Lie
It was like we had to be quiet, had to whisper so the spell didn’t lift, so we didn’t pop the bubble that kept us in this private world where it was just me and him. What did he mean there was only so much he could do? He was so close, yet he felt so far away. My heart yearned for him, and when my fingers brushed against his neck, I couldn’t help myself. I leaned into him and pressed my lips where my fingers had just been.
“Princess…” he warned. I pulled back. Tear blurred my vision and slid down my cheeks when I closed my eyes.
“I just…” I trailed off.
Want to be close to you.
Goddess, I’m pathetic.
His large hand gripped the back of my neck, and I was yanked forward. My eyes opened, and I stared up at him as he lowered himself. His lips brushed against my temple and then something wet slid up my cheek. His breathing became haggard, and when he stared down at me, it was like he was undressing me and staring into the depths of my soul.
“I—”
I closed the distance between us and pressed my lips to his. We’ve kissed already quite a few times. They’d been merciless, harsh, rough, and cruel. They had been angry, teeth crashing against teeth, fueled by pain, but this kiss was different. My lips were hesitant against his, as if asking for him to let me in. It was gentle, warm, and when I parted my lips, he did the same, his tongue finding mine. They danced, our lips melded together as if they’d done this a million times.
More tears streamed down my cheeks as I sneaked a breath in and sobbed before his lips wrapped around mine again. His thumb rubbed a small circle into the back of my neck and I wrapped my arms around his neck. Fear coursed through my body—fear of losing this moment, fear of waking from a dream and realizing this hadn’t happened, fear of him returning to the person he’d been less than an hour ago and tearing my heart to shred, fear of time running out.
My nose was running and I could feel it start to run. It wasn’t pretty, but I didn’t care. The last few weeks had brought a whirlwind of change, and it was all catching up to me. I crawled into his lap and wrapped my arms around his neck. He tensed, but I was greedy, so damn greedy for the affection he was giving me. I kissed him slowly and grabbed his arms, bringing them behind me. I only let go when I knew he was holding me.
Please, please, please.
Just give me this.
Korra was quiet, but I could feel her here with me. Watching. Being a part of this moment. His knuckles cracked, and I could feel his kiss change. I knew it was only a matter of moments before I lost him. I shook my head, my body trembling as I gripped both sides of his face. He broke free, our breath mingling. Even as I felt his denial coming, I felt his body harden beneath me.
“Adea,” he warned.
“Please,” I begged.
“I can’t give you what you want,” he said.
“You can. You already have, just give it to me again. Here. Now,” I pleaded.
“This isn’t that. I’m not… you’re not… I can’t be who you want,” he said. It was like he’d thrown a rock at the glass and everything was shattering again. My heart ached, but instead of getting angry, I felt hurt.
“You’re lying,” I said.
“I’m not. I don’t want you… like that,” he said.
“Like what? Like a man wants a woman? Like an alpha wants his mate? Then why do you keep coming around? Why do you keep interrupting my life? Did you know from the very beginning? Did you come into my life just to fuck with me?” I asked. I balled my fists, fighting the urge to punch him again. I’d embarrassed myself beyond repair and I’d lowered myself for someone that couldn’t even be bothered.
“I’m not the one who came for you,” Shane said.
“What?” I asked.
“I stayed away. I didn’t interrupt anything. I stayed the fuck away from you. I came here only to take over another pack and add it to the many others I’d conquered. I’ve known of you, I’ve known of my… destiny. You’re angry at me, but I’m not the one that came for you,” he spat.
And just like that, everything that had shattered lay at my feet—at our feet.
His hands fell from around me and when I looked up, I found the Shane I knew staring down at me. My body shook and there was nothing I could do about the tears. One second he’d been someone that was open, someone that I felt like I could talk to, and the next, he was an impenetrable wall. His eyes flashed with emotion, but before he could crack against, he crashed his lips to mine. I sagged against him, wanting whatever it was that he could give me. After tonight, I wouldn’t let my wall down again. At least, that’s what I told myself. I pulled away from him and he growled. His head was bent down and I felt warm in his arms.
Even if it was a lie.
“Come upstairs,” I whispered.
“Let’s stay here,” he said.
“Why? What are you afraid of?” I asked.
“I don’t need to go upstairs,” he said.
“Is that how you’re going to distance yourself from me?” I asked.
“I’m not coming upstairs, Princess,” he said.
His hands were on my waist, and I was lifted and then placed on the seat. Rejection. It stung. He opened the door and climbed out. Turning toward me, he offered me his hand, and being the bundle of mess that I was right now, I took it. I stepped out of the truck and he closed the door. I stared up at him as he leaned against it. He was undeniably the most beautiful man I’d ever seen. Even after rejecting me, I couldn’t help but admire his beauty.
“I’ll stay here until you get inside,” he said. I bit my lip and nodded. My throat was dry and my stomach dropped as I turned from him and headed toward my apartment.
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