word that kept echoing in my head was 'pregnant.' I tried to think back to when I last saw my period and for the life of me, I couldn't remember it.
"Damn it!" I slammed my hand on the marble countertop.
I ran to my room and went straight to the bathroom, I rummaged through the drawers until I found exactly what I was looking for. I stared at the box, unsure if I wanted to open it. I pulled out the pregnant strip and stared at it.
"Come on, Helen." I dipped the strip into my urine and faced down because I didn't want to watch the line appear or not, I just wanted to see the results. After twenty minutes, I braved myself and flipped the strip over to reveal the results. And behold, the wad positive, I am PREGNANT.
I blinked once, it was still there, I blinked twice, the same thing and even the third time. My mind thought back to a time I had tried so hard to forget. It was the time that Bernard had first rejected me, I had been so deep into depression that I needed to take alcohol to ease the pain. I remembered being at the bar and talking to a guy. He was being easy on the eyes, I was lonely and in need of attention, and he was there. One thing led to another and we found ourselves in a hotel room having sex. I used him to numb a void that had been left within me and he used me for a release. I left that day before the sun rose and I didn't bother looking for him. It was a mistake and I wanted to remain in my past but now the consequences of that night were catching up to me once again.
"I can't be pregnant." I was in utter shock and disbelief. I don't even know the name of the guy I had sex with.
How could my life get this worse? I had not only lost a mate but now I had shamed myself by getting pregnant with a man who wasn't even my mate. This would bring dishonor not only to me but to my entire family. If this pregnancy belonged to an Alpha, the situation would have been better. My child would have a claim to a title and I would be made a Luna.
Then like a light in the darkness, an idea came to mind. Maybe I could work this all out to play in my favor. I could still kill two birds with one stone. I just need to proceed with caution because if the past had taught me anything, it was that planning was required to beat your enemy.
Bernard Joseph had thought he had gotten rid of me, well now I am coming back with revenge. You crossed the wrong woman, Bernard. I am coming for you.
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