Victorious
Adea
“I saw the way you looked at him. I can’t remember a single time you’ve ever looked at me that way,” Alpha growled.
Anger. That’s what I felt. He wasn’t the only one who was angry, he didn’t even have a right to be. So why? Why were the tables reversed? Why was I expected to remain quiet? I had a right to be angry, I had every right. He thought he could tell me what to do, overpower me, own me, and maybe he did, but he doesn’t get to tell me how to feel.
“You may own my body, you may get to decide what I do and where I go, but you don’t get to tell me how to think or feel. You may be my master, but you are not in control of my thoughts, or my heart,” I said calmly.
That was the wrong thing to say. He grabbed my wrist and I was thrown to the floor. The beautiful dress dirty now that I was on my knees. I laughed. I assume it didn’t matter now that he hired and paid someone to have this dress done in haste. The reason for it was over and done with. I dipped my chin, but kept my eyes on him. I needed to see him and know where he was.
“Do you think that because I favor you, you can speak to me this way?” Alpha asked. When I didn’t answer, I could feel his alpha power around me. “Answer me!” He growled.
“Have I said something wrong? Has anything I have said been disrespectful? I followed your rules at the meeting. I only spoke the truth, Alpha. I may be nothing more than your property, but all you own is my physical body. Is that not enough? My mind is my own. I performed well today, I did nothing out of turn, and I kept my mouth closed. I embodied the perfect Luna. What have I done to warrant this treatment? Have I done something wrong?” I asked.
I tried my best to keep my voice low and calm. I didn’t want to poke the beast when he was already past irritated. He nudged my wrist with the tip of his shoe. His green eyes were filled with irritation and they flared with something else, something dark, something fierce.
Jealousy.
“You have done something wrong. You’ve refused to give me all of what is mine, but that’s okay. I will have it all. I will have you, all of you. I don’t just want your body. I want your soul, I want your mind, I want your obedience, your fucking devotion,” Alpha growled. His alpha power pressed down on my shoulders, asking me to bow lower, but not forcing me, not yet.
“Haven’t you had enough? Haven’t you taken enough from me? You cannot have any of those things. I’m…” I trailed off. A single tear slid down my cheek. I was caught off guard by his words and more so by my emotion.
Saying those words would only forcefully push him from the edge I was trying so hard to get him down from. When had things turned out this way? When had I started to tiptoe around him? When had I started to bend under his will? When had I decided I needed to appease him?
It angered me.
I angered myself.
“Say it,” Alpha dared.
I could see his chest rise and fall with each angry breath he took. I could almost see the smoke coming from his ears. I should have been scared, I should have lowered my head to the floor and done whatever it took for me to make him feel better, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t do anything for him now that I had the knowledge that he was winning. Now that I knew he stood victorious in this war that I waged against him. He wanted me to say it? He wanted me to be honest? He wanted me to stop toeing the line and step over the line that kept me safe? I’d do it.
“My soul? My obedience? My devotion? Those are things you can’t have because I am not yours,” I said through gritted teeth.
“Is this where we are? We’re back to square one?” Alpha snarled.
“My opinion doesn’t matter, you just want me to tell you what you want to hear. I’m only expected to bow and obey, right?” I spat.
“You? Obey? Never,” Alpha said as he glared down his nose at me.
“Then what? If you know then why are you so angry? What has pushed you so close to the edge?!” I yelled. The veil masking my emotions finally slipped and I couldn’t get it back on no matter how hard I tried.
Alpha snarled at my words, but I didn’t care. Physical pain was something I was well acquainted with at this point and there was nothing he hadn’t already done to me. As if hearing my thoughts, he leaned forward until he was at the edge of his seat. He reached down, his fingers gripped a handful of my hair and I cried out as he yanked my head to the side. I glared up at him, automatically resigning myself to whatever was about to happen. It wasn’t even my choice anymore, my body just obeyed.
It didn’t matter what I felt in front of my mate because it meant nothing. What would my feelings do for me? Nothing, they did nothing. Whatever I had felt back there wouldn’t help me in here, in front of Alpha. No one back there would help me. I stared into those green eyes, angry that he still had to put me into the place he designated for me. He leaned close, so close that I could smell his breath, so close that I could feel it fan against the side of my face. His lips were so close that I could feel the warmth of it on my neck.
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