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Shane
The pain etched in her features knocks the wind out of me. She’s looking at me like I’d just struck her. I want nothing more than to take her up on her offer. I want to whisk her away and take her far from here. It’s all I’ve ever wanted to do. I still want to, but for once in my life I’m trying to do what’s right. I’m thinking about her well being. I’m thinking about after we run from here. We aren’t kids anymore, we can’t just expect a happily ever after. I need to make it happen and right now I’m in no condition to fight or protect her right now.
Blood trickles down my back as if to confirm what I already know. I won’t admit it out loud but right now I’m weak. I’m nothing. I can’t help her. They don’t know about us right this minute, but when will they know? Ethan will eventually lose his patience and send someone after her. I’m not in the best condition and I don’t think I can shift. She hasn’t shifted yet and I don’t want to take the chance they’ll find us.
I don’t care about myself. I care about her, her well being. I need her alive and I’m not sure I can do that when I go back. If we’re caught trying to run from here it’ll be the end. Not just for me but for her, for us. I’ll be punished and then executed but she’ll be punished too. I’ll be dead and she’ll be alone. At least if I leave I’ll be doing what I need to do for me, for us. She’ll still be alone this way but at least I’ll be coming back for her. We still have hope. Our future will still have hope.
The last thing I want to do is leave her here under her father’s rule. I don’t want to leave her knowing that that piece of shit poor excuse for an alpha will be taking her from here. If he waits a few days before he leaves, there’s still the time it’ll take to travel back to his territory. It’ll lessen her time with him.
Never in my life would I have ever thought that she would have to spend a single day here after she turned of age. I remember thinking we would be gone before she was of age. Never would I have thought that I would even consider leaving her in Ethan’s care, but at this point I don’t have a choice.
At least with Ethan her father can’t control her or hurt her. Even though it feels like I’m switching one either out for another my hands are tied. It tears me up inside knowing that I can’t do anything for her right now. I want to punch something. I feel like less of a man having to depend on the obsession another man has with my woman.
If I wasn’t hurt I’m confident I could get away with her, but that isn’t the only problem here. I need to go back and take what’s mine. I can’t provide for her and I can’t give her what she deserves. I can’t even give her what she needs. I’m a pathetic excuse of a man but I’ll do everything I need to be the man she needs, the man she deserves.
I’ll challenge my father and kill him when I’m healed. I’ll take my birthright back and when I’m Alpha I’ll get her. It won’t be long, it shouldn’t be long. Tears prick the corners of my eyes. I’m weak. If I had gone back earlier maybe I could have prevented this. My weakness is costing me and it’s going to cost her, and that’s what hurts the most about this.
If I can just have some time I believe I can provide her with everything she wants and needs. I can make something of myself and then we can have our happily ever after. Her pleads make me want to give in but I need to do this. Even if she doesn’t forgive me I’ll come for her. I’ll never forgive myself for this but it’s all I can do.
Her hands push against my chest but it does nothing. Her fists bounce off my chest and I hold her close. I shake my head and her shoulders start to shake. She asks me why but I can’t tell her yet. Telling her will only scare her. I need to make it happen and I need her to trust me. I need her to wait for me.
I promise I’ll come for you.
“Wait for me,” I plead.
“No, please,” Adea cried. “Please Shane, please don’t leave me. Don’t leave me here with them. Don’t leave me with Ethan,” she choked.
“I-I know, I don’t want to. Please,” I begged. “Please wait for me.”
“How can you ask me to wait for you when you’re leaving me?” Adea said angrily. “You’re not giving me a choice, you’re not explaining, you’re just… you’re just leaving me to him! How can you love me if you’re okay with him… if you’re okay with me being with him?!”
“I’m not okay—” I start but she cuts me off.
“Don’t… don’t. Just leave,” Adea whispered.
I can hear her heartbreaking and I can feel her pain as if it were my own. I hate myself knowing that I’m hurting her. I need to do this for us. Tears stream down her cheeks and she closes her eyes so she can’t see me anymore. My hands fall to my side in defeat.
I look at her one more time because this will be the last time I see her. Her red eyes from crying, her nose and the cute freckles sprinkled across her face, her lips. We haven’t been separated for a long period of time since we first met and I already miss her. I pull her toward me and kiss her. She resists me at first but eventually opens up for me. I taste her salty tears on my tongue. This kiss is painful and consuming.
“I love you,” I murmur when we separate.
She doesn’t say anything but she doesn’t need to. It doesn’t matter how angry she is or how much she hates me in this moment. I know she loves me. I don’t want to but time is running out and I know I need to leave. It takes every fiber in my body but somehow I stand to my feet, put my mask back in place, turn from her, and walk out the door.
I’ll come for you.
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