Chapter 144

Lexi


When Arya went for her run I stayed in the back of her mind and let her have her fun. I have been taking the driver's seat often now it was her turn. She needed this. To know that her mates were not injured after the fight. I know they told her they were fine but just like me, she needed to see it with her own eyes. I let her have her fun, which I am pretty sure included fucking her mates several times before she let me have control again. I am not comfortable, yet knowing about what they do. I do know I had an exhausted wolf when she shifted. Ryan and Luther said the same thing as we walked back to the packhouse. Luther started laughing just as we walked up the back steps.

Instead of explaining she told us to listen to our wolves. That is when I heard it. Diesel was snoring. Loudly. I didn’t know wolves could snore. Arya and Stone were breathing steadily like they were in a deep sleep. It is safe to say they wore themselves out. I don’t think we will hear from them for at least a couple of hours. Which I discovered later was a big help. After we had showered and then dressed Luther had me sit against the headboard of our bed. Luther and Ryan sat in front of me. “ Baby, we need to talk,” Luther said. Not the best way to start a conversation. It sounds ominous.

“ Honey, it isn’t bad. Don’t think like that.” Ryan said. “ Shit. I could have said that better. Baby, Ryan is right. It isn’t bad. I promise.” Luther said. “ Honey, we know you have a lot on your mind. All the time.” Ryan said. I thought I was doing a good job of hiding how overwhelmed I feel sometimes. “ You do try to hide it. But you can’t hide it from Arya. She shares it with Deisel and Stone, who share it with us.” Ryan continued. “ We can’t take away all your stress. We can help reduce it.” Luther told me. “ Like you did in the shower.” I giggled.

I was referring to Ryan playing with my tits while Luther fucked me. Then they switched. “ As much as we wish we could do that all the time. No, not this time.” Luther chuckled. I pouted a little because I love our sexy times. I also know it can’t be sexy times all the time. It is just life. “ Aww, don’t do that. We will have plenty of time for naked relaxing later. For now, we want to help you with something.” Ryan said. I tilted my head confused as to what he was getting at. “ Valerose,” Luther said. “ Oh,” I said not knowing what else to say.

We haven’t discussed anything to do with Val after I told Luther and Ryan what Mother said about the Vampire Goddess and Val being another mate. I don’t know where to begin to bring it up or discuss it. I don’t have any answers myself how am I supposed to bring it up with my mates? “ We know you have been stressing about how to approach us. As well as what you want to do.” Luther said. No kidding. I know what way I’m leaning but there is so much to factor in. “ We know something has been on your mind since we left the cells. Talk to us.” Ryan told me. For some reason I keep forgetting I’m not in this alone. I can rely on my mates to help me shoulder some of the burden. We are in this together. How do I tell my wonderful, sexy mates that I want another one?

I don’t want them to feel like they aren’t enough. Trust me they are. More than enough. If I hadn’t been given another mate I wouldn’t ask for more. But I have for some reason that I still can’t figure out. Does the Vampire Goddess think I’m not getting enough sex? Does she think I can satisfy three men? And what if they don’t get along. Val is a vampire. The two species don’t get along. Val is known to be a ruthless cruel murderer who thinks wolves are beneath him. How can I be mated to someone like that? “ Lexi?” Luther’s voice pulls me from my thoughts.

“ You are right. Something is bothering me. Honestly, a lot is bugging me.” I told them. I jumped off the bed to pace. I think better that way. I explained all my concerns about Val being my mate. From how I will handle him to how he will get along with Luther and Ryan. I explained that the two times I have met with him I didn’t get the murderous vibe from him. That could have just been with me thought. I explain how I feel about the attack. Something about it feels off to me. I tell them how I don’t feel like Val was behind it.

When I say that Ryan asks “ Why don’t you feel like Valerose was behind it? Is that what he has been after all along?” “ He has tried to kill me before I got Arya. But that all changed remember. First, we figured he wanted me on his side. Then Mother said he was my third mate. Do you think he would want to harm his mate?” I laid out. Ryan and Luther cringe at the thought of hurting me. So I would imagine Val would feel the same. “ Then there was the way the prisoner talked. Never once did he say that Val ordered for me to be attacked. He said the group thought the King would reward them for killing me. He said the King told them they were supposed to watch me and report. The order to attack and kill me came from someone else. Then there was the attack itself. Completely unorganized. The King of Vampires wouldn’t launch half assed attack on me knowing what I can do.” I continued.

“You have a good point. I bet it was that fucker who was running his mouth. Acted like it was going to easy to kill us.” Luther said. He is probably right but it doesn’t matter now because they are all dead. “ Lexi, you have valid points about the attack. I agree. We also know there is more you not telling us. What is it?” Ryan asked. Well, shit. I can’t hide anything from these two, can I? Okay, how do I say this without hurting anyone’s feelings? Before I can formulate a single word I get pushed to the back of my mind. “ Arya, what are you doing?” I asked. “ Helping you, my sweet human,” she said.

Luther notices the change first. “ Arya, what’s wrong?” he asked. “ Nothing is wrong. Lexi has been battling with this since she first discovered she could have a third mate. She didn’t know how to tell you because she was afraid of how you would feel. Lexi is worried you will think you aren’t enough for her. Lexi does want her third mate. She can’t help it. So do I. We are drawn to Val in a similar way we are drawn to you. His Goddess wants us to be mates for a reason we haven’t figured out just yet. Mother agrees with his Goddess. You have said so yourselves. Who are we to go against the Goddess? Lexi is worried that she might lose one or both of you because Val is a vampire. Or that you will think less of her. These are just some thoughts she has rolling around in her head. Some are horrible. Like that, you might think she is a slut for wanting three men.” Arya told him.

She isn’t wrong. I have had all those thoughts. It scares me. I don’t want to lose them or for them to think less of me. “ Thanks, Arya. Give Lexi back. We will fix it.” Ryan said. “ I know you will,” Arya said before giving me back control. I looked down at the floor and waited. I was scared of what I might see in their eyes. I hear shuffling and footsteps. I feel a finger under my chin lifting my head. Luther is touching me but they are both standing in front of me. I bravely looked into their eyes. I see concern, love, and attraction but no disgust. So that is a good sign. Right?

“ Baby, we could never think less of you, or call you a slut for wanting your mate. Even if it is a third one.” Luther told me. “ Love, Luther and I have talked about this. We prepared for several possibilities. Accepting Valerose is one of them. We trust you and both Goddesses. So if you want Valerose we will figure out how to make it work.” Ryan told me. You could have knocked me over with a feather. Wow. I didn't think it would be that easy. I would have avoided an enormous amount of stress if I would have talked to them sooner. " Really?" I asked. Luther chuckled at my reaction. " Will it be easy? Not by a long shot. Can it be done? If we work together Valerose changes from a crazed murderer. Yeah, we will come up with something to make it work." Luther said. " For you, Lexi we would make anything work. We wouldn't be good mates if we made you pick and choose." Ryan said. That was all I could handle. I let the waterworks go. I wrapped my arms around both of them the best I could, holding them tight. " I love you both. So much. Never doubt it."